I've decided that bumblebee is too lovey so I guess you're ryo. and your bestie can be akira. I feel like that's the best way I can describe you two. OR maybe its the other way around. I always thought sis would be akira. For some reason they resemble the same in my head but who knows but Ryo, please be careful.

“ the sweet confession letter i got from you is still carved into my brain word to word. its sad we cant be together but my future will always be with you.
-A”

Thought you knew he was a child molester when he had assaulted you at the age of 15. ??‍♀️

Oh my goodness you can stay out of my yard lovely promise he isn’t he I feel a deep hatred towards him

Godddddds you hurt me bad. so bad. you wanted silence yet told everyone how much you hated me the next day. I'm trying so hard to stay alive and i just can't. and you wanna know what I found out? that when she dated me, she wasn't over you. so i was a shortcut. a follow up. someone who was just there for a little while. so tell your friend to stop comparing herself to me when she's the one she really wants.

I'm empty. I've never really felt this alone. You posted about how you would never put someone through the same type of hurt that you went through but you put and still are putting me through the same thing you went through. Except now there's no me to be there for me, like i was there for you

Let me spoil you with my words. For these are the only things I have. Let me make you feel loved in a way that at least you know someone thinks you're as beautiful as the evening sunset and as beautiful as dawn. You have a fiery passion and a passionate love. Never change my sweet.

Thanks for keeping me up last night, and although I really only slept for 3 hours, those were the best sleep i've had in weeks because you were back

I'm terrified of loving someone again. I didn't think i'd ever be this scared to love someone but I am. She really did a number on me didn't she? And God, I really want to love you. You make me feel safe. You're something that's familiar I guess in the mess of my head that is changing rapidly. I'm becoming more quiet. I'm becoming more anxious. and i'm becoming more scared. I am so scared. Scared enough to feel the need to cry out. I don't want to hurt you again. I don't want to get hurt again. It's only been two months. And i know i cannot give you everything you want yet. Because i still think of her constantly. She's stained into my brain and everyone talks about her all the time and i can hear her voice and it's like im going insane sometimes. The only moments i don't hear her is when you're laughing and smiling. I realize how absolutely precious life is and how i have to stay alive to keep that gorgeous laugh afloat. I wish i could help protect you from all your bad thoughts and that i could make you smile and laugh all the time. so that i don't have to hear her. I don't have to be sad and empty. Today was a sad and empty day. Last night was the first time i felt content in a really long time. i was still sad, but i was content. i didn't need anything else just your face on my phone. Thank you bumblebee. for coming back into my life and giving me another chance to make you so very happy.

To my dearest, Buzz, by the time you find this I will be already on my way to see my sister. Reading your 'text' fills my body with adrenaline. my heart is in my throat and i can barely even write. My love, thank you. Thank you in all the thank yous I could ever give. I could never live again without you. I am filled with courage to open my heart to you, and I promise, I am trying. My body is swayed in the ways of your words. They've enticingly seeped their way through my skin and into my blood. My nerves are heightened at the thought of you. My Moon, aren't you weary? Are you not beaten and bruised by the demons of the unknown? Are you not beaten and bloodied by fear, my Artemis? I fear for you, my resting flower. I should not hold you as weak, for you are not; however, I dare to say, you are too willing to put yourself through the labyrinth aftermath. I thank you that you are prepared for the battle, but I want my forger to come back home, unscathed. My sunshine, I may do just anything to protect you from the dragon that guards my tower. She's one powerful thought, backed up by the words of the people. She collects the thoughts they've said and builds an armory with them. Even when you do win the battle, that i have faith that you shall, she will lay behind me and wait to protect me. Please never give up because she'll one day let you protect me instead. And you can have all the riches and the fame and the glory of "slaying the dragon". But i know that's not what you fought years for. You can have me, and when your dragon begins seething, I shall remind you of all the days I wished of your warmth inside the lonely tower of my mind.

You have no idea what you did to my heart. Sometimes, I still want you to reach out to me.