Unsent messages to VINCENT

I love you. Always will. I don't even know why anymore sometimes. I miss us. I just know we'd work if we tried again. idk. I'm trying i swear

I can’t listen to Japanese Denim anymore. It reminds me too much of you. Hopefully one day I can listen to it without thinking of us singing to each other in your car.

yellow is our color. I still remember how we watched the moon that night. One day I hope u'll be enough brave to love me the way I loved you.

sometimes at night i strip back all of the lies i told myself about you and me and us and let myself remember how it felt when you held me. i still think about how you kissed my jaw that day we watched your favorite movie and how you told me you liked how my hair smelled after the rain. i wish i hadn’t hurt you how i did.

You said it was for my own good when you pushed me away. Was it really, or were you thinking about yourself?

i’m still waiting to put our minecraft beds together, even though it’s been 10 months. i’ll wait for you

Hey! I’m sorry that things ended up the way they did. You were the most important person in my life. My first real love, the man I genuinely adore. I’ve never had the courage to share my feelings after we went on our separate ways. So here it is... My love if you ever come across this. I’m sorry it had to be like that, I’m sorry we had to end like that. You were good to me. I appreciate everything you have done for me, i love you with all my heart. I wish things would’ve gone differently. Deep down I know that you were the one for me... it’s too late now. And I’m not gonna lie it hurts. It does. I know there is nothing we could do about it, it was out of our control. Maybe someday, somewhere our paths will cross again but until then I wish you all the best, I hope you achieve everything you have ever dream of and everything you have passionately talked about. Because you deserve it. You deserve to be happy. My only regret is that life has not been good to us. I love you, goodbye.

you've moved on now. i'm so so happy for you, wishing you the best even though it's hard for me to let go. i love you man, really much, take care. i believe in you.

you damaged me in ways you'll never fully understand, but surviving those nights has taught me how much strength i have hidden inside this fragile shell. i have grown so much without your shadow hanging over me.

i think i submitted it like three times just to be sure that youd see it if you checked here. but now idk if that was a good idea. having regrets. maybe dont read it. idk.

I’m sorry that I was ‘annoying’ to you and that you think I should go did, I’ll try harder in the future.

Thank you for your lack of love-it showed me I’m the sun. Even though the sun sits alone, it still shines.

I think of you often. After all these years, I just want to know if you're happy? You were like a boy version of me, down to the craziest details. I guess that's why I was always so fond of you. I couldn't love my insecurities so I decided to love them on you. I'm so sorry it was so hard for you to love yourself, and I'm sorry my flaws reminded you of yours.

please come back, im sorry I was to boring ill fix myself please. I never fell out of love with you, come back please ill do anything for you vincent.

our anniversary is coming up. i wonder if this notion comes to you as an afterthought or what you fixate on at night. i am the latter.

you never read any of the long stuff i write you so i won’t be surprised if you don’t see it or don’t read it
goodbye Vincent

take my heart and tear it to shreds. treat it exactly as i have treated yours. yet as i live and breathe, you stare at my heart which so violently tugs away from you and tell me you love me for the millionth time.

I hope you miss me how I miss you. You’re my soulmate & I believe we’ll get it right this time...

you were my first ever love. you made me so happy i wish we could of worked out but i know i truly deserve better.

today would’ve marked a year. do you know i still think about you after all this time? i don’t want you back, but i think about you quite a bit and i’m thankful for how you changed me. i just wish you didn’t have to break me to do it. i wonder what you think of when you think of me. what you remember about us. and i’m sure i didn’t mean as much to you as you meant to me, but i’d still like to know how you are. what you’ve accomplished this year. what you’ve accomplished without me. if i held you back at all in those short few months we were together. i know a little bit about your life, the little bit that you’ve told me, but sometimes i wish i knew more. in case you’re wondering, i’m doing well. a lot has changed since you left. i wonder if you’d even recognize who i am now. i’m not the girl you knew a year ago. i’m a little more guarded, but i think it’s a good thing. i think before i knew you i was so willing to get my heart broken if it meant i got to be loved for even just a little bit. but i realized it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. love. at least when it’s with the wrong person and not reciprocated. especially when you think it’s reciprocated and then the truth comes crashing down on you like a bomb and you realize it’s too late to take anything back. but would i take it back? no, i don’t think so. i chose to give you my heart, figuring you’d probably throw it around and break it like the guy before you. i was hopeful that you wouldn’t, but i can’t say i was surprised when you did. but i forgive you. i can’t blame you for not being ready. i can only blame you for lying when you said you were, and for telling me to trust you. but i’m the one who didn’t guard my heart. i didn’t realize how valuable and fragile it is. and i’m not blaming myself, but i hope you know that when you broke me, i didn’t stay that way. i picked myself up and glued myself back together. i’m better now. it took an entire year for me to realize i don’t need you, and that i’m actually better off without you. some days it still kinda sucks. some days i miss you and wonder how different things would be if i just continued to let you do things your way. but at the end of the day i’m proud of the way i handled things. so anyway, happy one year vincent. i genuinely hope you’re doing well. nothing but love.

