Unsent messages to AMELIA

i love you too amelia i know it's not obvious cause sometimes i'm cracking jokes a lot but i love you and it's painful not having you or someone else i love

La palabra "te amo" no era suficiente para nosotras. Hoy éramos amigas y al día siguiente éramos unas desconocidas. Nos hacíamos daño, y ni cuenta nos damos. Recuerdo a la antigua tú ¿Dónde está ella? ¿Dónde está esa pequeña que me hacía reir y me abrazaba a cada rato? Puedo hablar un momento con ella?
Ya no te conozco pero quiero volver hacerlo. Me rehusó dejarte ir, tal vez puedas decir q soy masoquista pero eres lo más increíble q me haya pasado Te quiero y espero volver a ver esa amistad tan bella q teníamos y verte de nuevo

Amelia, lia, keiran or whatever the fuck you go by i hope u see this. U ruined my life. I hate you i hate you so much. How could i hurt me like that all I did was love you you ugly bitch

I’ll never forget the first time I saw you those, big brown eyes :’). I fell in love at first sight. The eye contact xox. Fate

For awhile i really thought u felt the same way about me as i felt about u. but i guess i was wrong. its sad knowing the love i felt for u has been wasted because even thought deep down i still probably have feelings for u, its just not the same. its for the best, were better as friends.

you helped me sm this year, kid. This year I haven't been doing good, and I feel like you're the only person that i could really talk to about it. I've felt so so lonely, and you were the one person that made me feel happy.

so ig i kinda rly do like you in a crush way but i’ve defo embarrassed myself and i’m convinced you don’t feel the same but either way i want to be al least friends with u you’re the bestest ever and i adore u

I hope you end up with someone whose love for you outshines my own. You deserve better and I await the day you realize that with both hope and sadness. You’ll never see this, but yes, that’s the reason why I refuse to be with you. Please never settle for less than you deserve.

i’ve never hurt for somebody like i have for you, i’ve always prided myself with the fact that i move on from things so quickly, but it’s been a while since i ended things with you and i still feel that shitty ache in my heart whenever i think of you. i can’t exactly say i miss you or that i wish things were different because i know things can’t get any better, and that in this lifetime i most likely can’t and won’t ever be yours. but i hope the me in another universe somewhere is any better than me, right now; because if it weren’t for how incredibly unprepared and anxious i am to be in a relationship, i would’ve been more than happy to be yours. i’ve never met somebody so prepared to take on the world, as much as you might doubt yourself, i never have. i hope you find a love that never fails you nor disappoints you the way that i did. i would send you a million apologies if i could but they would fall deaf on your ears, and i understand why. i can’t say sorry enough. i don’t even think sorry is appropriate... i don’t know what to say. it just hurts to think of you and i can’t explain why. take care, i’d wish you the best but i know you’ll have no issue achieving your dreams.

i deserve someone better than you. i deserve someone who doesn't mess with me and loves me the way i love you. bye.

we could've been. you gave up so easily, i never planned life without you. now I've lost myself and I'm not me, why did you take me with you? please bring her back to me

I LOVE YOU! ur so perfect and amazing :) i hope you see this and know its about you ? even tho i think you’d doubt that someone would write about you, i did and i love you too much to not do this.

I miss you. It’s been so long but your still my last thought before I sleep and first thing when I wake up.

i loved you with my whole heart, I told you everything. you treated me like you actually cared. then you left.

i miss you so much i just want to be as close as we used to but i know someone else is your favourite now

lamento de verdad no amarte en la manera que tu lo haces conmigo, te juro que intento pero es peor si seguimos juntas

We pretend that kiss on your birthday was nothing, but I really felt something and had butterflies in my stomach. I'm thinking about this kiss almost everyday.

i hate that i have feelings for u because i know it would never work. i need to let them go even though i don’t want to.

i love u so much more than u think i do but i will never tell u because i'm scared and u deserve far better than me.

I love you and you talk about other guys you want to me but then tell me they don’t care about you, I’m right here and I care for you.

i love you so much, and when i told you i was gay, you hugged me and told me that you would help me bake a cake to tell mum and dad when i was ready, and for that i'll forever be grateful

you ruined my ability to love anyone else.. but mostly because you’re the only person i will ever truly love.

i sometimes think about how i felt when i was with you. and i miss the way i felt more than ever but i don’t miss you.

why wasn’t I good enough for you? I gave you my heart and you crushed it in your palms. I’m bonded now to the fake memories I’ve made of you. in reality, you were nothing but trauma with some fake kindness sprinkled in. thinking of you makes my brain rot.

i regret abandoning you time and time again. if you ever see this i am so incredibly sorry, i hope you found someone good for you, i know i never was. but you helped me so much, so thank you.

i regret abandoning you time and time again. if you ever see this i am so incredibly sorry, i hope you found someone good for you, i know i never was

i will always regret how i abandoned you time and time again. if you ever see this, i am so incredibly sorry, i know you want nothing to do with me anymore.

i hope you realize how important you were and are to me. i miss you at the strangest times. i want to text you at all hours of the day to see how you are doing. there is someone 477.5 miles away from you that cares about you deeply.

I'm so sorry, I wish i never messed up this bad, I can't stand the thought of you hating me it breaks my heart so I'm gonna have to do what i should have long ago. I hope you can forgive me

i hate how much i love u. i hate it so much it hurts me. i cant love u. i've been in denial for so long it hurts me. i can never tell u how i feel cus i don't want to ruin this. i don't want to lose u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u.

One day I realized a first love could be platonic. My best friend and the person I will tell my grandkids about.

i dont think I'll ever find someone who will make me feel the way I did when you walked into the room

You went to be with the lord today. You were loved. Your two girls will be taken care of. I downloaded your favorite song since it was released last night. I’ve had it on repeat all day and it will always be your song. Our time together was short but it was the best days of my life. I love you always. Until we meet again.

They just told us you wouldn’t make it through the day but miracles happen. Please keep fighting. They need you. I need you. I would do anything to hear you laugh again. I love you.

i really do miss you and i wish i could tell you that. i am so grateful for everything you did for me. i’m happy we’re on good terms now.

I fell for you even harder. I wish you could see how much you and your and your girls are loved. I’m secretly glad that he hasn’t realized what he lost.

I hope you’re not taking him for granted... He’ll give you the world if you show him the same. He’ll always have your back no matter how much you hurt him. And I know that you do. I never got the chance to hold him the way you do, and I’d give anything to have that chance, but I never will. Treat him the way he deserves. He’s been hurt enough.