Unsent messages to BLAKE

Even though we just talked, I fell in love with you. But now that you left me in the dark, I have no one to understand me anymore.

You fixed me after he broke me. You're the first boy who seems to care about me. I love you baby. I hope the dynamic duo never splits up ♥️

you are all i want. i pray that one day i will be enough for you. you are the one for me. i just want to be the one for you.

you will always be my favorite person and people think were gonna get married and i wouldnt mind if we did

hey. idk if you’ll ever see this, but we’re actually on the phone right now. you didn’t like seeing the morally just side of me tonight, but i only pulled her out because i love you. you’re my best friend, but i really do think i’m falling in love with you. even looking at it makes me smile. you’ll know this is me, and that’s okay i think. you’re not romantically in love with me, and that’s okay. for now, i’ll keep remembering these little moments that happen accidentally. tonight was one of the hardest nights in a while until you called. i laughed genuinely. i’m thinking abt the day you gave me my birthday gift and i severely regret not kissing you. one of our favorite moments for sure. i love you endlessly raina blake. xoxo

You told me I was too clingy, but I was just trying to show you my love and I’m sorry it was too much

Although I don’t think I miss you, I miss the memories we share but I know that’s all it will ever be. Memories

So much pain for what to be strangers again I mean I guess so I can’t force u to care again I mean when things ended u said we can still talk and be friends, I wonder if this is all my fault when u wanted to talk and I did too I didn’t know it would end like that and we couldn’t even snap or even txt w o it being awkward or me carrying it on my back I hope one day u realize how much I was there for u and how much I am now and I wish u happiness even tho it prob wont b w me

I know this was not supposed to be anything but somehow ive fallen for you and im afraid you don't feel the same.

all i can think about is the way u hold me. us in the cold and u pulling me so close to your chest i can hear your heartbeat and breathing. though we arent together anymore doesnt mean i dont love you anymore i still have so much love for u.

you promised. you promised you wouldn't leave. you said i made you happy, you said you loved me, yet you still left

I still get sad thinking the day you stopped talking to me for no reason. It’s been such a long time since then, but I still remember the smell of your hair and the way we used to stop kissing just to smile to each other. Sometimes I still expect to check my phone and see a message from you.

I thought we loved each other... what happened? You left me so sad, I could never hate you even though I act like I do.

i was always your last choice even though i was always the best choice. and even though i’m way out of your league, i would have settled for you because you made me feel complete even though you treated me like absolute shit. and i’m thankful now that we were never together because i deserve better than that.

why do you keep coming back? i’m glad you’re doing well but i’m confused. our birthday is soon. i wanna talk about it please.

I wish we could have stayed friends, but i don't think you even realize what you did. so um fuck you.

im happy for you and your girlfriend.
i regret telling him i liked you, and i hate him for telling you. but its ok now ig.
i hate how you used to flirt with me and how made me believe you liked me too. and i hate hw you just ignore me now. you also left me feeling like i was worthless for days, i would cry every night but im better now. anyway thank you for making me realize that at the end of the day not everyone is there for you :,)

i get butterflies everytime i think of you, why did you have to choose her. i just wanna play rocket with you one last time. i miss you

It hurts to see that you’ve moved on. But in a way, I’m happy for you. I’m sorry I broke what we had. I wish I could hear your voice. Please call me.

I knew you were going to be a part of my world since we met in sixth grade. Ive liked you for so long but I couldn't do that to a friend. I don't think I can ever. Even if we’re together or not speaking, you will always have a place in my heart. I just cant make a move and I know you wont. I just hope you see the signs..

Although I haven't known you long, you make me a better person and I always want to be your friend, and if you feel the same as me I would love to be more then friends, but I'm also just okay as we are right now.

around you, i can let my guard down. when i talk to you, i feel my voice if finally being heard. when i'm with you, i feel complete and when we part ways at the end of the day, i can't stop thinking about you. i wake up every morning only wanting to check if you've texted me and if you do, it's the highlight of my week. to me, you are the absolute definition of sunshine, but you'll never know it. you have no idea that you are keeping me alive.

You were my first crush, my first love, my first kiss. I fell hard for you but I didn’t mean anything to you.

i know you don’t care but sometimes i think about what could’ve happened if you didn’t give up so easily

god. you are so perfect. you may not be my first love but you’re my biggest love. i want you to be with me forever.

