Hey lol. I'm not gonna say my name in case you see this lmao. Anyways believe it or not I never had a crush on someone until eighth grade. Romantic feelings and interest was something I never felt. Until I met you. We texted for a year and a half everyday at every hour and ur messages were the highlight of my day. And then I tried to set u up with my friend in freshman year remember? Gross I don't know why I did that but you guys stopped texting so it turned out ok lol. And when you told me u had a crush on me but all I did was ask if it was a joke lol sorry about that I'm not good at expressing feelings. Anyways we stopped texting after 1 year and a half and I thought about u from time to time, the flirting, the laughs, but I couldn't text you, half of the reason was bc u were blocked and the other because I was too petty. Then we started texting again and then I left u on seen again for 5 weeks bc it seemed u didn't care and u were really dry. Then 5 weeks passed and u texted me again then left me on seen lmaoo payback ig. But u need to stop texting me, I need to forget you. I didn't love u and I don't. I just think I have an attachment because u were the first person Ive ever liked to this day. But fr stop texting me randomly lol we need to move on. We live in a pretty small town so I'm hoping I don't run into u. Anyways thanks for being a friend and the only guy who I didn't block after u admitted ur feelings lol

You’re such a shitty guy, but I’m above anonymous cyber bullying so... I hope you never find better ?

Holaa.
Tal vez ya ni te acuerdes de mi y ahora me odies pero aun asi me alegra haberte conocido como te lo dije siempre te voy amar y aun lo hago se que esto fue un error un hermoso y horrible error, cuidate.

You have no idea how bad I wanted you, and how much it hurts to see you with someone else. Still, I wish you the best and I´ll love you forever.

Llevo meses tratando de hacerte ver lo mucho que me importas y el cariño que te tengo, de que haría cualquier cosa por ti, pero entiendo si no soy el indicado para ti, entiendo si no me ves como igual... espero que la persona que escojas te sepa ver como yo te vi a ti.

Yo se que no fui la mejor novia, pero eramos principiantes en esto del amor, eres y seras mi primer amor, aunque yo no se si fui el tuyo.
siempre recordare esas platicas y detalles... Te amé como a mi primer amor y me costo olvidarte como el mismo.

If you knew how I really feel, what would you do? Would you cheer me up or let me down like everybody else did at this point..?

i love you so much and could love you so much better than her. i feel hurt every time i see you though

Eres un amor de internet, tal vez nunca te vea o pueda sentir tu respiración pero te amaré por siempre :(

FUCK YOU ALAN YOU STUPID
ARRUINED MY LIFE YOU NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I WOULD FEEL I HATE YOU I WISH I'D NEVER MET YOU

You are the best thing that happened to me in life, but now you are happy with her and your happiness is the only thing that matters to me.
I love u

I wish we could go back to when we first met. I wish we could start over and be together the right way. I'm sorry I love you too much.

i miss you so much, your texts meant a lot to me and they kept me going. i really wish i could go back to when we first met.

I miss you. I miss how you would ask how my day was. when you'd text me until I fell asleep. When you woke me up with good morning texts. when u weren't dry. when you'd subtly flirt with me. when u unblocked a girl I was trying to set u up with just because I said so. when you texted me everyday. every minute of every hour. I think you're the only guy I ever got attached to. I miss when you cared.

I honestly am dumb for even thinking things would work out. with everything you have put me through I actually still thought you would be different. No, you were the same. You treated me like shit again, you tried controlling what I wear even if its just a shirt a little short, you told me not to post certain things, and nothing was ever 50/50. the fact that we weren't even together and you treated me this bad is even worse. when we were together you had me delete all my social media, would cuss me out every day, yell at me over small things, take everything out on me, call me a bitch, slut, ho, anything you could think of, you took away everything from me and put me in a dark place, even through ALL of that i still made sure you were okay every day. After we broke up a month later we started talking again and you made me think you were so good and made me think you were different. things were great, it felt like I had the old you back the one i fell in love with at first. 3 weeks later your controlling me, manipulating me, and treating me the worst you possibly can. The fact we are only 14 and you treat me this way, good luck in the future with girls, not all will treat you how i did not all will be here for you like I was. I love you but you put me through hell. I did the most I could for us to work yet you still find ways to make me feel worthless. right now you don't want shit to do with me but 2-3 months from now when theres no more girls that want you, your bored of being single, and you start thinking about me. I won't want you, I hope i actually find someone that knows how to treat me with respect and make me happy. theres no going back anymore. you made me feel so alone, and so sad. I still told you every night 'text me if you need anything' even the nights you would call me the rudest things and make me feel worthless. wish you the best but don't come back once ur bored or sad, you aren't here for me when I'm going through shit so I'm not here for you anymore. wish u the best alan, love you. jehe

i still love you and you know that but why did you choose her after i told you everything you wanted me back too

thank u for everything, u deserve the world. i love you to infinity and beyond and back infinite times.

im sorry its all my fault, i miss u so much, but thinking of u also makes me wanna die, its all my fault im so sorry.

alan learn how to treat a girl right before you get into a relationship bc you can really fuck up a girls mental health. Thx
love, ur ex

pink. your favourite colour. the colour of the monster tab chain i made u. i guess u werent my first love, but i have genuinely never felt like this about someone. all i want is to be over you because i know you dont like me, but no matter how hard i try i cant get over you. i keep wondering what i couldve done differently. what i couldve done to make you like me like i like you. it hurts, but im glad we're at least friends. and i love you. so much. you've been the only thing keeping me alive recently.

