your my best friend and the only person who makes me happy. but I feel you don't see me in the same way anymore. I've always been the one to put in effort and it never bothered me until now because now I'm tired. im at one of my low points in my life again and I need you. pls show me you care because otherwise what else do I have?

Fuck YOU. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. You ruined my fucking life Arabella. I try and try to send you songs messages gifts and you fucking BLOCK me and don't do anything after saying your my soulmate and bullshit. Get out of my fucking head woman. Sometimes I wanna kms bc the pain is still getting worse after 4 years. Im so stuck. your like a ghost and these memories are haunting me. even when im with her your all I think about. I crave you touch. I look for it in every girl ffs. im so fucking lost idk where im going to find that happiness again but fuck it. you don't care you never did. I hope you see this so you know what you've done to me. k

I LOVE YOU. AND I DONT THINK I CAN EVER GET OVER YOU. WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME ARABELLA WHY. I LOVE YOU I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I NEEED YOU I NEED YOU I NEED YOU IM SORRY, ILL DO BETTER, ILL BE PERFECT, I CAN DO IT

I wish I were still with you this Christmas. Its true when they say you dont miss it until its gone. I really fucking miss and love you. I wish I knew the true reason you left. I dont think ill ever be able to love another how I love you, Arabella.

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you. How DARE you fucking say that to me and my own mother.

Thank you. You saved me from a life of toxicity and I can only hope that I can give you that saving love.

I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry. This is no way an excuse but it's an explanation.

I was going through a really bad depressive episode, lockdown hit hard, and I didn't text anyone one to one. But I texted on that GC tons because it was easier, I didn't have to say much. I wanted to text you more, and I should have.

But the truth is I was scared, I was confused. I knew I fell in love with you but I did what I always do, I pushed you away. And I hate myself for it.

I'm glad you are happier, truly. It's just sad that It was letting me go that enabled that.

I wish it was different, I wish I did better.

But I did what I did. I can't change that, im sorry.

I constantly replay that one day we were together, looking back on videos from it. Its one of my happiest memories. Actually all of the times we were together are my happiest. Thank you for making those few months of my life happy.

Every day of lockdown was me wishing I could be back with you, holding you. I just hope you know it was never one sided.

I will always love you.

Briefly these past minutes you have been submerged into my thoughts.
I want to speak but it doesn’t really matter, my words get crumbled between the lips of others ether way.

you deserve so much better, my love. but i don't call you that anymore.

I wonder if you still remember the rain reminds me of you. ill never get why you stopped loving me

never had that blunt sesh exposing the government. will miss you.

i like you, but i guess i ain’t the one.

its not what you did. its what you didn't do. and it will stay with me. forever.

You make me so proud everyday, I love you dork

Love never dies, just say the word. 'Cause only you.. can make things right.

i wish you hated me

u made me do to much labour. i hope u realise some day we could’ve worked, please understand me.

I’ll always love you Mi Amor. Always. I’m sorry it had to end like this

You were my best friend, and i’ll never have another friendship like ours. i miss you

I miss you. I just wish we could be friends like we were when we were little

I love you, In spite of us often arguing, I love you very much

i miss us so much but i know we can never go back

I'm not waiting around for you this time

you showed me a world I didnt know

i've prayed every night in hopes you would realize how much i genuinely love you. i miss you.

I'm sorry I couldn't tell you what I really felt.We're both girls but I love you more than friends.

You turned out just like the one that broke you

your so pretty so stop being insecure pls

I think your the first ive loved
i love ur hazel eyes
i hope we grow old together

i miss you so much. ik we don't talk anymore but i miss you with every part of me

why? you saw how much you hurt me.

I miss you so much

Thank you for showing me how not to treat friends

i hope u never change. despite all ur bluntness u are the sweetest person i think ill ever meet.

You are my deepest connection and the love of my life, I’m sorry for everything that I made happen

im sorry this happened between us i really do wanna focus on myself and be together again later on

cant tell whether or not what i feel is romantic, but youre the best friend ive ever had. love you.

This pen. These papers. These hands.
They can’t make the words I wish to say to you anymore.

I love you more than anything in the entire world my love mwahh

why did you stop talking to me? what did i do? i want to talk to you i have so much to say

i feel so unloved. you’re always w her and we don’t even talk anymore. love you ari.

I hope you don’t leave like everyone else

Don't think ill ever fall out of love with you wished it worked out

Wish I could've told you sooner how I felt. Now, were leaving for different colleges.

Genuinely my heart still longs for you everyday. I still love you Bella, and it's killing me.

i didn’t wanna tell you what you said that night because you said you wanted someone else

I still miss you so much i think you could feel it too. pls pls pls just one more convo. ily

I'm sorry. I'll forever be sorry. I'd still do anything for you. I'm so sorry. Pinky promise.

i luv you so much. you are the one person i can trust. plz never leave me. <33

starlight i miss you like you have never known.