I hate myself all the fucking time for how i acted and well it really humbled me because now i can see how much our friendship really wasnt that necessary

yeah its me again i wonder if you wear that jacket me and ellie bought you and think abt the times when we were still friends. I remember that first late call that we had and i couldnt stop smiling the next day. How the hell did i get into the situation where i set you up with my good friend which ended in a messy breakup, proceed to stay close with you, start liking you, then acting petty toward you when you stopped talking to me. Jesus i was so stupid i was never supposed to like you in the first place

i really love you. like more than you will ever know, you make me feel so happy and you make me laugh when i’m at my lowest, i don’t think there is even a moment when i’m around you that i don’t smile and laugh, even though you don’t feel the same i obviously have to go on without you because you have her. i don’t know why i fell in love with you, you just make me feel so safe and comfortable. i don’t think anyone has made me feel like that. i just want to be with you but i can’t. but i hope you too last as you deserve everything and more, i really hope that you are happy even if that puts me in pain, but i would do anything for you so don’t worry about that. i love you ok

i miss you so much :( since you left i can’t seem to be happy. i love you more than everything. i promised you i wouldn’t leave so guess what i’m still here, anytime you need some text me i’ll answer right away you’ll always be the love of my life, my soulmate. i love you for ever and always daddyboy

Debo de contarles que tuve un amor que fue lo mejor del mundo, pero en ese tiempo estaba en una relación y por miedo de dañar a mi novio, deje de lado la ilusión de amar al otro chico :v

I wish I had an excuse to die, like I suddenly got diagnosed with really bad cancer, or got shot, because I can't purposely do it because I don't want the responsibility to lie on me for hurting my family, but I want to get the benefit of ceasing to exist. Does that make sense?

never had one lol. the only one I really had was in like the 4th grade, but that didn't really count considering I was like 10 at the time