Unsent Messages

i’ve never hurt for somebody like i have for you, i’ve always prided myself with the fact that i move on from things so quickly, but it’s been a while since i ended things with you and i still feel that shitty ache in my heart whenever i think of you. i can’t exactly say i miss you or that i wish things were different because i know things can’t get any better, and that in this lifetime i most likely can’t and won’t ever be yours. but i hope the me in another universe somewhere is any better than me, right now; because if it weren’t for how incredibly unprepared and anxious i am to be in a relationship, i would’ve been more than happy to be yours. i’ve never met somebody so prepared to take on the world, as much as you might doubt yourself, i never have. i hope you find a love that never fails you nor disappoints you the way that i did. i would send you a million apologies if i could but they would fall deaf on your ears, and i understand why. i can’t say sorry enough. i don’t even think sorry is appropriate... i don’t know what to say. it just hurts to think of you and i can’t explain why. take care, i’d wish you the best but i know you’ll have no issue achieving your dreams.