Unsent messages to AALIYAH

I miss u but at the same time I don’t, u were a good friend.

don’t hurt ne.

turns out you weren't straight

i still miss you. that's pathetic though

I love you so much girl keep going I care and love u

I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you how I really felt about you. In my head it’s already too late

im sorry i left

i think i’m starting to like you but you're straight

i hate that i have feelings for you because it makes me hurt

the way i feel about you breaks our rule and it sucks

I think about you day and night

I'm dying to show you how much you mean to me.

i'm glad i dont let you walk all over me anymore

Maybe our time will come again. I hope that you find security.

In my head it's still December and it's not too late

you smiled at me and i gave you my heart. i miss you.

i miss what we had

thanku for being nice to me. u were my closure. well atleast as close as i could get to it. don't leave like he did please.

i am so thankful for you and in such a short amount of time you became my truest friend, we'll meet someday i promise

i know u don’t see me like that, but i like u

having to hide how much i like speaking to u and wait around for ur replies ain’t it

i would give u the world

i don’t get why i’m so drawn to u

i know you inside and out. you’re not mine so i fear what they could do when i’m not near. ‘they’ could be anyone, you trust too easily and they take advantage. smart but stupid, beautiful but brainless my aaliyah, you need protection from this big scary world.

you are so incredibly beautiful and deserve none of the troubles you’ve gone through. i hope you realise how much light you bring to my world and so many others and i will always be there for you in any way possible

it fucking sucks, heartbreak. i still talk to you pretty much everyday as just friends and it tears me up inside wondering if it'll ever be us again. i miss you so much it physically hurts and when i get a notification from you my heart leaps and i try and wait a bit before replying so i don't still look desperate and still in love with you when truth be told i'm still utterly and madly in love with you and i don't think you are anymore. and i'm trying to be okay with that. but if you ever see this, i love you. with my whole heart. still.
- yours forever, e

This is to myself, please try to be happy and don’t give up. Don’t be selfish and commit because ur gonna hurt ur family and ur ex might not make it. Please love yourself and get out of this spot that ur in again.

we barely know each other but i feel so drawn to you...

you constantly leave me on read and dry text me and i have to act like i don’t care

why do i feel so drawn to someone who could never want me

You were the first to make me truly happy. You ran through my mind 24/7 and even tho it’s been months I still think about you everyday. I haven’t spoken or seen you since that night in august when you ended things. I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you and I hope you’re happier now

I miss you. We weren’t good for each other but I miss you so much. I have no idea what’s going on in your life anymore but I hope everything has gotten better and you’re happier. I’ll always be here for you

thank you for being my yellow. pls remember to stay healthy even if i can't be there anymore to remind you. stay safe even if i can't be there to protect you. keep fighting, you got this.
i love you bub, forever and always

i hope one day i'll be able to hold you as you sleep with a christmas movie playing in the background

I wish you knew how much you mean to me. I don’t think we’ll ever date but i think i’ll always have feelings for you. Even if we stop being friends one day, I hope you keep fighting and realize life is worth living for. And I hope you make it far in life because I know you have so much potential.

We’ve only spoken twice, I’m terrified of sounding crazy but I feel so so drawn to you. I can’t explain it
I dno if you feel it too

I think ur special, and I want to know u better.

I really wanna get 2 know u. I feel so drawn 2 u. I’ve never even met u... But U keep leaving me on read

you just left with no warning, i just wanna know why man, it hurts so bad even tho we were just bsf i was in love with you

aaliyah wright. i know you have a girlfriend but ive been in love with you since the 6th grade. i know its crazy and that its been 3 years, but wow. seeing you with your girl makes me really unhappy because ive never been able to own up to it and tell you. i dont think anything would happen though. i dont wanna ruin our friendship yk? you're like my really good friend, but i cant tell you how i feel because we would never be the same. theres no way you would like me. (im a girl btw) also when you came out in may i really thought i had a chance but my god. i could never say anything. so if you ever see this, which you might because you told me you used this to send your gf a para, lol. hey, im in love with you and you wont ever find out that it is me.

who would’ve thought i would be writing u a letter on this cause i’m too pu$$y to tell u how i rly feel. i miss talking to u and u were one of the only people i rly opened up too and i rly liked u, yeah as more than a friend sjjsjsj. and that’s all i hope u have a great life

Thank you for teaching me how to be affectionate and for being the first person I’ve noticed that cares. I’m sorry it’s been a while

im still in love with you, but you love someone else. it hurts seeing you love someone else when we were supposed to be forever. you promised. ik youre happier with her, and thats ok. because all i ever wanted you to be was truly happy. i love you baee

This is a message to myself. I hate you so much, you make me want to rip out my guts. Your selfish and ugly. I wonder if you'll see this in the future, if you do, I still hate you. Also one question: did you finally stop crying about the girl from camp? Or did you keep being a crybaby? If you still cry over her, honestly just stop, it already been a WHOLE year. She probably doesnt even think about you. :)

Are sending the blues? I’m so convinced that everyone is changing and you are no exception. Why won’t you just be honest

I actually can’t believe the way you treated me. Your cold hearted nothing more nothing less, can’t believe I ever loved you

i love you so much thank you for always being there for me i hope you get the happiness you deserve i would do anything for you to be happy you mean so much to me this color will always remind me of you.

to myself.

why do you keep tearing yourself apart. why do you get attached so easily that it hurts so much when they leave. why can’t you be happy. why do you let your thoughts destroy and control you into doing impulsive actions. why don’t you love yourself. why do you cry yourself to sleep at 3am. why do you push people away. why do you not know how to comfort those in need. why do you not know how to show people you care. why do you physically and mentally hurt yourself. why do you feel confident and happy one day and then the next you absolutely despise yourself. why are you so easily jealous. why can’t you just speak your emotions. why is it so hard for you to let people go. why do u do so much for people and when they do you wrong you forgive them so easily, you say you don’t hold grudges but deep down we both know you want to tell them just how much they hurt you. why are you so anxious all the time. why can’t you speak up for something you desire. why do you still love him. why can’t you just be happy in your own body and mind. why do you overthink. why do you want to be gone so bad. why don’t you want to accept the therapy, your mom wants what will be best for you. why are you so sensitive. why are you so easily annoyed. why do you snap at your family so much, they love you. why do you sleep so much. why do you expect anyone else to care. why do you always live in the past and not the present. why can’t you trust anyone. why?

why are you, you?
why do you do this to yourself?
why do you destroy yourself and the relationships around you?

i really fuckin love you. it hurts to have to stand in the shadows acting like i'm ok with you falling for someone else. i just wish i could tell you but rejection fuckin hurts.i really do love you

You know you broke my heart but what about the panic attacks I still get, what about the weight I lost because I was too depressed to eat, about the friends I lost because I didn’t have the energy to talk to them, the opportunities I missed because I didn’t wanna leave my bed, the anxiety I still experience which started when you left. The fact that I can’t drink our favorite drink anymore, I can’t go to the places we used to go anymore, I can’t listen to half my songs because it always comes back to you. So yeah you left me but you forgot to take your memories with you