Unsent messages to TIMOTHY

I’m so in love with you it’s crazy and I hope we get married <3

i lied, i still miss you.

The best part of my day is talking to you. Your voice is my favorite melody. Please don't leave me.

U were everything.

I will love you the most forever & always.
I hope we find our way back someday.

you are either going to be my forever and my future or the biggest heartbreak of my life

I really miss you and I hope we can start over one day when we are better.

i’m so so proud of you, i love you

I think of you every one of our dogs birthdays. He’ll be 3 soon.

you know the distance never mattered to me.

think i’ll always love you. even if we’re oceans apart.

did i disappoint you?

thinking about you makes me blush

I’m terrified of running into you

thought i didnt care abt u anymore but when i saw u crying my chest started to hurt.

I love you i always will but never again will i like you

you make me relate to better man by taylor swift

Love me like how I love you, please.

you’ll always mean something to me

Are you not interested in me anymore?

I don't get you

why do you keep circling my mind when we never met each other?

us not working out was such a hard pill to swallow

You ruined all my favourite songs

I’ll never ever ever forgive you. I hope you don’t either.

Can I truly say I love(d) you if we’ve never dated? I mean love is a hard concept for me outside of family and close friends. I don’t use the word loosely. But maybe I love(d) you? The (d) is because I am honestly still confused. I can’t let go of you. And that sucks. It feels almost unfair. I know you are dealing with a lot and that we are probably better of as friends, at least for now. But I want you to be my person; can you be my person? I’ve put so much effort into you and that’s okay because I want to. Even if we never end up together, I want you in my life. You are so important to me. I guess I just wish I would’ve told you how I felt sooner. Maybe things would be different now. Maybe I’m wrong though. However, I’ll never find out because I’ll never speak to you about it again. It was a hard situation for me. I’ve never been so hurt by someone before yet continued to keep them around even though I am still hurt. I hope you’re doing okay, you don’t talk to me much about your mental health anymore. I worry about you and want to help Tim.

I wish I would have treated you differently now that I’ve learned more about love.
Thank you for being the best person there ever was

I’m sorry. I waited years for us to be together and I didn’t want to accept that it was over in five months.

Why tthe fick did you have to play with my heart like that the only thing i wanted was to be loved but no you had to fuck up my friendship with my bsf and i still talk to you but you dont know how i truly felt about you and sometimes i sit and wonder, does he still think about me, did he really like me or was it a dare, whys he take so long to ask me out, why didnt i make the first move but its whatever i dont care anymore

“angel”
you probably call her that too. Being friends with you is killing me, but in silence of course.

Everytime I didn't do nothin but love you even the moments we didn't do nothin but sit and talk. The little things matter. Just to look at you matters, just to smell you when i get the chance. Give you a hug, when I hug you there is nothing else there I feel like i'm floating. When you kiss me there is nothing that can hurt me.

You disappeared without a trace. All I got was that you moved across the country...I don't care if we're just friends, I want to talk to you again.

without you i would be lost but when i am with you i feel like i'm drowing. i guess not al that are lost are losing

Hey it’s me,
Hope you’re having a good birthday. Can’t believe you’re 21. I remember when you used to joke about drinking when we went out to eat and how excited you would be. I hope you’re smiling.
Love always
M

Hey it’s me,
I promised myself I wouldn’t reach out and this is my way of sort of sticking with that. I don’t hate you. I could never hate someone I love so much. You will always have a place in my heart and I think about you daily but we can’t be in each other’s life. You have a good heart. You have a good soul. We just aren’t good for each other. It breaks my heart to think that you’re unhappy so I hope you’re doing well and you’re taking care of yourself.
Love always,
M

It's been three years and I still think about you. You're still cute as ever but I dont think you would like me anymore. Sorry for being stuck up and rude.

Cant believe it’s been 4 months since you left. You ruined me as a person. But things are actually starting to get better again. I’ve realised my worth and now and it’s getting easier to deal with the heartbreak. I’ll always love you deep down but I will never be able to talk to you again. You could’ve at least given me some closure or replied to my text that I spent 2 days writing. But you didn’t.

You made me so happy but i was just a distraction to you..
You should have told me, i would have let you use me.

sometimes i look up my own name on here and think you wrote some about me. i'm sorry for how i treated you when i was going through a bad place in my own life. no one has every treated me as well as you. it is bittersweet to see you happy. i miss us and our jokes and laughs and how much you taught me about random shit or the way you used to joke around and spell your name like mine. i'm happy to see you doing so much greatness, you deserve it

My body twitches whenever I look at you and her together. It breaks my heart seeing her in your hoodie.

I don't love you anymore. I sent so many texts after the breakup which I'm deeply sorry for but I'm okay now. I wish you could see my progress. You will still always be in my heart. We were the right people, but so young.
Blessings always,
M.

I don't know if it would've felt more relieving if I had contributed at all to the fallout, but I know I did everything good. I think that's the part that makes me feel like it's raining over my head. I had wanted you. I actually wanted you. Now, I'm disappointed to even hear that you could still be for me. I frown and reject the thought. I don't even care if you became everything I like in a person. I just wouldn't want you anymore. I saw someone say they had hoped that their person and they had worked out in another reality. I didn't even smile and that thought and take solace in it. I said to myself that I didn't even want that. I just don't think I would forgive you for how I was treated. It makes me angry to grit my teeth and tell the Universe I'm grateful it happened because it led me to have certain events that I probably wouldn't have experienced with your being there because I would've chosen to spend time with you instead. I want to be so angry at you. Last night I wrote your name and ripped the paper up and I just stared at the trash can with my hand, palm open, with the ripped pieces on top. I turned my hand slowly and let the pieces fall in and I don't know how to feel. I see the good that came out in having this experience play out like this so far, but I do wish I hadn't met you, unfortunately. I'm sorry. (I don't know if I mean that for you or for me).

And I KNOW that you grieved me. You said I was your dream girl and I agree, to be honest! I AM the prize.

I won't count you, you know? I'm going to refuse to. I wouldn't even say we dated. It didn't feel like it.

You knew it was my birthday and you did that. After I cried, I took it as the Universe's gift to me to be free from you.

I don't see the point in why you brought it up. I was literally SO okay with being just friends. Now I don't even think you deserve to be one of mine.

I thought we were gonna always be together. I loved you from the second I saw you when we were 14. Why did you leave me when you promised you wouldn’t? I love you. Please text me back. M