blue. blue for you. it's always you. i want to tell you so bad. it's always on the tip of my tongue. just sitting there, waiting. waiting for what? for the right time? when will i know? will i ever know? these questions are always looming when i'm in your presence. i have felt it for so long, and yet i'm still afraid you don't feel the same. you're too special to me. i don't want to lose you. and like you say sometimes, i'm afraid i'll mess things up. i hope i find the words. 143