I’m not sure what it is about you that has me feeling this way. I don’t know if it’s you or me that’s making this so hard for me. I don’t know if I’m afraid to love you, if I’m scared of myself, or what. I push people away, that’s what I do. And now, I don’t know if I pushed you away or if my feelings were valid. I do love you but I don’t know if I want to be with you. Regardless of that, I never wanted to stop being your friend. Even if we couldn’t be together I still wanted to be your friend. That’s why when I thought I lost you the first time I nearly lost it. But now I don’t have you..and I don’t know what to do.