You texted me after 5 months apart. Told me how much you missed me and us. Took me out to eat to answer my questions because it's what you thought I deserved which I did. Told me how you tried to talk to another girl and it just wasn't me. Found out you hadn't deleted any pictures either. We hung out the first time together again at your house Nov. 10th. Then we continued to, and talk and act like we're going to date. Now you're doing it again, shutting me out and going back to not telling me why. Even your friends thought you had changed, they're on my side on this. But what you didn't know is the first time we hung out again I didn't know if I even felt anything when we kissed, holding you I was filled with concern the whole time of this happening like you are now. But I keep telling myself that you came back for a reason, that there is something here. But we're back to square one again. I want to make you as happy as you make me, you're my yellow and you don't even realize it. I want to give you all my love but you refuse it for some reason, I can't eat or sleep. We haven't talked for the past few days and it's killing me. I can't be friends with you right now, I still care about you too much to be friends. If we don't workout again, just know it'll break me to see you move onto another girl, love her like you used to love me. I dread that day Blake M. I just want to be able to spoil you with my love..why is that so much to ask for?..

it hurts to know u are constantly a thought in my mind but i’m nothing in yours and that you put me back in the place you told me you were never going to let me go again.

thank you for bringing me back the happiness i was missing i wish i can tell you but i am too scared to admit it thank you

Even though it has been years since you rejected me I’m glad that you were my first love and I still have a bit of feelings for you.

This isn’t a love, but I would like it to be. But it can’t. Or at least for now. Now I just continue with life until then

Honestly, you were the best first love someone could ask for, I am so thankful that you showed me what being treated right feels like, thank you.

i thought we were more than friends and i know you did to but its ok i just miss staying up talking to you all night.

i want to fall so endlessly and deeply in love with you. you understand me in ways that others don’t. i want you to be mine forever. i’m so glad your here.

"hey, my name's blake w*ll*ce, if you hear my name over the intercom, i'm probably in trouble" i love you so much, baby.

It was different with you from the start. Looking back, I think I knew from that very first day we met, that you were the one.

I miss u. i know i messed up so bad and i just keep messing up and i dont know why because i really wanted us to last. and im so sorry for everything. i really am. i just want u to be happy. please come back to me and i PROMISE everything will work. please.

it was unfair of you to act like we had something when in reality you don’t want, nor can you handle a relationship. fuck you for that.

Hey. We dated for 6 years. We were best friends for 9 you were so fucking toxic for me all those years. But still I cry over you while missing you extremely. I left but God I wish I didn't have to.

I never got closure. I feel like you at least owed me that. Instead I can't move on because I never got answers. I wish I could let you go.

I can’t fall asleep without that damn kangaroo wrapped in my arms… it’s the last part of you i have left

why were yo so afraid of being with me? you didnt even give me a chance, and i dont get why you told me you were waiting for me but when i got there you just left

Your eyes made me feel home. I miss how your arms felt around me. I won’t ever forget the countless nights you let me cry all over you. I will always adore your imperfections and the way you adored mine.

I still sleep with a pillow against my back because it feels like I’m sleeping next to you. please come back

i know i ended it with you but seeing all these videos of couples and especially those that include bikes, i keep thinking of you. i know i ended it with you but i keep hoping you’ll text me and we’ll start talking again. whenever something happens, know your the first person i want to tell it to but your never there. i hope your having the fucking time of your life with the 100 girls after me and just know i purposely made this red because i knew you couldn’t read it. kisses

I don't understand. You said I was your world, but you dropped me the second someone else came. It hurt, and I was left alone.

I'm sorry my mental health was hurting you and i didn't even realize it. you deserve something i cant give you.

You changed me more than you'll ever know. Because of you, I am me.
I love you. I hope you knew that. I loved you with everything I could give.

the one day we had together made me enjoy my life again. i felt that tingly feeling as you put your hands on my body and i had thought that i would never feel that again. u made me laugh and smile more then i have in such a long time. thank you. i still think about u and i hope you’re doing well. hopefully we will be meet again someday but for now all i’m gonna say is enjoy ur life and don’t ever stop living it to the fullest.

i wanted so badly to be it for you. to be yours and the only one for you. i finally thought we were good. like we'd be back to how we were when i fell in love with you. and as soon as i let my guard down, i lost you again. and it hurts worst than the first time

You have no idea how many times I’ve typed everything out and then deleted it. I miss you so much it hurts.