Unsent messages to KEN

i don’t know what im doing ken, im not ashamed of you, i never was, i was just terrified man

I have never really forgotten about you. I mean i should've and could've, but chose not to.

Hi ken, I really miss talking to u. I’m still hoping that you’ll talk to me again one day

I like u too much I hate it

it kills me how much i wanted us to work

I miss u bb

hello‚ ken! thank you for being a good friend! thank you for always be there when i need a friend

i miss you, it sucks. i wonder if you miss me? probably not.

I hope you still think about me. I wish you the best! Hope you are happy now.

I love you more than myself or anyone else and I really don't know why.

i miss u pls text me u too quick mannn i cant catch up

i miss you so much, ken. It's been a months since we last seen each other. I hope u are doing well

a part of me will always wait for you. i miss you.

What if i did like you before but i was not sure cause you gave me mixed feeling about you

I like you i hope you notice it I don't want to confess I want you to know it not from me though.

If it’s not love, then idk what we feel abt each other.

i miss you . but you pushed me away . so im staying away.

I love you ken

i love you with every bone in my body. i need you to know that it’s always going to be you. soulmate

you're kenough.

i love you like mac demarco songs:)

i'm still waiting for u :)

u rlly confuse me I'm just loving u but yeah not enough

still waiting for u to come back, even if we’d just be friends

kinda miss u

i don’t like what i’m feeling about you

I am praying for your success, future engineer

Love you, bro. Keep bro-ing, keep slaying. <3

i miss you so much, i hate it. i just wish you would come back.

idk if ure still worth it ken

i wish you could've loved me longer, i love you princess

how are you babi?

i miss our late night talks and everything

you're loosing me.

maybe if our time was right we would be something more then just friends but for now ill settle ill always settle for you Kennith

Hello dear.
I'm not sure what we had was love. I was young and you were older. You showed me "love" that apparently you never felt until her. You up and left what we had for her. After multiple times of giving you chances you still went for her. When you finally came back and told me how you felt for me and apologized for it all. My heartbroken self finally thought I had a chance. Although all of that you still decided to threaten me by my body, deciding to call ur fellow gang friends to find me and hurt me if I said anything. I do hope one day that I will see your face and give you the revenge that my younger self would have wanted. I hope you feel pain, I hope everytime you think of me it reminds you of the shit you have done. Be proud you dirty fucking pig. Love, the person who never stopped caring.

you texted me the other day, but i couldn’t find the words to reply. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i didn’t use you when i was bored, i promise.

It was always weird when we talked to each other. Off and on. Sorta confusing throughout the years. I just wish we worked out. It sucks to move on without knowing if we actually could

i love you and i'm so proud of you. You came a long way and i wish i could be there with you right now

Sometimes I wish I did things differently. I’m not good at decision making. I miss you randomly and hope you’re doing well

I didn't know what falling in love was until I met you. I still think about you from time to time and though I don't know the person you are now, I know for a fact that if I were to meet you again I would fall in love all over again.

god i love you so much and it will never change, my first ever love, i hope to marry
you in another life. a life where we are still together.

I see my future with you. I see my future with all of us. sometimes I wish I could tell you that without getting scared. I love you.

You made me realize I didn’t have to wait to see if I could trust you. I hope Covid is the only reason it didn’t work out

Hola ken ??
Se que es algo inesperado el hecho de que esté escribiendo. Pero sólo quería agradecerte por los 6 años compartidos, en donde aprendí sobre tantas cosas del mundo. Fueron los años en los que hoy en día, me engendraron, formaron y transformaron en la mujer fuerte, hermosa y resilente; quien soy hoy. Que tengas una vida genuinamente llena de amor, abundancia y Libertad. Te mando buenas energías. ??

I miss those times when we use to talk :( I know you’re going through something right now but you’re becoming more distant and it’s hurting me everyday. I know you’ll come back to me

Siempre he estado enamorado de ti, siempre he cuidado tu espaldas, ¿Algún día te darás cuenta de mis sentimientos?, en verdad te amaba pero siempre fui un amigo mas. Me aferre a ti sabiendo que tu alma gemela estaba alado tuyo, se que no aceptabas tus sentimientos por el, lo amabas... me di cuenta.
El ahora esta muerto, no lloraste en publico pero se que lo hiciste en silencio. Me dueles, me dueles demasiado pero estoy tan encaprichado contigo que aun sabiendo que aun amas a ese chico de cabellos plateados, aun muerto sigues amándolo, algo que nunca pasara conmigo.
Solo soy tu mejor amigo, ese amigo que cuida tu espalda.
Soy un cobarde, no puedo expresarte mis sentimientos frente a frente, te amo, te amo, enserio te amo.
Se que aun lo amas, se que aun sigues amándolo a el, se que aun pase el tiempo, siempre querrás rencarnar y estar a su lado sin importar que, no me importa seguir siendo tu mejor amigo, con eso basta, te amo, eres mi luz.

this is my second time writing you a letter in this website. it's not because i couldn't find the other one but today marks a special day that i know you don't remember. today marks the first year we've bid our farewells to each other. not permanently leaving each other's lives but promising to look for better halves we deserve. for me, it's been a year yet i've always wanted it to be you. i think it's always been you. you're my first love and i wasn't yours so i understand that. you keep coming back to her, i keep coming back to you. you're both two puzzle pieces fitting each other and i completely bamboozle the puzzle by forcing you to fit on to another part of the picture. it's so wrong but it feels so right for me. i didn't feel anything the moment you said, "i don't want this anymore." not a single part of me felt shattered for a second, it was utter silence and a numb expression. i said "but it's you," and you just said, "but i don't want to anymore." it only took me an hour later, and even more so about a year, before i got to realize how much you meant to me and how i didn't wanna lose you. i loved you too much, i knew letting you go to someone you loved most is the best option. and yes, you seem happy. you really do. we didn't completely cut off our ties as we still communicate sometimes, but do know... i wish it were everyday. happy one year since our breakup, bb. you're still the one in my heart.

You always remind me that life is beautiful. Thank you. Here’s a white color— the color that suits you the most.

It’s funny how easily you moved on. How painless it was for you ... guess you were much more of an actor than I credited you for. It sucks that it ended this way, that I have to have this as the memory of my first love