Unsent messages to JUSTICE
From: ABC
To: justice
i keep wondering why i come back to this, it's not like you'd see/care but i think it helps...
today was bad, though.. i haven't slept in 26+ hours because of my brother and horrible actions he made, and i couldn't talk to anyone about what had happened, though somewhere in the back of my mind was you, and i thought about somehow talking to you directly and unloading to you because i'm scared, and i'm sad, and i miss my brother, and i don't want my life to spiral like this anymore.. i just want to be okay, i have nobody, i'm so so so tired. i hope you're well though, as i do.. i don't know what to do, my mind is swimming and who even knows if i'll remember typint this out. i'm on meds to calm down, and i've been self medicating to numb myself out but jesus christ i'm not numb, i just have to pretend i am. and maybe pretending that i'm actually sending this to you will help me somehow, and i can imagine you replying back with some helpful words and maybe i'll feel okay. my hands are shaky and i feel like i'm gonna vomit, i hate being anxious over things out of my own control. god. i'm sorry. i was terrible too, wasn't i? i treated you wrong, and for that i'm sorry and i have regrets about the whole thing.. maybe one day i'll stop coming back to this to get out my thoughts to the mere idea of you. i just wish things weren't so rocky, and i wish you weren't so far away from where i am. that's unfair in itself, isn't it? i'm tired now, i need rest if i can get it, cause now i'm rambling like a crazy person and i don't remember anything i said thus far.. but i'll put it out there because i have one life, and today has shown me god doesn't exist so who the hell am i supposed to live for if not myself? crazy, huh? again, not like you'll ever read this because i'm not sure this is the type of "scene" for you, but who knows. maybe the universe is odd like that, or maybe it isn't. reality is strange now, but you're quite nice.
From: ABC
To: justice
i cared about you, deeply. it hurts to see you do everything i wanted, with someone else.. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: justice
It’ll always hurt to think about you and what we had, but I don’t think i’ll ever get over you. I will always love you.
From: ABC
To: justice
It’ll always hurt to think about you and what we had, but I don’t think i’ll ever get over you. I will always love you.
From: ABC
To: justice
y'know.. i'm always thinking back to when you sent me a generic picture of a blue bouquet because you'd remembered i liked the color blue... my memory loss is significantly worsening with the days, but i suppose it's nice to remember the little things that made me things feel whole.
From: ABC
To: justice
you were my first love and our memories play on repeat in my mind. i miss the good memories mi amor. xoxo hun
From: ABC
To: justice
i’m falling in love with you and i didn’t think i’d ever feel that again
From: ABC
To: justice
this was your favorite color because of my eyes. now we’re both married but to different people.
From: ABC
To: justice
You've already made me feel so loved compared to anyone else
From: ABC
To: justice
i wish i could tell you how much i care, im glad you’re doing better
From: ABC
To: justice
It feels like your gonna hurt me so I’m scared and I think I’ll have to hurt you first.
From: ABC
To: justice
I don't know how I'm feeling about this relationship tbh.. I'm sorry
From: ABC
To: justice
I miss everything we had and i’ll always love you. but maybe it’s time I move on.
From: ABC
To: justice
in a different life i believe we were everything we knew we could’ve been
From: ABC
To: justice
you will always be my everything, you’ve shown me the love my parent never gave me.
From: ABC
To: justice
I can’t stop thinking about u. I can’t stop dreaming about you. I’ve liked u for so long dude
From: ABC
To: justice
My love, you’re my better and everything i’ve ever wanted
From: ABC
To: justice
I miss looking into your eyes and seeing you smile. you’ve always been so beautiful inside and out.
From: ABC
To: justice
You were always embarrassed about your lip scar. I think it’s the most beautiful/unique thing.
From: ABC
To: justice
I had so much faith in you, and you let me down. I kept waiting for a message, or apology.
From: ABC
To: justice
At some point when our lives connect again, we’ll do it right.
From: ABC
To: justice
I wish you were still mine. I miss you, even though you aren’t mine to miss anymore. I love you.-M????
From: ABC
To: justice
i wish you could just tell me so my heart could stop hurting
From: ABC
To: justice
Ik I shouldn’t miss you but I do, I would do anything for you to text me
From: ABC
To: justice
I heard u have a girlfriend now and I do hope ur more than happy, so why would u call me?
From: ABC
To: justice
I still love you, I think of you constantly. I hope to try again with you after we graduate.
From: ABC
To: justice
It’s been a year and a half and I still can’t get over how I did you so wrong. I miss you.
From: ABC
To: justice
my first love always. you were everything, i’ll always come home to you. i love you more than life????
From: ABC
To: justice
I had a lot of fun with you at the frats. I want to get to know you better :)
From: ABC
To: justice
i so desperately want our paths to cross again and love you the right way
From: ABC
To: justice
i let you go, finally, i saw you in the halls and felt nothing when i looked at you. i’m happy
From: ABC
To: justice
We're working together again, I wish I could tell you how I've always felt about you.
From: ABC
To: justice
I miss your presence. I miss your attention. I miss us. I want us back.
From: ABC
To: justice
I waited every day for you to take the lead. My heart still hurts.
From: ABC
To: justice
I'm sorry I couldn't like you. You seem like an amazing person. You deserve better than me.
From: ABC
To: justice
You’ll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
Haha please come back.
