Unsent Messages

Can I truly say I love(d) you if we’ve never dated? I mean love is a hard concept for me outside of family and close friends. I don’t use the word loosely. But maybe I love(d) you? The (d) is because I am honestly still confused. I can’t let go of you. And that sucks. It feels almost unfair. I know you are dealing with a lot and that we are probably better of as friends, at least for now. But I want you to be my person; can you be my person? I’ve put so much effort into you and that’s okay because I want to. Even if we never end up together, I want you in my life. You are so important to me. I guess I just wish I would’ve told you how I felt sooner. Maybe things would be different now. Maybe I’m wrong though. However, I’ll never find out because I’ll never speak to you about it again. It was a hard situation for me. I’ve never been so hurt by someone before yet continued to keep them around even though I am still hurt. I hope you’re doing okay, you don’t talk to me much about your mental health anymore. I worry about you and want to help Tim.