Unsent messages to ASHLEY

You refuse to see your own selfishness.

Ashley, I still miss you. I hope you're okay.

i love u, a lot

Hello. How are you? I missed you.

You’re my favourite…I wish you didn’t live across the ocean.

i hated myself for how ready i was to Give you my all. i know you weren't ready but there's not much i can do now. i want You to be happy with Or without me. it became unhealthy for me to think things would change and i know you wanted this to end. i guess the time will never come but i do wish you the best.
i really do. Everything will work out for you. i know it will.

we weren’t serious but i wanted u and i wanted to give you the world. i didn’t love u but id eventually start too. wish u the best.

i knew you’d leave, everyone does. i’ll miss you, thank you for opening my eyes on so many different things. goodbye, my friend

I do not have a first love but I will say that you need to start living your life to the fullest, start getting healthy, meeting friends and more. You deserve to be happy and live FOR YOU. Not for others. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

Nunca me diste la importancia que yo te di, me duele mucho que no me quieras ya, yo aun te sigo amando como el primer día que me tope contigo y me atrevo a decir que hasta más.

hey O.o so i know you likely hate me but first of all thank you. thank you for being my friend and just being there. second, i hope you hate me less lol. finally, hopefully you do well in school and have fun with friends :) love you

youre so fucking mean to me. im always here for your problems, but whenever i try and speak up about mine all you do is say 'sorry :(' fuck you. FUCK. YOU. ASHLEY

we never rly got tgt and i always wondered what it would be like to call u my girlfriend. i wish i could hold on longer to see if we could actually eventually be together but this has caused me so much hurt bc i really really am head over heels for u. some things just don’t go your way i guess

i love you but the individuality complex is getting old. you don't need to be different from everyone all the time.

i always think of you on new years. it’s weird to think that in a few months we’ll both move away and that’ll be it. i know it just wasn’t right but you’ll always be special. maybe i’ll see you soon

You hurt me. I hope you lie awake in bed at night thinking about what you did to me. I hope you miss me. I hope you think of me later and wish you’d done better

I’ve put Everything out on the table and you told me how you felt. You didn’t want to try again and I understood but I can’t stop being the dumbest for waiting. It’s been time for me to let Go but I don’t wanna look anywhere else.. I know you moved On maybe it’s time for me to do the same.

I feel abandoned and left to fend for myself. I was trying to use it as a chip on my shoulder at first. But now I’m forgiving myself.

you had to take care of yourself first i get it but mom left and then it felt like you did too. you had a sister and brother, and a mom and dad. i had our dad and i had to be there for him so i lost myself bc i grew up too quick and pushed my feelings aside. i was only in the third grade, my mom just left, and so did my sister. i needed you. i know it’s not your fault but i just wish you were there.

Dear, Ashley

I hope you better yourself, become better, I know you can do it. They all cheer on you, because you can do it. I will wait.

I hope you get the help you need. I know you still talk badly about me, and I don’t blame you. Our friendship was weird, I’m just so proud of you for sticking around. I have to move on, I have to leave you behind. You are not good for my mental health, but I will always love you. I forgive you. I care for you. I’m not angry.

Si hubiera algo para que volviéramos en verdad quisiera saberlo, en verdad quiero otra oportunidad contigo.

Y como ya sabrás no soy de esas personas que habla mucho pero en verdad te quiero y en verdad me preocupo por ti y no solo por mi felicidad.

u are not worth my time, i had spent hours sobbing over your actions. it is stupid and of course I wish you the best, but move on holy shit

I've put off texting you for days.. You told me you didn't know how you felt about me. Maybe it's just in my head.. I want to hold you and make you the happiest but maybe I'm playing with my own thoughts thinking you would want try again the only difference is this time I won't let go.

U come up in my dreams and they turn into nightmares. I will never forgive and never forget. I hate you and I should have never trusted u. Its so suffocating thinking about you and being reminded of all the things that happened and it eats me alive inside. I hope that you know that you are the cause. No one else. I will forever blame you

to myself: you’re so mean why don’t you end it people say they care when you know they only do bc they don’t want to blame themselves after you kys. no wonder you have no friends

sometimes i want to start beef with you, but then i realize that’s stupid. i’m very glad that we are close friends. whenever we talk, we set very ambitious goals like going to italy or cottage core netherlands or something stupid. you’re one of my besties forever even tho u do not ever cry. you make me happy sissy :)

never thought of you just as a friend, you've always meant more to me. you were always the brightest part of my day and I took that for granted as soon as things went dark.
reading into things and your codewords, you gave me an Ear even if it went through the other.
I miss listening to you talk about every part of your day. we've changed and I've accepted that but that just makes me want to Get to know you all Over again.
I found the words I wish you could listen.

i get ptsd when i find the file saved on my computer or whenever your name or their names pop up. you gave me ptsd. you are the cause and I hope you know that you little fuck

honestly, it's been hard trying not to talk about how I feel about you. I fell for you when we talked and u would care for me. You made me feel cared and although you don't feel the same about me. I'm thankful for you. You made me feel like I had a purpose to wake up for school after a toxic relationship. Also, fuck summer vacation

this is to myself. how did you lose yourself so quickly and why are you so worthless. people care about you and you won’t realize until they’re gone or you love yourself. fuck you and your brain

