Unsent Messages

i don’t miss you. i’m glad we stopped being friends because i felt it was going to happen no matter what. i apologize for everything i did that hurt you. i’ve acknowledged the shit i did and tried everything i can to make sure i’m never that person again. anyways, i’m gonna be honest no matter if it’s hurtful or not. i remember when we started becoming friends i came to realize you were having a bad time and was self harming. i tried to make sure i became close friends with you because i just wanted you to be happy. it’s very wrong to say but i felt like you’ve never appreciated or realized that. i was going through shit myself and i didn’t think i could do that for someone knowing i could never do that for myself. secondly, i would’ve cut you off earlier if i was the person i am now. so many racist and ignorant comments came from you. i was insecure of my own race (which is terrible lol) because of how many people including my own friends would say some dumb shit to me and it felt more hurtful to hear it from you. even though you were my best friend, there were so many situations where i feared you would say something hurtful to me. i hope you’re seeing this because this is the reason i hold grudges for you. you did some immature shit after we haven’t talked in a while and it supports my idea that you haven’t changed at all. i’ve completely moved on from you, i miss the memories (except the racist shit of course) but i don’t miss you. i don’t regret anything with you, i just wish things would’ve been better.