Se que crees que soy como todos, solo una persona mas pero si supieras lo que es odiarse a si mismo por como actúa y es, imagínate todos los defectos que me puede decir mi familia en 1 minuto, 14 y mas. Todos los dias son 24 horas que no salto. AYUDA es lo que diré con una risa o sonrisa.

I'm sorry I had to let go in order to find me. Thank you for all the lessons and laughters. I hope you have a great life.

bruh ur so petty leave me alone i actually found someone that makes me happy i don’t need ur little pet commenting dumbass shit on my posts shoo ur annoying

the whole situation really blew me away; I couldn't understand your friends treating someone so brilliant and bright the same way people in my life we're treating me, so I started feeling guilty. I began second guessing myself because I didn't want to be the one guy who came in and made you change in ways you never meant to, I didn't want to suffocate you with my need to feel important. I just wanted to know I was important in the grand scheme of your cosmos, but I didn't, so I just ran away. I'm sorry for that, I wish I could tell you all that has happened and all that I felt so maybe we could understand that neither of us meant to hurt each other. I know you're going places in life and that makes so fucking happy, baby. I'm sorry I never made you feel like I truly love you. I'm not the person I was when we were back in 2016, but I'll always love the remnants of yellow you embroidered into my heart. I still wish we were together, but I wouldn't have learned so much about myself if I had kept up the fake smiles and the sickeningly unrealistic optimism to distract me from my trauma. I'll grow old with your name on my veins, Susan. I love you yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I love you in every painting ever demolished and every sunrise chased to the edge. don't forget you're worth every bit of life. I'd give it all away just to give you mine.. but I'll take my heart back so you can feel safe without that burden.

Daría mi vida para que tu mamá siguiera viva y así tú no hayas tenido que vivir tan vacía.
Espero que seas muy feliz ahora que no estoy, te juro que traté de hacer más por ti. En mi corazón siempre estarás, por favor, trata de ser feliz. ¿Ok?

I know I'm not your best friend, and probs never will be, but you are mine. You add so much to my life and I love you so much. I'm, not even jealous or anything that I'm not your best friend but I wish I could tell you you're mine without making things awkward as you are so wonderful and important to me

You don’t miss me, you just ran out of people to talk to. Shouldn’t have talked shit. I been moved on.

Hola, te extraño como a nada, te necesito para vivir.
Fuiste el unico que valoro mi ser y no le importo mi cuerpo, te amo y siempre te amare mi niño guapo

They were there for me from the start; we've seen sides of each other we can only experience when on. We've connected deeper then ever imaginable; they are my twin flame. It's like we've woken from a nightmare, lying side by side again.

you left such a dent on my mental health over the years. sometimes i feel guilty about ghosting you but then all the memories of your innocent manipulation come flooding back. sometimes i think maybe i was the problem, and maybe i was a part of it, but you were the one in the wrong here. god, why were you like that? why did you tell so many lies, why couldnt you keep a best friend without feeling the need to replace them after six months? why couldnt you see that all i ever tried to do was help you? whatever. im probably just being overdramatic, but ill never forget what it feels like to text your best friend, sobbing, wanting to die, and have them be too high to listen. hope you have a good life, but i dont ever want to talk to you again.

i wish you knew how happy you made me in march. you made my world bright again. but that’s in the past, right ? it’s time to move on and since it’s now 2021 , i will do it this year and i will leave the love i have for you in 2020. and it will stay there.

if you still remember my spotify you can see the playlist for you. updated every once n a while.. also can we either agree on a color or let me give you the closure you deserve?

i really think we should talk this out. if you want. you deserve an explanation n you deserve to get everything off your chest. i want to come back n i'm making the changes i need to... i know i'm too late... but maybe you'll at least understand n you can fully move on, if anything..

i know this is only in this dimension; i know we're together in another. i'm sorry about everything, Susan. go get your dreams, go chase those sunsets. 'and i will watch'

I think I have this overwhelming fear - even if I did leave, it wouldn't work out how I want it to. I can't break another heart to set mine free, not yet at least.

