blue. blue for you. it's always you. i want to tell you so bad. it's always on the tip of my tongue. just sitting there, waiting. waiting for what? for the right time? when will i know? will i ever know? these questions are always looming when i'm in your presence. i have felt it for so long, and yet i'm still afraid you don't feel the same. you're too special to me. i don't want to lose you. and like you say sometimes, i'm afraid i'll mess things up. i hope i find the words. 143

To be completely honest, I feel like such a terrible friend to you. I’m so mean to you all the time. I’m always joking and you’ve told me before that you think it’s funny. But I still feel awful afterwards. I hope you know this but I do love you a lot. I have so much respect for you as a human being and I want nothing but the absolute best for you. You’re one of the kindest people I’ve ever met, endlessly supportive no matter the situation. I know I could come to you with anything and I hope you know you can do the same with me. I trust you more than I’ve trusted most people in my life and I know you’ll never judge me. I feel like I say this a lot but that doesn’t make it any less true: I’d do anything for you. I love you and I’m so very grateful for the relationship we’ve built.

Why did you lie to me? You hurt me, but why am I feeling this way?

i loved you, and now i know, it wasn't for me, you used me, and i'm so glad i ran away.

I love you. Youre my whole world

I adore you

You were amazing, I just wish we could've stayed together.

i hope you know I truly am sorry, I think about you everyday. i met you irl and lost it all after