Unsent messages to MACI

to my best friend, you were my first true love. not romantically of course, but a higher...more beautiful type of love. I would do anything for you. I adore you. Thank you for blessing me. I love you.

I choose this color bc you love this color. Maci, having you in my life is the greatest blessing. I love you endlessly, thank you for everything.

its been almost three years and I still miss you. Sometimes I think about calling but decide it's for the best if I didn't. You were the first girl I ever liked

You were my bestfriend and we were super close. We would talk shit and tell each other everything and joke about our futures together, I miss that. The reason I stopped talking to you was because I realized I was in love with you, and I know that's not fair, but it's the truth.

Your energy, your heart is everything my soul has been looking for but I wasn’t what you were looking for.

thank you for becoming my friend & being someone i look forward to seeing in the mornings , you lighten up any mood

I miss the way u used to hold me and tell me how pretty I was and how Much u loved me. We used to plan our future together dude. Why did u leave.

I’m not sure what it is about you that has me feeling this way. I don’t know if it’s you or me that’s making this so hard for me. I don’t know if I’m afraid to love you, if I’m scared of myself, or what. I push people away, that’s what I do. And now, I don’t know if I pushed you away or if my feelings were valid. I do love you but I don’t know if I want to be with you. Regardless of that, I never wanted to stop being your friend. Even if we couldn’t be together I still wanted to be your friend. That’s why when I thought I lost you the first time I nearly lost it. But now I don’t have you..and I don’t know what to do.

Honestly, the first thing that went through my mind when you told me you cheated was, "Thank god, I can finally get out."