Unsent Messages

if i were to ask you why youre with me you whould probably say 'because i love you' and if i were to ask you why you love me youd probably say 'idk'. you never seem to know anything. whyd you cheat on me? 'idk'. whyd you call me fat? 'idk'. whyd you make fun of the way i eat? 'idk'. why dont you ever know why you do the things you do. i love you because seeing your smile at school made my heart skip a beat. i love you because your laugh lightened my mood every time i heard it. i love you because when i got to know you i realized youre not as perfect as you try to act like around people. i love you for your flaws not just your looks and the good things you do. i love how strong you are. i love how you fight the darkness that swarms your head everyday just so you can put on a smile for the people you love. i love you for just being you, but i dont think you love me. you say you do but i dont believe it. ive known you for more than a year and i think that youre inlove with the idea of me. i think youre inlove with how much i love you. its sad for me to realize that but i know that ill never be enough for you to love. you always say that you keep coming back because you see something different in me but i think all you see is a nice caring person that understands you and doesnt judge you. i think you love the 'how are you feeling' 'how was your day' 'do you wanna talk about it?' 'its okay dont be sorry' 'its going to be okay i promise' i think you love the idea of me but no matter what you do to me i will always love you..