I believe everything happens for a reason, but if I had the chance I would have never met you in the first place.

I miss you too much I miss you too much but I think it is time to let you go, you already have another person and it was easy to replace me but I still do not do it I think that if I do not separate from you it is because I am afraid of loneliness, I am afraid not Have someone to talk to because for you I reject many people I love you and I will love you you always taught me that you can say words without feeling them, even if you have made me so many things, I miss you and I love you, sorry if I am so repetitive but it is what I feel ♡

how are you? i miss you. i hate being so far away, it feels like i'll never see your smile. but i'll wait as long as i have to my love, as long as you wait for me.

u ghosted when i needed u the most. now i hear ure on the other side of the world. i wish i never met u.

I remember the first time i met you, you were so exited to see me your smile was so big i wanted to fuck you right there

we were too young to know how to treat each other. our timing was never right but even when it wasn't, it always was.

I hate you for making it seem like you really wanted something to do with me however I still love you

i love u so much and i wish u understood that, idk whats best for us, im happy we are still friends but it hurts knowing its not the same anymore.

Your only credibility was that I’d known you for a long time. I knew you as a kid so I thought you wouldn’t be a horrible person but you’ve made me hate your name. You’re shallow as hell and your hair looks like mr o’hare from the Lorax .

I still hold on to the idea of us being in love together but I have someone else now and they make me happy and I haven’t thought about u in days and that made me feel some kinda way I’m never going to forget u and all the times we had together sometime I go back to when we first started dating or like the first time I saw u in the south bus canopy lol I still remember every detail about it yo I miss u fr but I gotta let u go and stop messaging me and then deleting messages I wish nothing but the best to u

You helped me so much and I thank you for that but, you broke me and now it’s time to let go and love myself again.

Todavía pienso en las anécdotas que me contabas. Me esta costando olvidarte. Joder Alan me has marcado.

I just wanted to be friends but i didn't want to annoy you now i just think of how it could have been if i told you i miss you and hope to speak to you again for now just...
▶Pending

I still think back to you, we never dated but I felt like there was always this connection between us. Unfortunately you didn’t like me back :(

i guess we didn't want the same thing. we could've made it work. it wasn't a huge distance. i still think about our conversations. there's a ghost of a smile whenever i look at the clock late at night because it reminds me of you. i really liked you. the comfortable silence. the way you would fidget. but things never would've worked if we both didn't try. that's where we differed. i don't think you cared about me like i cared about you. so fuck you, but my heart still beats so fast whenever you text me once in a blue moon.

My very first awkward crush do you remember 6th grade? What I would do to be able to go back and change the past maybe things wouldnt be so sad these days. Do I regret what I did no but if it meant I could do it all over with you instead I would. But reality I've done that and theres no going back dont get me wrong I care for the weirdo but after what he did just hit the nail that really werent meant to be. Maybe that's why I'm feeling this way how stupid of me I need to move on.

Quisiera que pudiéramos estar juntos , darte un abrazo y olvidarnos de todo por un momento :( que solo existimos tú y yo.

You meant everything to me, and you didn’t even know it. Thank you for existing, and thank you for always being kind x

ça me fait énormément de mal quand je vois que tu penses jamais à moi, que tu ne me dit rien alors que je suis quand même ta copine, s’il te plait parle moi au lieu de jouer au jeux vidéos toute la nuit

Soy tan feliz de que hayas formado parte de mi vida, aún que ya no podamos estar más juntos te deseo lo mejor.

Me hubiera encantado haber "coincidido" contigo más adelante, para estar preparada y hacerte feliz, por que lo merecemos.

We’ve really become strangers. It saddens me that it ended like this, but I miss you even if I don’t show it. I try so hard not to care and it works. I hope things go back to normal in the future.

i want to be your friend but you make it so difficult. albeit that things are difficult for you that is not an excuse or validation to how you act. things are hard for me too and i dont want to constantly be chasing someone who doesnt show any sense of responding commitment or willingness to be my friend. your apathy or ignorance is tiring. stop pushing me away. i hate it and if you keep it up you will loose me.

Aunque no estemos juntos, aunque estemos con otras personas y por más tiempo que pase te querré siempre y siempre tendrás un espacio en mi mente y corazón porque nadie podrá reemplazarte únicamente trataré de llenar ese vacío que dejaste al irte.

Te amo, te amo.
Y quiero que entiendas que para mí tú eres el único, y que carajo, si no eres tú no quiero a nadie más, por que nadie se acerca ni un poco a lo hermoso que tú eres.

Por favor regresa a mi, está ves se cómo hacer las cosas correctamente.
Te necesito,más que tú a mí ,y eso es injusto.

You were my first real love, honestly and truthfully. The moment I got home I wrote about that night, you made me feel as if I was in a movie, adios amor and thank you for that wonderful memory I will cherish forever.

I miss you so much ... even after this time ... I love you still I can't forget about you. you may hate my guts but I cant forget about you
K.G.

creo que siempre tuve muchas ganas de conocerte, te quiero mucho, y espero volvernos a tener la confianza que nos teníamos antes. Te deseo lo mejor, gracias por hacerme la más feliz con tus mensajes:)
No me odies, yo te quiero mucho.

you meant a lot to me, even though you hurt me in a lot of ways lol. i hope things are well for you and your family.