I have so much hatred for you. I wish you never put me through what you did. I can’t really blame you, but you ruined my mental health for two fucking years and I’ll never get that back. I never want to see you again. You ruined my life, and you are a manipulative lying bitch. I cant explain to you how badly I wish I never met you. You made me feel incomplete, worthless, not enough. Fuck you. I hope your next relationships are terrible because you deserve it. I know we were just “best friends”, but I know you talked about me behind my back. I know you screenshotted everything and told your friends that hate me. Fuck you. I hope you regret your decision for the rest of your goddamn life you worthless piece of shit. You deserve nothing but pain. Pain and suffering. I hate you so much.

i remember when you told me you were cutting yourself, i cried myself to sleep that night wondering why I wasnt enough.

i don’t miss you. i’m glad we stopped being friends because i felt it was going to happen no matter what. i apologize for everything i did that hurt you. i’ve acknowledged the shit i did and tried everything i can to make sure i’m never that person again. anyways, i’m gonna be honest no matter if it’s hurtful or not. i remember when we started becoming friends i came to realize you were having a bad time and was self harming. i tried to make sure i became close friends with you because i just wanted you to be happy. it’s very wrong to say but i felt like you’ve never appreciated or realized that. i was going through shit myself and i didn’t think i could do that for someone knowing i could never do that for myself. secondly, i would’ve cut you off earlier if i was the person i am now. so many racist and ignorant comments came from you. i was insecure of my own race (which is terrible lol) because of how many people including my own friends would say some dumb shit to me and it felt more hurtful to hear it from you. even though you were my best friend, there were so many situations where i feared you would say something hurtful to me. i hope you’re seeing this because this is the reason i hold grudges for you. you did some immature shit after we haven’t talked in a while and it supports my idea that you haven’t changed at all. i’ve completely moved on from you, i miss the memories (except the racist shit of course) but i don’t miss you. i don’t regret anything with you, i just wish things would’ve been better.

I’m sorry if I messed things up. I know I’m not a good friend, but I really wish you can be my best friend again. Please come back. I really need someone right now.

hey y'all my name is ashley and i would just like to say some of you guys should go to therapy. a lot of y'all sound like shitty best friends too so im wondering if this is like a curse among ashleys but anyways lol. stop hoeing around and focus on what matters. also ashley e.h. what the fuck girl??

I love you but ik I will never be cool enough for you. I wish you knew how much I love being around you and cuddles and stuff

I'm sorry for leaving, I know I did it in your worst moment, but I couldn't be around anymore, I was in my worst too and I didn't want to give you more pressure. I know that you will find someone better, and she will listen your music with a big smile. Please stay strong, you will get through this. Be happy I will always care about you

I wish that I could be with you. I wish I could tell you how I feel but I know you don't feel the same. Your life looks happy and I don't want to ruin that. I hope the rest of your life goes good.

I hope you know I’m very mean to you because I’m the most comfortable around you and I like you the most we’ve been friends for years but why all of a sudden it feels different and I can’t find the words to put and ask stuff because I’m not used to it or you don’t reply and then I get upset and give up

I can only ever stare at you and never make a move, i wonder if you'll ever see me the way i see you.

you were my first. wanted you to be my forever. i hope it's just right person, wrong time. but it seems like forever is the wrong time

I never got the chance to fully tell you how much you meant to me. And when you broke it off with me, I was completely broken. It was so hard for me to look or have those feelings for anyone else again. I built a wall up to protect myself from getting again, like how you hurt me. But yet, when you came back. Within a blink of an eye, I took it down because I loved you. Or so I thought. But honestly, I don't miss you and I'm glad that we don't talk... at all. Because if you came back to my life and acted like everything would be okay. I think I would be completely destroyed. Goodbye Ashley

i miss you so much. i miss having a best friend. you were my everything, my soulmate. you made me so incredibly happy. you would be on my mind 24/7 and anytime i was around you nothing else mattered. i genuinely thought we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. i guess shit doesn’t always go as planned, right? why did i have to become your second choice? we would talk shit about those girls that you became best friends with. you lied about hanging out with them so much. after i stopped texting you first we stopped texting forever. it wasn’t a one-sided relationship bro. that hurt me so bad, and if you can see what it was like from my perspective, then shit. no sympathy. anyways, i’m moving tomorrow. i hope you’re happy with your decision to cut me out of your life. best, zobugg

Just wanted to let you know that I miss when we would cuddle all the time and when you would give me a hug when my "vibe" was alittle off...I really wish you'd give us a chance

Hi self, we'll get through this we'll find love someday, we'll find someone who wont give up on you, someone who'll ask about your day, asks if youre ok, someone who will love you no matter who you are, someone who will think youre too important to lose. One day and when that day comes we'll be happier than ever because we made it and youll get to share your love with someone else and they wont run away. Even if its temporary because things end at some point we will still be happy and grateful for that person bc they will always be apart of your heart no matter what. :)

Hi self, we'll get through this we'll find love someday, we'll find someone who wont give up on you, someone who'll ask about your day, asks if youre ok, someone who will love you no matter who you are, someone who will think youre too important to lose. One day and when that day comes we'll be happier than ever because we made it and youll get to share your love with someone else and they wont run away. Even if its temporary because things end at some point we will still be happy and grateful for that person bc they will always be apart of your heart no matter what. :)

I'm sorry for whatever I did, but I'm not quite sure what I even did. You just became really distant all of a sudden and I don't know why. Is it because lily is a better friend than me or is it because i did somthing wrong or is it because of something else. I know you probably will never see this but if you do I am sorry and I just want to be best friends again I can't risk losing another best friend again. I'm sorry...I love you ashley.

I got too emotionally attached to you way too quickly and I know it’s going to backfire so I’m very scared!!!