i wish i lived in a world where we could be together with no strings attached, and i'm sorry things haven't worked out so far. i'm glad we're trying this again even if it's just for closure.

i didn't mean it in a friend way, and i think you know that. i already knew you don't feel the same way back so i hope this doesn't make things awkward. i want to make it crystal clear that i haven't said this to try to pressure you into anything, i just need time to readjust and i hope that's fine. i'm still super glad that we're talking again. if it makes you uncomfortable i completely understand, i want you to decide the boundaries of this friendship so if i already passed them just ghost me again please.

it's been almost an entire day that we started talking again, and it feels really good. i feel really safe with you even if it's just over the phone, once again i'm not trying to over inflate your importance but it truely does cheer me up. even though it's just like a little friendship right now i still appreciate every second of it and enjoy it, i like that we can joke around and stuff a lot. it might seem weird that i'm really relived that you clarified what you meant on your submission. i'm not sure why you don't want to talk to my friends but i'm not worried about it, just talking to you is enough for me to be honest. i can understand how it would be weird talking to them and stuff so it's my bad for mentioning it. let me wrap this up since i'm just overexplaining. you mean a lot to me *man* and i hope this works out.

we said we'd work on communicating but i still don't know how to do it, so i guess this is the next best thing. i'm sorry if i am like too much right now, because i always want to call and text, i guess i just missed you. i also wanted to apologise for most of the time being silent and boring while we call, i am still not used to talking to you and i get like super nervous, so i'm trying to work on that. my mind just goes blank whenever you ask me to pick a topic. i don't believe i ever thanked you for setting up my icloud for me so thanks man. hope you see this within the next like week. also if it seems like i'm being like overly nice or apologetic it's just me trying to be cautious so you don't get uncomfortable or something. pee pee poo poo