Unsent messages to BRADLEY

why was i not good enough for you, why did you give up on me, what did you see in her that I couldnt give to you?

I saw every shred of myself within you and when I looked in your eyes I saw my own reflection and, for the first time in my life, didn’t run from it. I know your happier now that you’re different, I know everything’s different and all that once could have been is gone. Everything you once were is gone. You’re gone, yet you’re still here.

i loved u and still do. always have always will. you were the best and worst for me. i wanted to hate you i really did but that just isn't an option. i wish u cld understand exactly how much i love u but u won't ever get it.

u have the prettiest smile in the world and i wished i didn't move because i cant see it anymore. Also pls change ur hair back it doesn't look good lol.

i've moved on, but im not over you yet. u know? i really can't imagine a time when i won't be. on the one hand, i know this is absolutely for the best. i know it, i knooow. that said, if you came back, i would have the hardest time saying no. but i wouldnt want to let you back, i dont think thatd be smart. but i would want to, so so so badly you have no idea. luckily that doesn't seem like an issue ill be having anytime soon haha. i just want you to want me again

i fucking hate you. you lied to me and you are so toxic. i can’t believe how blind i was to ever love you. fuck you

i still wait for 7pm to roll around everyday, in hopes that you’d be the one to reach out and tell me you took your meds.

Hey, I think about you quite often when I know I shouldn’t. I know that your mind is thinking of her. I hope maybe one day we’ll come back to each other as friends and I’ll hear all about what I’ve missed in your life and you’ll do the same. P.S. I’m not angry anymore.

you are my best friend. i love you more than anything on earth. thank you for keeping me here. i don’t know how to live without you

I had yet another fucking dream about you I hate it SO much dude it literally KILLS me when I wake up. Basically we were probably dating? I mean probs because it was a normal dream and stuff but you would hold my hand and we were veryyy physically needy. Haha not like horny or anything but we just always needed to be touching. So we would watch a movie and I would be rubbing your leg or from under the dinner table we would have our legs touching. Nothing crazy but it was just the sweet sweet parts of being in a relationship and I really miss having that with someone, you particularly. I love that aspect of being in a relationship, just alwaysss wanting to be close to each other. Little things aw

i thought i loved you. but you were toxic, changed my life. we never talked like ever but i thought i loved you so much i hated myself

you broke me, and i still want you. i should have cut you off when everyone said too, but i was in love with u ?

I know it was only a few months but you were my first boyfriend my first kiss my first taste of love. It meant so much to me and I broke when you confessed you only used me.

hey hoeee sup lil bitch this is corny as fuck but im glad to have you in my life and i honestly dont know what i would do without you. thank you for listening to my rants even tho ur prob tired of them. i rlly appreciate you for that. even if you secretly hate me and talk shit abt me behind my back :,)