You were my everything. You always have been. I hope you come back when you're ready. I'd do anything for you. I love you.

you're a different person then you were a year ago and you changed in the worst way possible. i wish i could change you back. because i miss the old you

A friend and I were talking about how we don’t miss our exes but we want to know how they are and that we hope they’re doing good whether it ended okay or not. Like if we just reach out and check in on them.
So i’m writing this because I want to ask but i’m too afraid to contact you so I’m just gonna ask it on here
How are you?
How has life been treating you?
Are you doing good?
Are you happy?
You don’t have to write me back if you somehow see this but I hope you’re having good mental health and that you’ve gotten happier

i kissed him out of anger for all the things i let you get away with. you are the love of my life still

You don’t know what losing you did to me . But I’m stronger now I no longer need you . Just promise me you’ll treat the next girl better

i regret you so much. you were so sweet and i was the worst; not because i had bad intentions, but out of insecurity and stupidity. i had no idea you liked me, but it was my fault for not being honest. i still cringe when i think back, but i am so happy you are thriving now!

just wanted to let u know that I care about you and that im so grateful to have you by my side everyday. love u

You know that feeling when you first wake up and the shine beams through the window.. yea that’s what you made me feel like

You messed me up bad, and I messed you up too. I’m sorry. Just know you’re a great person deep down inside.

You never knew I liked you for so long. I was never brave enough to shoot my shot. You were so beautiful, and I wish I could've really known you.

Why wasn't I enough? Can't you see me looking at you? Why did you use me and play with me? Why did you make me fall in love with you, when you were never going to be there for me anyways? Why did you spread those lies about me? Why did you have to hurt me so bad?

We haven't talked for a long time, I'm worried about you, I hope you are well.
I still love you, but one never has to go back where one was not appreciated

i looked at the door and imagined you opening it and surprising me.

i still memorize your laugh, your smile, the way your eyes curl when you laugh at me. i still know how you smell, how warm you are—there’s a specific warmth to you that i can’t find with anyone else.

how your body feels pressed against mine, how we always have a part of our body touching.

i miss it. if you asked me right now to come back, i would in a heart beat. i hate how i still love you.

If I were put in a room with every boy i've ever liked I would instantly run to you. always. I hope we can meet again one day

Why did I have to say no when you asked if I wanted to wear your sweatshirt. I think that ruined any chance with you.

if you end up never talking to me again, just know i'm sorry. never loved someone as much as i will always love you. king

Now that I think about me having some sort of feeling for you makes me laugh, but then I realize that you made me happy. when I would do the very least to pass you in the hallway you made me smile. you were a learning experience for me. thank you

I Vincent, I know we're miles apart and you probably don't even remember me but I just wanted to let you know how much you mean to me, you may have caused me a lot of pain, but you were the first person I have ever loved so deeply. It is sad that I can't see your face everyday like I used to. I really adore you and wish everyday that you can come back into my life and we could start a new chapter together.

You aren’t my first love . I can feel when you don’t have the same energy as me. I try to back off sometimes so you don’t think I’m a bother but in reality your all I want. I just wish I could tell you that and I wish you could respond sincerely and with passion like how I do. I can feel the energy we had the past couple weeks fading but it was fun . Please stay .

it’s been almost a year. i still think about you, but i don’t miss you like i used to and that feels really good. i wonder if you still think about me.

You showed me i was capable of love. i still believe you're my twin flame, and a life without you is one i don't ever want to live.

Hej Vincent. Hoppas du mår jätte bra och är på fint humör. Du är en klippa, en liten speciell diamant, men också en råtta... ibland. Jag uppskattar dig och du är en väldigt fin vän. Må lyckan vara vid din sida livet ut. Varmt var ditt hjärta och glatt Ditt sinne.
Ljust och soligt
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you're so much fun to be around. i'm glad we're (sorta) friends again, i just wish you would've treated me better.

maybe it’s just infatuation or yearning but i fucking miss you. and i regret never saying i love you back.

how could you move on so fast as if i meant nothing to you, i thought that 9 months meant something to you, was i not good enough, within 48 hours you’ve moved on, how.

I just realized that it has been a whole year since we started and I've bounced back and fourth between romanticizing it all and wondering why you lied to another person you also claimed to love just as much as me.
You hurt her. You hurt me. And I hurt you.
But I honestly think it all could have been avoided if I would have just told you no.

I still think about you sometimes and I remember all of the fun we used to have before things got complicated.
But I think we're both different people now, and I wouldn't be able to forgive either of us for the crap we put the other through.

I was just at the top of the empire state building at night with some guy and literally all I could think of was you. I'm surrounded by great opportunities and people but when I saw the lit up skyline you're all I thought of. It scares me. Don't think I've ever missed you more. Don't think I can feel anything with anyone else. Genuinely.

Sometimes I feel like texting you and asking how you and your family are. But I’m scared you won’t reply.. or worse with “who’s this?”