Unsent messages to PEDRO

n sei oq eu to fazendo mas vamos lá. Desde quando te conheci vi q era algo diferente, mas a sua rapidez e amor d mais me assusta (me deixa em pânico). Mas quero q vc saiba q independente d qualquer coisa vou estar aq segurando a sua mão e te acalmando.

Although you weren’t my first partner, you were the first to truly love me. I know we’re only young but you mean everything to me. I love you

I like you and I don't know if when you said you loved me you said it jokingly or seriously sorry but you didn't express love and I didn't know if you really said it I thought it was a game because why would you like someone like me? And in the end you ended up liking me I think you no longer like me

I told you I saw in you a love that could last a lifetime. I hope you know thats still true without you

you don’t know how many times i wished we never met over the 6 months that we talked, it hurted so much sometimes that i couldn’t breath, all because i liked you so much and you never liked me back the same way. i think you don't even imagine how much it hurted having to let you go, but having to wait three days for a reply because you were "too high" to respond my texts hurted even more. i knew we weren't perfect but i thought we could try, unfortunately i was the only one who thought that.
and when you appeared with another girl even after saying to me you didn't want a relationship, god it made me so mad, it made me feel like i wasn’t enough, but it's been a couple months and i’m doing better now.
we had good moments and i was happy having you in my life, even if sometimes it felt like a rollercoaster, right now i’m glad i met you and i hope i had some kind of impact in your life too.
well hope you’re fine and that someday you learn how to love yourself, it's gonna make things easier.
:)

i miss you so much. i dont understand how you promised me youd never leave me but yet you did. you seam to be doing great without me but i dont know why i cant get over you. come back i miss you :(

ANDATE A LA VERGA HIJO DE PUTA YO NO SOY TU JUGUETE.

DEJA DE DARME SEÑALES MIXTAS Y HACERTE EL IMBECIL DESPUÉS.

Remember that time we kissed in art class? My life felt like a perfect movie and we were the main characters. I miss u so much. love A

Que si no te prometo el cielo, es por vértigo.
Siempre vas a ser todo lo que quise, gracias por existir

Hola Peter, no sabes lo enamorada que llegue a estar de ti, eras mi vida entera, nunca he mirado a nadie como te he mirado a ti y nunca he sentido con nadie lo que sentía contigo era verte y aparecían 50.000 mariposas en mi estómago, se me iluminaban los ojos solo q que me dijeses hola qué tal, de echo a día de hoy aún cuando te veo me pongo tan nerviosa que no sé cómo reaccionar lo único que ahora ya no hay mariposas lo único que hay son los recuerdos de ellas, te he querido muchísimo y se q siempre a habido algo entre tú y yo, por que la forma en la que nos miramos lo dice todo ns es algo de otro planeta, y tengo tanto miedo de no llegar a sentir por alguien lo q he sentido contigo q me da miedo... de una alicantina un poco loca

I rlly love him and still care about him but the fact that we did so many stuff together and you left me ?

hey, I know you changed so much , but i haven’t stop thinking about you why??. I haven’t even seen you in months, but I really would never wished you they worst . I hope you’re doing good

it’s been so long since we’ve even talked but i’m still attached to you. i felt something back then and you’re the only person that’s never hurt me. please feel the same...

why did you always keep ghosting me and keep leading me on? you say words that really touch my heart and you say it like you mean it. i don't get it. i really liked you and i assume you did but i guessed wrong. you really did have my heart. i just wish you had mine. i wish that we were together but i guess you don't want too. i need to let you go and go on in life. this shouldn't be that serious.

You were the first guy I loved, and you left me in pieces. But i have become an amazing person since you left, so thank you. Just like you told me i would, I am changing the world and I remember you were there to tell me I could, but i dont need you anymore. Thank you for the drive to push me to do great things.

i like you so much.. i like you an embarrasing amount. its been two years of crushing but ill never tell you. i dont want to ruin our friendship. ill always admire from afar.

Tu ya pasaste por aqui y te quedaste para siempre, incluso aunque te vayas.
Tengo miedo de no volver a sentir lo que tu me haces sentir es que aunque tengas mil defectos para mis ojos tu eres perfecto y eres la unica persona con la que quiero estar. Aunque ya no estemos juntos y cada quien siga su vida yo te seguire esperando. Te amo y te amare siempre.

no sabia que se podía escribir tanto aquí, pero bueno, extrañe escribirte, cambiaron muchas cosas desde que te fuiste,creo que cambie,para mal. Llore mucho cuando te fuiste,por todo lo que soñé y jamas llegaremos a ser por lo mucho que desconfiaste de mi,sabes? gracias a lo que pasamos me cuesta confiar,me da miedo o decir lo que siento, contigo siempre fue sencillo...volví a saber de ti hoy, o bueno cada 2 meses me entero algo nuevo de ti, y me doy cuenta que aunque no estés, sigues aquí, porque me sigo preocupando por ti ¿como puedo seguir amándote después de todo?¿por que cambio todo eso? te espere tanto...llore hasta que no pude mas, recordando cada cosa de ti¿por que no me buscaste? creo que no te importe tanto como a mi me sigues importando,creo que esto es una carta de despedida y me duele por que todavía no te dejo ir del todo,las personas dicen que ya no piense en ti, que siga con mi vida así como tu sigues como si nada hubiera pasado,fuiste ese amor que todas las personas desean que fuera diferente. si te hubiera conocido aquella vez que viniste,y no desconfiaras tanto de mi, si hubieras venido sin irte corriendo, o si yo te decía que fui a verte en nuestro aniversario, tal vez las cosas serian diferentes, pero no lo son... abrígate por favor, nunca lo hacías y se que de seguro tu nueva novia no te dirá eso...y espero que te haga mas feliz de lo que yo lo hice,de seguro ya me superaste y sigo yo como tonta pensando en ti, te perdono por todo cariño,no la haré mas larga ,no se como reacciones si leyeras esto...solo cuídate...G

Llevo cuatro jodidos años detras de ti y creo que no te das cuenta o simplemente no quieres pero porfavor no me hagas ilusiones si tu no quieres nada
:(

It was and always will be you. I do believe there is such a thing as right person, wrong time. It’s sad that it had to end without giving it a chance.

You are my first ever crush. Everything about you is perfect. Your smile, your voice, your personality. Yet you probably see me as another regular person. It pains me to think you will never like me the way I do you.

Despite all my efforts, I think I'm falling in love with you. But I can't say I'm surprised by that, you're an amazing person. Thank you for being you.

you were my first love. sometimes i think i still love you. you always have known how to help me so well; the way nobody else can. i miss you. maybe if i would’ve said i loved you sooner.

i think about you everyday.i want to stop think of you but i cant you fucked me up.why cant you just talk to me about it

you were my bestfriend.. we have so many memories and after all of that it still looks like your living your life perfectly without me, it’s been years there’s no day I’ve never thought about you i miss you, our friendship. you hurt me a lot, but I..love you more than anything thank you for everything.