Girl don't even get me started on how much I hate you. You destroyed and ruined me. You made all my confidence go down the drain. You made me so insecure about myself and I hate you for it. I don't get it we used to be best friends, what happened, what did I do. I didn't deserve it, at least I don't think I don't. When you first stopped including me, I thought maybe you just forgot about me and that it was an accident. Then eventually I realized it was never an accident. You didn't like me and I still don't know why. I used to be so outgoing and spoke freely without a care because I knew you wouldn't judge. But you did, you always judged me. Now I never talk and I'm afraid of everyone judging me. So gracias por todo. From your worst enemy

Hey idk if you've been typing out to me on here but I'd really appreciate you hitting me up sometime so maybe we can work something out :)

you've shown me how to love. you've shown me how to spread a love i used to dream of, the love that you write about. i wish one day i can show you how important you are. you are so beautiful. so mesmerizing. so heartwarming. so fucking ethereal. thank goodness for you to have come into my life. i thank you so much.

and as much as I am detaching from the screen, I am making my way back to you. I'm in a mess right now, but I'm going to clean it up. I need you back and I can't deny my truth anymore, especially now... I know it's probably too late but I'm going to come home, Susan. I promise.

fuck you fuck you fuck you. i’ve always been the one in your shadow. i looked up to you and worshipped you. you were supposed to be my best friend. you ditched me at my worst because i was too sad. you were emotionally unavailable when we were friends. you enabled the thing with my ex to happen. that’s why z messaged me when you broke up with him. he knew as well as i did that it was you. it was always you. 2019 summer proved it. you could have saved our friendship. you could have saved it. you had that fucking choice and you chose his side of the story. let me tell you that hurts. i did everything for you. i came back from liverpool crying. because you wouldn’t listen. HIM OF ALL PEOPLE. when i asked you why you couldn’t give an answer. you didn’t value me. you never cared. you’re as heartless as they say you are. we’re on speaking terms again but you don’t like a. a has done more for me than you ever could have. fuck u. i’m not as angry as i used to be i just wish i’d seen it sooner

u know what hurts is when u're trying to force a connection with someone who isn't ready for it. that hurt.

watching you move on to a mutual friend was harder than trying to forget how you slammed the car door.

I fucking love you but you will never get the hint. I want to dance with you to Clairo and Ricky Montgomery

we have to just admit I was the wrong person. this all sucks. but I wish you'd talk to me directly n not on here...

i'm not even sure I'm messaging you at all. I'm just driving myself nuts trying to hang on to all the little memories I have of your laugh. your smile... I never got to see those big brown eyes enough... I wish you wore your glasses more... maybe you would've seen how spineless I was from the start...

bullshit, you fucking miss me.






































































nah you probably don't and that makes me happy :) ilyfaa

why did u have to leave me when i needed u the most? u gave me hope for my future. i thank u for that.

i will be lost without you, i don't saying anything because I don't want to put pressure on you, you will forever be my best friend and i dont know where i would be without you, im sorry i know i can be there for you more and i wish i was. im so sorry i let you fall down a path that i fell into before, im really sorry. i would do anything to take your pain away. i would give it to me, i would do anything, please god just take the pain away from her before i lose myself and she loses herself.

i hate you. i hate you for making everything feel like a competition and making me feel like a loser. i hate you for making me seem like some on i'm not and for keeping me out of everything.

Hey loser :) you might already know this, but I have a huge crush on you... even though my feelings for you are so strong, you need to be happy. So here's me letting go and more or less forcing myself to get over you

communicating would solve the majority of our problems; i can say i'm ready to get out of my way this time.

the difference of having someone who actively participates in the relationship around for the holidays is crazy. Hope you find your's.

I wish I could find a way for you to care about me more

I'll love you forever and always, chicken but

I've known you all my life, I want to know all of you for the years we've got left. My treasure.

all I’ve ever wanted was for us to work out.

every time i look in the mirror i remember what you said about just being the shell of my ex’s gf.

i wasn't enough for you, but i hope you find someone who is. you're perfect. don't stop shining.

im sorry for letting us go again.

i love you so much why cant you see it.

yes yes i do like you. i
am afraid to write the stronger word.

I’ll love to the moon and back, together forever.

Knowing you never loved me made it easier to move forward in life. I wish you the best.

You were my first true love, and I think I'll always hold a part of your heart with me.

I miss you more and more everyday but I cant have you anymore Ill forever love you my chameleon ????????

i really miss you. i hate that i do but i can't help it. you were everything to me and i love you.

I look for signs that never come. I’m sorry I’m still missing you. Did you miss my cologne?

Ari it's me... you know who it is please come back to me my luvs

why do u act like u like me then u dont

im so confused