Unsent messages to XAVIER

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you <3

i miss you. i know your with her but im always here for you.

I miss you so so much and i wish you never got sick of me

I want to love you, but you make it so hard.

You did exactly what you said you’d never do.

i wish I could love you

I will always love you, your my first, and i hope your my last.

i didn’t mean to hurt you but you hurt me with your reaction

you were the worst thing that ever happened to me.

i miss you. i wish we met much later on so you wouldn’t tell me that you still need to explore your options. you’ll always have a place in my heart

we only talked for a little bit you’re honestly perfect to me. still think about you even a whole year later.

i think i have finally gotten over my crush for you. i still love and care about you, but i don’t think we would ever work romantically in the first place. you are so incredibly important to me and you’re a very special person to me, and i think i will love you forever, even if it’s not romantic.

you act like such a wonderful person, and you care about people so much. But the whole time we were together you liked her. you never told me. why? i wish you couldve just told me and wouldnt have wasted my time. i hope she makes you happy

i love you, and i’ll always be here for you no matter what. i’m sorry for how things are going for you rn

when i saw your name pop up as a notification on my screen my face would always light up. you used to talk to me and make me laugh but now you don’t answer me. i still miss our inside joke, you probably don’t remember that anymore. i could be getting married and if you walked in and said you loved me i would give anybody up for you. i try to distract myself with new boys but you’ll still be there.

you will never ever see this but i just want you to know that you were too good for me and even though we don’t talk anymore i always think about you. i hope ur doing okay

I'm scared because i think i might be catching feelings for you. I dream about you a lot and i struggle to understand what that means. But what pains me is that i'm still not over HIM. you're just not HIM. and sometimes just thinking about having to start over with someone else other than him it kills me a little. It hurts because if i do like you then why can't i stop thinking about him? I want to give you my all xavier because i know you've been hurt before, no you haven't told me that. But i can feel it.

i still think back to the days we spent together. how big our smiles were proved how in love we were.

i miss the way we used to endlessly talk, how it was never a struggle to stay connected. maybe we aren't meant to talk anymore, maybe it's just the wrong time

im sad that we’re both like this right now but i love u and i hope u never forget that. u made me feel so loved and cared for something no one else made me feel, i just hope i made u feel the same.

I am sorry.I could have written this in spanish but, it would feel more weird like that.
I am just, so sorry, for appearing in your life and being so confusing and, weird.I hope I could be like her, like the one you go with everyday now.I wish we could be back really good friends.I wish that I had never said those things to you.How hard I loved you, or my foolish behaviour.I am so sorry for being a mess. I am sorry.

you dont know how much youve changed me, i didnt like my smile until you said how pretty it was. i love you the most.

i miss you. i'm sorry for never reaching out anymore but i feel like you hate me sometimes. i'm glad you're doing better, ily dumbass.

ever since my ex you've been the only person i've felt safe around and could trust. you don't understand how much you mean to me. it hurts to see that my "bestfriend" is slowly ripping you away from me just like she always does. i want to tell you how i feel but i'm scared to. i'm scared i'll lose you. i love you so much. you don't even understand how happy you make me.

everytime we hang out i feel comfortable and safe like i don't know how to describe it.

i really do love you as a friend and care for you. i’m sorry i don’t really show it, but it’s true. i really hope things get better for you.

i miss the person you used to be man. what happened? we were bestfriends and then u became someone i hated. :/ i'll always have friendly love for u man. i wish u the best.

Hey Xavier jvoulais juste te dire a quel point tu as etait un bon neg et que t'etait mon first love malheursement t parti sans me dire pourquoi et quel point tu ma heartbroken et que peut-etre je t'aurais jamais back et jvais juste perdre espoir et que malgré tt tu restera toujours dans mon coeur et tu restera toujours mon first love je t'ai vraiment beaucoup aimer maintenant tes rendu avk ta famn mais rappelle toujours toi que je te souhaite toujours une belle et une vie avk ta famn

I just want to tell you how happy you make me. I truly like you a lot but i’m afraid to tell you. You’re my favorite notification, i get so happy to see ur name pop up on my phone.

I fucking hate you but I don’t hate you. I hate the way you make me feel because you don’t even care. I hate that we loved the same music and that ur always blocking me out of no where and come back expecting things to be okay. So much things remind me of you man. Sometimes I miss you well all the time....I wonder if you even knew I felt this way about you I do love you. I literally start crying after I cum cuz all I felt was straight sadness after. It’s so weird going to sleep and not even saying goodnight and I love you to you it’s been months since I even done that and it’s crazy that it’s been that long. I hope ur ok which u prolly are :(. You can buy everything but you can’t buy love huh.I miss ur love sigh. I feel so empty right now. It’s like I’m getting over it and I don’t like that even tho it’s what I want sometimes. The way everything just doesn’t feel the same anymore sucks ass. I wish you cared.

