Unsent messages to RACHEL
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: November 4, 2020, 9:43 pm UTC
i'm glad we're friends again but fuck, it hurts. i should be over you by now, but i'm not, and this makes me feel like i still have a chance.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 27, 2020, 11:51 am UTC
I didn't realize that I loved you, it started off slow. Now, you're on a different path. I would stare at you, and you shone. I would see you in different hairstyles and clothing, while not all were great, they didn't effect my feelings, you are beautiful. I learned more about your interests and they became mine. We had few interactions, but we'd see each other often. I think back on you fondly, but if I focus too long, my eyes start to sting. You are my first love, I hope you're doing well right now.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 21, 2020, 10:08 am UTC
I cannot imagine a life without you and it’s breaking me to know that we only have one year until i never see you again. i know i am insignificant to you and this is how you act towards everyone, but you make me feel so special.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 20, 2020, 12:55 pm UTC
Good luck this weekend. I am forever proud of what you have achieved, keep doing you.
- your biggest fan
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 19, 2020, 1:29 pm UTC
I think I am going to be okay. I have accepted that the relationship we had is over and that it can never be like that again. I just hope one day you come back into my life, no matter what way that may be, I miss the person you are, not the relationship we once had.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 16, 2020, 3:55 pm UTC
you weren't my first love, but you were my first heartbreak. why couldn't you separate possession and love? i was never yours.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 15, 2020, 2:39 am UTC
i'm sorry .. i still miss you. i hope you're not mad at me. i just want closure. i am sorry. love
grace
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 13, 2020, 11:32 pm UTC
i always wonder what i did wrong to make you hate me so much. what you did destroyed me and i just wish i knew why although i know i was never any better
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: October 1, 2020, 2:25 pm UTC
i love you. you are my best bitch and i never want to lose you. i never want you to move on from me. i never want to walk past you and not giggle at each other. i love you that’s all?
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 30, 2020, 3:58 am UTC
hey rach i just wanted you to know that i love you so so much, and im really sorry for when i am such a shitty friend, but you, you are one of the best, most caring, reliable people that i know. i'm so sorry for when you go through tough times because i know more than anyone you don't deserve it. you honestly deserve the sun, moon, stars, and wayyy more. please know that i'm always here for you no matter the circumstances or the time. also, i stg if we aren't friends for the rest of our lives, i'm going to be so fucking pissed. but i love you so so so so much
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 26, 2020, 11:52 pm UTC
I chose this colour cause you're a piece of shit. I'm so happy that I got out of the toxic friendship with you. you're so manipulative, so annoying and most of all you were a horrible friend. especially when you said I had covid cause I'm asian, that shit just didn't sit right with me and I knew from that day that I could never trust you again. fuck you.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 26, 2020, 9:45 pm UTC
Hey I know your name is Xylan now but your chances of finding this is higher. I just wanted to say I love you. And yes I know that you said youre not ready for a relationship but lets give it a try.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 23, 2020, 2:44 am UTC
I miss you . I miss the way your head rested in my hand while I drive . Never placing without a kiss on my palm . The way you looked at me when you caught me staring at you . I miss hearing your voice . the way we laughed . The late nights . It came over me ina wave . It sucks . But not this time . Not this place . Maybe somewhere else far far away . it’s just a flood of memories . I closed the book. But I haven’t put it on the shelf yet . Ily .
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 18, 2020, 9:32 am UTC
i’m scared that i’ve become you. so cynical. always thinking i’m three steps ahead of everyone else so no one could possibly hurt me.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 13, 2020, 8:52 pm UTC
Sometimes I think I never really loved you at all and others I think I wish I could stop. Why did you say that and did you know that I loved you when you said it? I'm sorry we're still friends and I'm sorry that I never told you
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 9, 2020, 4:22 pm UTC
maybe if you opened your eyes and stopped feeling bad for yourself every second of everyday you would realize your friend has an ed as well...
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 7, 2020, 8:23 am UTC
why am i not enough for you? why do you want to run away and start your life with someone new when i’m right here. why can’t you see me.
From: ABC
To: rachel
Date: September 7, 2020, 12:25 am UTC
I fucking hate you. I didn’t even know I could actually hate someone until I knew you. Go to therapy or something.
