Unsent Messages

You texted me after 5 months apart. Told me how much you missed me and us. Took me out to eat to answer my questions because it's what you thought I deserved which I did. Told me how you tried to talk to another girl and it just wasn't me. Found out you hadn't deleted any pictures either. We hung out the first time together again at your house Nov. 10th. Then we continued to, and talk and act like we're going to date. Now you're doing it again, shutting me out and going back to not telling me why. Even your friends thought you had changed, they're on my side on this. But what you didn't know is the first time we hung out again I didn't know if I even felt anything when we kissed, holding you I was filled with concern the whole time of this happening like you are now. But I keep telling myself that you came back for a reason, that there is something here. But we're back to square one again. I want to make you as happy as you make me, you're my yellow and you don't even realize it. I want to give you all my love but you refuse it for some reason, I can't eat or sleep. We haven't talked for the past few days and it's killing me. I can't be friends with you right now, I still care about you too much to be friends. If we don't workout again, just know it'll break me to see you move onto another girl, love her like you used to love me. I dread that day Blake M. I just want to be able to spoil you with my love..why is that so much to ask for?..