You are beautiful inside & out, keep loving urself the way you show others love. I’m so grateful for you. Keep smiling :)

my conscience HATES you. like it’s so awful my thoughts portray you as a hypocritical, stubborn, over sensitive, uncompromising BITCH and nothin i do has any apparent affect. one day im going to accidentally snap at you and it will be AWFUL. i try to overcompensate being nice to you but now im worried you think i like you. honestly, thats probably a preferable stance. my sardonicism enjoys it far too much. you probably wonder why i think of myself so terribly, well one day you are bound to find out, and when that day comes, dont even try to reason, just leave, for both our sakes.

i knew u cheated that’s so funny you’re actually gross and at least i don’t care coz i don’t love u and never did x

my bad habit is searching, through all these submissions, for you.

its stupid (i know) but sometimes i question the improbability that you might also be searching for me.

if so, here i am. you’ve found me. i always write in tan, despite my favourite colour being yellow.

i don't fucking know if i miss the friendship or just having u in my fucking life, fuck u i don't fucking care anyways i just want u to be happy even if it's without me , u fucked me up

music is very important to me. we had this conversation. respect my feelings however irrational you might find them it literally doesn’t fucking cost you ANYTHING to just try and be considerate.

fuck you. sometimes you just get on every single one of my fucking nerves. laws of unattainable. bullshit. i dont want to be your friend. i don’t even think I like you anymore. you’re not special. I don’t want you anymore.I just want you to leave me alone without feeling guilty.
you’re not my problem or responsibility.

sorry the last one was a bit harsh. I just miss when we were together, I know it’s been two years but those songs still remind me of you.

i wish you would ask me if i was okay, sometimes it feels like you don’t care. indifference, pretermit, apathy, ignorance, i dont care. it hurts.

i understand now why people often leave you, if i didnt have my friends checking in on me i would probably leave you too,,,

Thank you for making me realize that I’m gay. It’s too bad we don’t talk anymore. I hope you’re okay.

happy halloween you silly goose. i wish you would call me sometime. maybe in our next lifes things will work out more in the way i think i wanted. but for now, bon nuit et bon chance -

i think i like the way you look at me, daring.. almost? testing the limits. you always laugh at my jokes, even when they are terrible.

why?

sometimes you can be stubborn and glorify your problems, i dont think i could ever love you, but thinking of you helps me get to sleep sometimes... maybe im in denial? or maybe love just isnt for some people. some people, being me. god, that makes me sound like some individual nazi. lOvE aInt fOr pEoPle LikE mE,,, built : different,,, i can hear you laughing now!!! leave me alone !!!!!!!!

i really like you
. but i know it would b selfish of me to tell you so im jusr gonn sit here and cry. nd wish . I was h im and that i had a hold over my ownn fuckin hed

Sei stata il mio primo amore e qualsiasi cosa io dica su quello che siamo state sembra banale. Manchi sempre e mancherai sempre.
Eleonora

i know i said i was signing off but i just have a couple of things I feel are imperative to say before i can leave you and this hellsent project to rest.

(1) you were never (EVER) a problem. if anything it was the converse. you were always so patient with me - even when i was being a stupid lil rat - and ik it’s cringe central but you were and are my favourite person in this stupid universe. i hope my fuckery didnt reinforce any of your bad thoughts also,, bc the way you care for people makes you so easy to love and talk to, it would undoubtedly be exceedingly difficult for anyone that really knew you to leave, even if you still believe otherwise.

(2) youre prolly wondering why i was anonymously cyber bullying you here in the first place,, which i promise i wasn’t really! well, I mean.. but anyways, so ive been using this stupid lil domain for a couple years to voice all my intrusive and difficile thoughts bc i don’t like leaving them in my brain and seeing them exist somewhere real makes me feel like they’re not my responsibility anymore. I don’t know. it sounds awfully stupid now i try to explain it but what im trying to say i guess is that all the bad things you read weren’t really me, they were the lil demons that crawl into my head at night time. not to excuse/justify them or undermine their cruelty and effect in any way, as i can not apologies enough for what you must of gone through reading my shitty excuses for thoughts and if i knew you would ever have read them i would never ever ever ever ever have written them.

(3) i recognise i fucked up big time and know you don’t owe me anything and friendship is impossible. i will do my up most best to not make this anymore difficult for you and let you be. I just don’t think I could of lived with myself having not at least tried to voice some of these points. It really really was lovely to have known you, and if you ever find yourself in trouble please don’t forget I’m just a phone call away.

always



Zach B

No matter how many times we part ways, we always find a way back to each other. Those feelings never went away.

Você foi estranha desde o começo e no fim foi exatamente por isso que me apaixonei, espero que você ainda seja muito feliz.

Whoever’s doing that shit in yellow stop glitching it you shithead fuck, I keep sitting here overreacting and overthinking that it’s the guy I’m in love with doing it but I know it’s not, cause he doesn’t care anymore. Danny if that’s u I’m gonna slit ur throat u little queer rat of chiraq

if you knew how much i'd be dying to give you another chance, even though you tore my heart into pieces

If I could go back to the moment in the car, I would've changed my answer to yes. I should've been with you.

hey alice,, if you ever find my notes on here... pls understand i was really orbiting empty space and just wrote and pressed submit. they are cringe central so bring them up EVER and i will throw myself off the closest cliff :)

whoever posted the joy again song, this is for you.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7cZgEGNaWyjrWGPK6VjGLU?si=rxcRTcq4QXSgFGfhdJHdeA

i had a dream we took a nap together, nothing sexual,, just sharing space.

i played with your hair and you read this book about growing tomatoes (?) to me.. ok im sorry i really have no clue what that part was about...

but anyways,,, it was maybe a pretty nice dream,,,, and i maybe woke up blushing,,,, and i maybe wished it was real,,,,

maybe you would’ve wished it were true too (not the tomatoes part) ((ok Ik you’re still thinking about the tomatoes so you better fuckin stop it and think about napping with me instead))

It's been 3 years since you left me because of my attempt. Your still the LOML and I want you back.

You can change your name all you want, it still doesn't erase all the horrible stuff you did to me

I know maybe we weren’t the best and we fought a lot, but I’ll look for you in everyone I meet.

kind of being mean mate

i love you. i know you do too. i hope we can try again one day, because i mean everything i said.

I recognize that look of guilt everytime I look into your eyes,
please don't leave me.

you will probably never see this. I forgive you and will always love you in some sort of way.

Your the sun, you've never seen the night but you hear its song from the morning birds.

I love you in all the ways I said I didn’t.
I want you I need you but I’ll never be what you deserve

It’s been a few years but I still think about you and wonder if you do too

I love u. But ur annoying me. I wish u cared and appreciated the things me and mom do for u.

i think about you a lot. i miss you. i hope you’ve changed and i wish i was there to see it

Hi I want to but idk if you do

do you really care about our friendship or do you just pity me?

I really hope you love me as much as I love you

you’ve changed so much alice

I wanted you to love me the way I love you

out of everyone i love in my life it is you who will always have an extra special place in my heart.

i miss u. i hope our energies can be considered matching again.

You don't understand how much you mean to me. I care about you so much words could never explain it.

i love you.

i do not love you anymore, but I'll always keep you in my heart.

I wish you loved yourself the way I loved you. Maybe in a differ universe it worked out.

I'm sorry I couldn't be a better boyfriend. I should've been better. I love you forever bb

im sorry we are drifting. I still love you, your my best friend

I'm glad you have someone who can fill your cup of love just how u like it.

Hang in there, my darling, it's a very crazy world

I just want you to know that, I’ll always love you, no matter what happens <3