Unsent messages to CAYDEN

You are so precious

I still think about you once in awhile. I was happy with you. I wish you'd been more open with me

I still wear your shirt. I miss the way our laundry smelt

hi…i miss u. i’ll always be waiting for u :( <3

maybe if you weren’t so nonchalant.

it’ll always be u.

i will always love you i still have all your things.

i really am sorry
i truly wish you the best

I know you don’t like me but I’m here for you,always.

I’m sorry but being friends with you was ruining me

i love you with all my heart. i always will. i wish i could be a better girlfriend for you. you mean the world to me and i only want you. i cant wait till we grow up and live together. i’ll get to see you everyday. that’s my only wish. i love you cayden.

I didn't end things with you because I liked him more, I ended things because my parents forced me too. Five months later and I'm not with him, for lots of reasons. But mainly because I can't stop loving you.

I miss you so much we had an unbreakable bond but now we walk past eachother as if we were strangers . Crazy right ?

I think about you all the time, the last time i told anyone that i loved them and actually meant it was to you that one night. I meant everything i said that night

You mean so much to me is it crazy. I think about you constantly, until I wake up and then fall asleep. Never thought someone like you would mean this much to me. Even if you don't like me back the way i like you i wont be mad or sad just as long as you are happy. Sometimes i wonder if you know how much i care about you, like when your friend told me you guys thought i was playing you i cried so hard and talked to him till 4 am trying to fix this. I learn more and more everyday and some of those things are about you. Your friends have told me some about you but not too much. I wish that you could just pop up in my room and could watch netflix and we could cuddle together. I also wish you felt the same about me that i feel about you.

I talk about you everyday to my friends. I never thought i would say this but i love you. I wish i had the guts to tell you that too. You mean so much to me it is crazy, never thought i would care that much about a person who used to be a stranger to me.

I only want to ask you why? why did you do it? what was going through your mind as cheated over and over again? why wasn't I good enough?

why tf did you get with my bsf and break her heart. i didnt care that you got with her just you broke her. when we were in a relationship, you made me hella uncomfy with tmi details. i better not hear you did that to her. god youre such a player.

Dear cayden,

the way you made me feel at such a young age is something I will never forget. through tears and smiles i learned to love you. you caused me so much pain that you don't realize. even through that pain i never gave up i stood by your side i never stopped loving you. Until i realized what we had was nothing, it was all fake it seems like it was all a dream. i found someone who has showed me what a real relationship looks like and what it feels like to be in a real life relationship not an online one. The reason you ended things is cause we never saw each other maybe, just maybe, if you made an effort it could have worked. All it would have taken is effort. You missed your chance. You had 6 months to take your chance. You took advantage of my weak spot knowing I would come back to you, you took advantage of me. for 6 months you took advantage. after realizing things i realized, you are not someone i should be loving, not someone worthy of my love. I always thought we were meant for each other. I was so in love with you I couldn't love anyone else. Until now I have realized how awful you were to me and how bad you treated me. you never loved me i loved you and you took advantage of my love and affection. Now I've finally moved on. I have moved on to someone who won't take advantage of me who will put in the effort. It's over for you, you had 6 months of your time up. Please dont come crawling back to my soft spot cause deep down i will forever love you, so god help me if you fuck up what i have going i will never forgive you i have done that enough. The way i loved you was nothing i knew i could do. after everything u did to me you taught me so many things thank you for that. nothing else. i will always love you not like i used to but loving you killed me. im done loving you like that now. im sorry. i love you so much. 

You have hurt me so many times and I continue to love you and let you keep hurting me. I remember everything every single day. I relive the moments I found out. But I can’t stop loving you. I imagine the pain I would be in without you and it’s unbearable. I think about the pain your causing me now and it’s so confusing. I don’t even want to picture you with another girl. You’re my everything and my nothing all at the same time.

i don’t want to be annoying. but i really love you. you mean a lot to me. so stay this time, ok? let me hold you in my arms.