We were nothing yet something at the same time. I’ll never forget you, you’ll always be “one of those people”

all i can think about is the way u hold me. us in the cold and u pulling me so close to your chest i can hear your heartbeat and breathing. though we arent together anymore doesnt mean i dont love you anymore i still have so much love for u.

i thought we were more than friends and i know you did to but its ok i just miss staying up talking to you all night.

I know this was not supposed to be anything but somehow ive fallen for you and im afraid you don't feel the same.

you are all i want. i pray that one day i will be enough for you. you are the one for me. i just want to be the one for you.

it was unfair of you to act like we had something when in reality you don’t want, nor can you handle a relationship. fuck you for that.

You have no idea how many times I’ve typed everything out and then deleted it. I miss you so much it hurts.

So much pain for what to be strangers again I mean I guess so I can’t force u to care again I mean when things ended u said we can still talk and be friends, I wonder if this is all my fault when u wanted to talk and I did too I didn’t know it would end like that and we couldn’t even snap or even txt w o it being awkward or me carrying it on my back I hope one day u realize how much I was there for u and how much I am now and I wish u happiness even tho it prob wont b w me

You fixed me after he broke me. You're the first boy who seems to care about me. I love you baby. I hope the dynamic duo never splits up ♥️

You texted me after 5 months apart. Told me how much you missed me and us. Took me out to eat to answer my questions because it's what you thought I deserved which I did. Told me how you tried to talk to another girl and it just wasn't me. Found out you hadn't deleted any pictures either. We hung out the first time together again at your house Nov. 10th. Then we continued to, and talk and act like we're going to date. Now you're doing it again, shutting me out and going back to not telling me why. Even your friends thought you had changed, they're on my side on this. But what you didn't know is the first time we hung out again I didn't know if I even felt anything when we kissed, holding you I was filled with concern the whole time of this happening like you are now. But I keep telling myself that you came back for a reason, that there is something here. But we're back to square one again. I want to make you as happy as you make me, you're my yellow and you don't even realize it. I want to give you all my love but you refuse it for some reason, I can't eat or sleep. We haven't talked for the past few days and it's killing me. I can't be friends with you right now, I still care about you too much to be friends. If we don't workout again, just know it'll break me to see you move onto another girl, love her like you used to love me. I dread that day Blake M. I just want to be able to spoil you with my love..why is that so much to ask for?..

god. you are so perfect. you may not be my first love but you’re my biggest love. i want you to be with me forever.

Honestly, you were the best first love someone could ask for, I am so thankful that you showed me what being treated right feels like, thank you.

This isn’t a love, but I would like it to be. But it can’t. Or at least for now. Now I just continue with life until then

i know you don’t care but sometimes i think about what could’ve happened if you didn’t give up so easily

Even though we just talked, I fell in love with you. But now that you left me in the dark, I have no one to understand me anymore.

Why can’t we talk and be good every day I wonder if u talked to anyone since we talked but it’s whatever I prob don’t even cross ur mind

Even though it has been years since you rejected me I’m glad that you were my first love and I still have a bit of feelings for you.

All that talking, txting , ft and everything for months to not be able to be like civil
Or have a convo u meant a lot to me and still
do I just wanna know how u feel now

Sometimes I still feel like you messed me up pretty badly. I'm happy now, but I still have a fear of abandonment in the back of my mind because of you. And other emotional issues. I wish I had known that a relationship isn't supposed to be like what we had.

I like you so much it hurts that you don’t know

I miss you, I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you wonder if I’m okay too.

I will always love you, you’re a special person to me. It’s hard that you’re gone, I’m sorry.

I know you have feelings for me. I'm sorry I can't figure out how I feel. Wait for me okay?

I’ll always love you more than you love me. But I know you’ll never change. I wish it was us.

I love you more than anyone I’ve ever loved.

8 years since we last spoke. I think of you so often. Wish I could contact you

All I’ve done is leave you alone and you still talk bad about me…

i will never not hate you. i fear that i will run into you. i hated you when together and when apart

I still think about you almost every day.

i’m scared that no matter what i do, you will grow bored & leave. how do i live like this, my sweet?

i wish you’d understand how much i did love u. but i learned from how u treated me :3

maybe if i wasn’t so jealous of other girls things would have turned out the way i had imagined

I wonder if you ever miss me. Cuz despite everything I miss you sometimes

I want to stay with you. But I don't trust you. It's an endless cycle.

you’ll never know how i actually feel blake. it kinda hurts

i adored u as a friend and we seemed so compatible i don't understand why u don't care for me at all

I'm sorry for leaving like that.. I'm sorry I'll never come back.

I miss you and still think of you. I hope you feel the same sometimes

I could never stop loving you b

I wanna hug you to sleep like this was all a bad dream. I wish it was

Can we please be friends again?

Is it too late to...?

I’m letting you go

Thought I'd be
better if I'm with someone else, but why does my heart only beats for you?

I hope you’re okay. I think part of me will always have you in the back of my mind. I miss you

i have more feelings than words to say to you
I hope youre happy anywhere you are

I wish you knew the impact you had on me. was it all just in my head? I thought u cared about me.

I've loved you for a long time, how much longer do I have to wait, just please..

Why couldn’t you ever love me for me

I know you've moved on and happier. I know I ruined everything, but still wear your tanzanite ring.

i can’t listen to mac demarco without thinking abt u. u’re driving me crazy w/o realizing it.