Unsent messages to KATHY

I wish we could've worked things out, I still think about you sometimes and I miss you.

I always wonder what could’ve been about us if I wasn’t afraid what what others said.

I've moved on for a while now but the thought of what I've done haunts me in my head everyday

i wish we could just catch up. i think of you always mi cosa guapa

You'd be in my prayers if I thought you weren't an angel

CA isnt what it’s chalked up to be. Id run back to the cold state if I wasnt so ashamed of the past

I wish I could change how much I hurt you. I still think about you. I really hope you’re doing well

I’m sorry for breaking up with you. I’ve cried everyday since. I hope it’s what was right.

i hope you know i think about you and yearn for your kiss.

I was too young for our love. You had such beautiful wings.

please just fall in love with me already idk what im doing

if you come back to me, i wont let us be apart again, i miss you so much mi cosa guapa

when are you coming back to me? you know i'll always love you and wait for you

i’m so smitten w you….and you’re the only one who can’t tell

I wonder if u actually use this thing but if u do I love u so much I think abt u a lot

Im sorry but I can't respond to you.

i love hearing your voice and talking about nothing. you’re very special to me.

i dont even know your name
did you forget i exist?
stop killing my happiness

I know we didn’t end off the best but can we try again later on in life? Please? I miss our 4 years

I miss you, even though you made it clear. I just don't understand what went wrong.

hey stranger. do you regret it?

I’m proud of you K. I hate that I still love you but I’ll always support you. Our plant misses you

I miss u so much Gram

even though our friendship ended the way it did, I rly miss you & think abt u every now and then

I love you so
much you’re pretty like a Mitski song and your laugh can make anyone smile.

am i wasting my affection? if i am, tell me to go away and i will. but please say something.

I hope you find what you’re looking for and we try again someday

if you only knew how much i really love you. i miss your hands on my face.

I still love you and I still have not forgotten my promise

I love you so much. you invade my every thought. just make me yours already, please Kathy

I miss finding you in bed and hugging you, miss u luv

Give us one more chance please…….

when i see u, i love u. i thought i hated u. let that girl go and kiss me. i’m right here now.

Hi, I miss you! It’s been a while but I loved our friendship back in the day <3

Don't give up on us bebe, I love you always

I don’t love you anymore. Nobody has ever messed with my head the way that you did, and still do.

being ur gf hurts sm.

I wish you missed me as much as I missed you

i wonder what do you actually think about me

I'm sorry about everything. I think about you all the time. I wish I could talk to you.

thank you for being the sweetest and most genuine person in my life. i truly appreciate you so so much.

today your color isn't yellow, as it usually is. i have no interest in sleeping when i know you won't be the first person i think of when i wake up. apparently all of this was for nothing, and i won't lie and say that im not upset. im so angry at you, so angry at myself, because you aren't as good as i thought you were and i'm just not good enough for you. i read everything all wrong and i've never felt more disappointed to be wrong about someone. i told my mom about you. i read what i wrote for you not even a week ago and its laughable, looking at the contrast between then and now. i couldn't tell you to your face, but i was about to. less than an hour before i found out that i'd made a mistake in my assumptions. i'd always hoped, you know. its been almost a year of me hoping. praying. and i know that some part of you knew. and still, some part of me still hopes. that harry was lying, and its me that you want, but we both know this isn't true. we're just friends, i could say, except i think i have to take a break from being your friend for a little while. not that you'd notice, because you never cared about me that way. i can't blame you for not being attracted to me, thats not fair of me to do. but i wish you knew how badly i wanted it. more than i've wanted anyone. i dont remember anymore how happy i was when i saw you not a month ago, and i dont remember killing myself inside because all i asked you about was her. i dont really remember anything, but i'm sure that it'll all come back to me. right now, im very uncharacteristically me. i liked to say that you made me more myself, and i guess I know now that it was true. i hope he was lying. i wish he was, but its obvious that he wasn't. you used to be my favorite person to talk about, all i ever talked about. now i dont think I could talk about you without a bitter sense of hurt washing over me. when I wake up I'll go back to being fine. surviving, not thriving. i wish I could call you after school as I usually do, but thats probably not the healthiest option for me right now. i feel fine, but i also want to be anything but awake. thats a dangerous feeling. i never should've given you this power over me, never. but I suppose it was worth it if I had something to look forward to for a while. suppose it was worth it if I finally had someone that made me happy. guess its just myself again. and again, I wish you and whoever she is nothing but the best, and I hope that she makes you very happy, because you deserve all the happiness. I think its time to find my own happiness, in someone that finally isn't you. you know, I started thinking of you instead of him. it was you, not him, and I never thought that would happen. i dont think I can talk to you again. I think I love you. but you'll never know, now will you?

you will never heal by going back to what broke you. it’s a hard pill to swallow, but he would reach out if he truly wanted to.