Unsent messages to MIRANDA

Oh hey miranda you're pretty cool I like your pfp haha I hope you have a great day and know you're worth it

Extraño tu presencia en mi vida, te sigo queriendo pero necesito irme de tu vida para poder ser feliz, yo si quería pasar el resto de mi vida contigo, pero tú tenías planes diferentes, sé que ahora tenemos que ir por caminos diferentes, gracias a ti aprendí muchas cosas, fuiste la mejor y la peor cosa que me ha pasado en mi vida, pero aún así te amo más de lo que te imaginabas, no importa como terminaron las cosas, o como el tiempo nos separó de la manera en la que lo hizo, te esperaré el tiempo que sea, incluso en las mil vidas que existen, solo espero que no te tardes mucho

i love you with my whole heart. i never stop thinking about you. the way your eyes sparkle when you get excited or how you look at me when i touch you. i never want to feel anyone else, and i never want you to either. the thought makes me sick, and i know it’s selfish to want you to myself and only myself but i don’t mind being that way as long as you’re mine and i’m yours. i want you to be only mine. my angel, my sweetheart, you’re everything i want. everything i need. you’re my sun, making everything bright when i feel dark. no ones helped me as much as you and i couldn’t ever thank you enough. i’m so grateful i found my way to you because you saved me from myself and showed me that there’s something good in me. i’ll always be here for you baby, no matter what. if you ever need anything, and i mean anything, i would drop everything to give it to you. you’re the love of life, no one could make me feel the same way.

I wish u were my first. u are the most important though. u pick me up on the days I wish I could make it all stop, u remind me of all the beauty there is in the world and all the magic, u are there when no one else is. u are so strong and so powerful and I am so excited for the day u fully realize it. I love you always u beautiful soul

It hurts me to say that I love you. Not loved, I still love you. I don’t know why I do, but I do. You took advantage of me, and everything I had to offer. You’re losing a great person. Good luck trying to find another one.

You’re so selfish. You came into my life, and I treated you with selflessness, kindness, compassion, and love. All I got back in return was a kick to the curb. You hurt me. You continue to hurt me every day. I told you about how vulnerable I was in my last friendship, because they used me. Guess what you’re doing. All you care about is yourself. No one else. Not unless it affects you. You also talked shit about my family when I could say SO MANY things about yours, but I keep my mouth shut because I don’t like to hurt other people. You’ve hurt me so much that I’m pushing you away. I don’t know if you can tell, but I am. When I push people away, it’s very hard for them to ever break down my wall again. I’m hurt that you treated me this way, and that you continue to treat me this way. How dare you.

you are my best friend. I am so thankful for you and how bright your light shines in my life. I'll be there for you until the end. i love you bitch.

I love you more every day. You are the strongest person I know even though you will disagree. Just being near you calms me and makes me so happy. Thank you for helping me through some really tough days this year. I hope I do the same for you. ?

i just wish i could be kissing u right now but.. u said two girls kissing sounds gross... hope you are doing well rn. i miss u

sorry for not telling you the truth of my feelings before, I was so nervous about it... fr I´ll always love you

I’m sorry for what I did to you. Now that it’s happened to me, I understand the pain you went through. I would give everything to have that friendship back but you have moved on and I should feel happy for you.

Es triste aceptar que se acabo,espero y te vaya bien en tu vida,tal vez en algún futuro nos encontremos,tal vez no.
pd:aún conservo tu carta,tengo la duda de si aún conservaras la mia,y si es asi ¿que pensaras cuando la lees?espero y te saque una risa como las veces anteriores.
pd:el morado era uno de tus colores favoritos,tal vez ya no lo sea,por si acaso pongo esta carta en morado.

I still think about you everyday, even though you don't. At least one of us is happy now unfortunately it isn't me.

i wish distance didnt exist. i wish i could show you just how much i care about you, without holding back. i hope fate brings us back together someday, because i need to take you to the mothman statue

i confuse romantic and platonic feelings too often. i want to be in love again- even though i always lose myself when i do. no one will ever love the things i hate about myself. and, anyway, i don’t want anyone that will. i dont think its right for anyone to love me. i miss the things i had before i ruined them. the close friendships, i look back and i know i was helpless but to me it seems like i was in control. i feel out of control and im uncomfortable. i wish youd hold me so tight that i cant move and so i feel safe. i wish youd restrain me and i wish i could act like an idiot and youd put me in my place. why do i do this? can you put me in my place? romance books have ruined me. i see myself in the love interest too much and it sounds egotistical but i swear its not. im the out of control girl that the main character loves and shes just always out of reach. overly-romanticized. i am an idea to most people anyway, i have a hard time opening up despite the fact that i never shut up. i wish i could go out of control and youd just fucking hold my wrists and not let me hurt myself and just let me cry. i wish you'd tell me what to do and i could fight you on it and i wish you'd tell me to stop being so stupid whenever im acting irrational. i don't know why im so irrational. i hate it. i wish you'd call me *yours* and you'd be possessive. even though it physically hurts, i want to fight with you. im so tired. i love you. you could probably never be this person for me. why cant i just be normal. why am i so fucked up? why am i so toxic. im not good for anyone i know and im hurting in different ways all the time. why cant my head, for once, be normal? not fuzzy, or buzzy, just normal. not blank, not on fire. i could never keep anyone around

i hate you. you never deserved him. he took you back so many times just for you to hurt him even more in the end. i hate you yet i envy you. i envy the opportunity you had. he' ll never be the same and its your fault. i envy you yet i hate you for what you did to him. i envy the fact that even when you left he took you back immediately. i envy how much he trusted you and how much he loved you. you were his first and you completely fucked him up. but thank you for fucking up cause you didnt deserve someone like him. he was and is way to good for you. so thank you for giving me the opportunity to actually treat him right. i wont wish anything bad upon you because thats just not who i am but one day i hope. i fucking hope you feel so guilty and you realize how good of a person you lost when you left him. i hope you cry over you losing someone like him. like how he cried over you. i hope you feel his pain but ten times worse. and i hope that he never looks your way again. i hope you never find someone like him. miranda i despise you for hurting him. also if you ever even see this and even think its about you, heres a hint, he saw you looking through the blinds when you gave him his clothes back. his challengers such a pretty car huh?

I know sometimes you feel like a third wheel since you arrived to our friend group late but you’re my family and mean just as much to me as lucky

you were there when i first self-harmed. thanks for being a good friend for 1 year. i hope you dont go down the same path as your dad

Ok so basically I don’t even know where to start but actually I’ll start like this I love you sooo much like I can’t even explain how much I love you it’s just soo much and also I like really like you a lot and I don’t know if you knew that but you do know so like I just love being with you your literally my favorite ever and when we hold hands it’s so nice it makes me so happy and when we cuddle it’s sooo amazing especially the last time we did that was so good like it was just amazing cause you were just so freaking warm but it sucks cause we can’t do that for a little cause I’m in Quarantine but after I’m done with it I think it would be fun if we did but up to you so like I just love you soo much you mean everything to me like you don’t know how nice it is when you tell me goodnight or you ft me it just makes me wanna stay alive cause it’s just so freaking fun and I love
You sooooo freaking much❤️❤️ Like I can’t even describe it I just do and I also just like you like a ton your literally so amazing I love you soo much and I can’t wait until we can hangout again ❤️❤️

You were my star you deserve the world. You showed me what love was. I hope I did the same for u. I miss you so much I scream Nd cry myself to sleep thinking about you. I love you.

i don’t think i ever really loved you. you’re an amazing person and i wish you nothing but the best. but i need to move on.