From: ABC
To: aaliyah
Date: September 22, 2020, 5:22 am
to myself.
why do you keep tearing yourself apart. why do you get attached so easily that it hurts so much when they leave. why can’t you be happy. why do you let your thoughts destroy and control you into doing impulsive actions. why don’t you love yourself. why do you cry yourself to sleep at 3am. why do you push people away. why do you not know how to comfort those in need. why do you not know how to show people you care. why do you physically and mentally hurt yourself. why do you feel confident and happy one day and then the next you absolutely despise yourself. why are you so easily jealous. why can’t you just speak your emotions. why is it so hard for you to let people go. why do u do so much for people and when they do you wrong you forgive them so easily, you say you don’t hold grudges but deep down we both know you want to tell them just how much they hurt you. why are you so anxious all the time. why can’t you speak up for something you desire. why do you still love him. why can’t you just be happy in your own body and mind. why do you overthink. why do you want to be gone so bad. why don’t you want to accept the therapy, your mom wants what will be best for you. why are you so sensitive. why are you so easily annoyed. why do you snap at your family so much, they love you. why do you sleep so much. why do you expect anyone else to care. why do you always live in the past and not the present. why can’t you trust anyone. why?
why are you, you?
why do you do this to yourself?
why do you destroy yourself and the relationships around you?