im really happy we're talking again thank you for giving me this opportunity. i really missed you loser.

i’m so sorry, i hadn’t saw your message think until 4:37 am lol anyways um no problem but i do really love and care for you i hope you know that. i’m not sure if it’s in the way you want ? you telling me and stuff doesn’t make me uncomfortable so no worries. i just don’t want to do things like before if that makes sense. i would cry myself to sleep thinking i was a whore and i was so morally confused because i would never do that for someone else. but obviously i’m older now jokes aside i think i’ve changed as a person to know to not do that. i just really wish to respect your relationship and truly be a bestfriend to you. i think that having that mentality until well, um whenever haha would be good. but please don’t take this as me lying about what i said in that paragraph thingy i wrote everything was true. i just think now really having a bestfriend mentality is good. you can honestly just think of me as a boy if that helps. anyways ok this is too long lol i’ll make another thing hold up.

i’m really happy to be talking to you again. sorry if i make things awkward or something i’m trying my best to adjust and just be normal but i get nervous like with you i’m not sure why. i feel odd because wtf am i in elementary school ? i don’t mean to apologize so much. i just really don’t like the thought of me hurting you or doing something that makes you sad. so that’s why i constantly check up on you. we should def communicate more on how we feel :) thanks again for giving me the opportunity to talk to you

hi i feel really safe with you too. i’m happy we’re talking i’m sorry about the whole hanging with friends thing. i’m truly grateful to be able to talk to you. i always say this but i really did miss you. as for the clarification thing hopefully i didn’t overstep your boundaries by saying that i just wanted to like let you know that that’s just how i feel but i just am waiting for the right time to tell you, and that’s definitely not now. im not going to rush things. i like our friendship. and i like how things are. i feel much better than i did then now that i truly respect and set boundaries for myself and your relationship. sorry if this was confusing lol.

honestly communication is hard especially when we’re both not used to it so seriously no worries. you’re doing your best and it’s all that matters. there’s no need to be nervous dummy. i get it tho sometimes you can’t control things like that. um also literally anything you say won’t make me uncomfy lol. so ya. and ofc i’ll help u with ur iphone anytime silly. also if this is a good way to communicate with me rather then other methods then by all means do this. whatever feels most comfortable

sometimes i’m a little confused as to what to say or how to react i know you told me not to apologize as much but i’m still working on it so i will on this one, sorry for making it awkward sometimes i’m just nervous i guess. but anyways playing shitty fortnite with a not at all shitty person was really fun. i had a lot of fun with you and remembered so many things from back then although i do want to mention that even if you’re a friend i still show my affection so you have to accept that i will say i love you and send hearts unless ofc that makes you uncomfy and then you just lmk. i’m glad we’re playing together and i hope we can make more special memories. i’m sorry about your breakup and i hope you’re alright. i wanted to mention that like through voice but i didn’t know how to say it. anyways playing and stuff really reminds me how much i missed you. thanks loser. actually you’re carrying me as i write this which is kinda funny. well that’s my entry for tonight all over the place but whatever poopoo

I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry if I'm too tiring to love. you don't have to, tell me if you're tired.
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