I LITERALLY HATE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE SO GOOD LOOKING AND NICE TO ME. BUT I HATED THE FACT THAT YOU WERE SHY AND CHEATED ON ME.SO FUCK YOU.

Isn't it crazy that we ended up in schools directly next to each other. I could literally walk to your next football game.

I love you like sm. ive like never liked someone as much as i like youuuu. you literally make me so happy.

I remember your favorite color is navy blue, I remember the times that you would walk into my house with a bright white smile that would light up my world. I miss all the times that we would go on drives together. I miss us planning our future, but I understand that you may have moved on. I'm still stuck on you, you were and still are someone that I truly love. And I wish you and I can get back together doesn't have to be now but hopefully in the future. - Jess

P.S if you were to see this. Hi!

I'm sorry. I loved you, I really did. But I knew you deserved better. You deserve someone who's gonna love you the way you love them. I couldn't give you what you wanted. I'm sorry I hurt you.

i like you so much that it hurts. i know you would never like me back because of how hectic your life is but i can’t let go of the feelings i have for you. you mean so much to me that i can’t put it into words. you are the best and i hope one day you reciprocate my feelings. i love you so much

i still hope you think of me sometimes. We never dated but you were always my number one. I care for you more than myself. all the love to you

if i were to ask you why youre with me you whould probably say 'because i love you' and if i were to ask you why you love me youd probably say 'idk'. you never seem to know anything. whyd you cheat on me? 'idk'. whyd you call me fat? 'idk'. whyd you make fun of the way i eat? 'idk'. why dont you ever know why you do the things you do. i love you because seeing your smile at school made my heart skip a beat. i love you because your laugh lightened my mood every time i heard it. i love you because when i got to know you i realized youre not as perfect as you try to act like around people. i love you for your flaws not just your looks and the good things you do. i love how strong you are. i love how you fight the darkness that swarms your head everyday just so you can put on a smile for the people you love. i love you for just being you, but i dont think you love me. you say you do but i dont believe it. ive known you for more than a year and i think that youre inlove with the idea of me. i think youre inlove with how much i love you. its sad for me to realize that but i know that ill never be enough for you to love. you always say that you keep coming back because you see something different in me but i think all you see is a nice caring person that understands you and doesnt judge you. i think you love the 'how are you feeling' 'how was your day' 'do you wanna talk about it?' 'its okay dont be sorry' 'its going to be okay i promise' i think you love the idea of me but no matter what you do to me i will always love you..

i miss you. i wish you didnt get your phone taken all the time because its been pretty hard the past few days. i love you.

i miss you. i miss seeing you everyday and hugging you. its so hard not being able to hear you say you love me.

I will never be able to change the way I feel about you. I've tried so hard. Because of you, now my favorite color is orange too. I hope our paths cross again soon.

you were the first one to show me love. i really fell way too hard. you did so much for me and i appreciate it more than you know. i’m not over you but lmk if you still think of me. bc i do... all the time :(

j'étais folle amoureuse de toi, dès le début. je ne te l'ai jamais dit, j'avais peur. tu me manques, j'espère que tu seras heureux.

youre the first person to ever care about me the way you do, im in love with you and i wont ever stop being in love with you. i remember when i realized how much i love you, it was when you had put on songs thru youtube and we danced to them with your arms around me and us swaying in my bedroom in the dark. i felt happiness, true happiness, i wanted to cry, it was a different feeling of love i had never experienced before. please let me be enough for you for the rest of our lives, i love you and i need you. please dont leave me, please dont fall out of love. yo give me confidence, you give me happiness, you give me everything i needed to be a better person and for that i'm always grateful, being with you is 100% one of the most best things to ever happen to me. please keep loving me forever.

im so sorry i hurt you. you will always be my first love. you taught me to love. thank you for everything.

I think I can say that I’m mostly over you, but you will still have a small place in my heart. I wish you all the happiness in life, even if I’m not there to hear about it.

you broke me in ways i never thought possible, but yet i cant help but love you. i think ill love you for the rest of my life

I wish you didn’t give up so easy but then again I shouldn’t have let you in so easy because now I am the one left in pieces

Hey bb I miss you a lot. I hope you’re doing good I hope you’re happy. I don’t know if you want me anymore but come back love I miss you

even if you don't love me, I still love you, even if I do everything to tell myself I don't anymore, I know I do.

i think i fell in-love with you that one saturday morning. the one where we woke up on a futon in an attic. im not sure what being in-love feels like, but holy shit you make me feel like im on-top of the whole entire world.