Unsent messages to JP

I am sorry for everything I said and did.
You did not deserve to be treated like that.

I am sorry for everything I said and did.
You never deserved to be treated like that

never really liked how others say my name but u make my name sound good :)

We are not lovers but we are strangers with some memories. You left me with love scars.

you don't know how i relish the mutual lack of self-control that keeps driving us back to each other

why do we keep fluctuating in & out of each other's lives? i swear to never swear with ur name again

I love you but I cant. I miss you but im not supposed to. I want you back. but you broke me.

the smile that'll treacherously grace my face if i see yours again... it haunts me daily

i don't care anymore.

but if we're ever face to face again, please don't check my heartbeat.

letting you go was the worst decision i've ever made. i think i'll miss you forever

I missed you already. If fate collides, I wish I will meet you in person. Take care my moon.

I think about you everyday. Why did you have to leave.

i will always love you even tho we couldnt be anything

You’ll get through it, bebe, I’ll stay wt u through it all. :>

I don’t love you anymore and I wish only the best for you

i think you really were the one that got away

Thank you for those days we spent snuggled on your sofa, I don’t remember much, but when I do it’s so nostalgic. I’m glad I finally got over my infatuation in September though. You’ll always mean so much to me.

Nose si no te bastó hacerme sufrir demasiado y sacarme de tu vida como si fuera cualquier persona. Solo te pido por favor no intentes regresar, me he dado cuenta que últimamente quieres eso pero no lo hagas pq yo no sabría como rechazarte, si siempre me tuviste a tus pies, por favor ya no me hagas mas daño.
Me odio por amarte tanto.

I think about you from time to time and I hope you’re doing well. I know our lives were too different for things to work out between us now but I really wish they did. I miss you a lot JP and when you’re ready to come back for the third time, -I hope you come back- I hope things can be different. Hope you’re doing well

im laying in your bed, we've been on and off for 5 years and it hurts because i know this is only temporary

i’d marry u in a heartbeat. idc how manipulative or cocky u could be when i was with you i could see the soft spot. i’d never get tired of holding u and making u feel safe again.

I hope we find each other again someday. There’s so much more we could talk about. It was the wrong place at the wrong time, but I care about you.

Why can't you just love me like I love you.... Like why do you have to be in my head all of the time. All I wanted was you but you left me and ghosted me like I was nothing. And then I just have to talk to you like nothing happened? How can I forget the handholding, the eye contact, the happiness? I've met other people and had a cush on them... But you're always in my head at night. Please, be here with me. If you ever read this, just text me.... :)

im writing this to all friends from the past; sucks that we aint friends but i hope u and lolo the best lmao if u find this i owe u a chewy bar

i wish i had the guts to tell you how i feel. but guys like you don’t fall for girls like me. maybe it’s for the best.

hey so i think i was in love with u or it was way too big a crush lol. i hope you’re doing well. i miss you! thanks for all our crazy memories, you’ll always hold a special place in my heart

i’m sorry i never texted u on ur birthday, i figured u didn’t wanna hear from me. ur the only person i wanna hear from..

happy belated 23rd birthday. i couldn't text you so here we are. there's a lot i could say but i hope you're doing well.

I just want to be in your arms and that you never let me go. I want to kiss you like I have never kissed. I just want to cry while I tell you everything I feel for you.

last Christmas we were so in love. i spent all my money on gifts for u. this Christmas i won’t even get to see that smile.

i wish u didn’t stop talking to me. i know we broke up
but i hate that ur gone. it’s been almost 5 months and i still miss u.

jp,, fuiste esa persona, nunca habia sentido tantos sentimientos hacia alguien hasta que llegaste tu... recuerdo que empezamos a hablar y me empezaste a atraer y hablamos todos los dias me mandabas cositas y respondias mis historias, estaba enganchadisima y la verdad es que eras un amor y de verdad nunca habia sentido un sentimiento tan fuerte hacia alguien, sonrreia a tus mensajes, me llegaba a emocionar y un dia me dejaste de responder, aveces ni lo hacias hasta que me dejaste de hablar completamente... me sentia pesimo nunca fuimos nada pero tu eras ese algo que me llenaba, y no sabia si es que hice algo mal, me cuestionaba todo lo que hacia, tal vez nunca fui lo suficiente para ti, y perdon perdon por hacerte gastar tu tiempo en alguien como yo,, me saludaste para mi cumpleaños, "niñaa feliz cumple".... me dejaste mal jp, y despues la conociste a ella... empezaste a subir palos y ella te etiquetaba, y bueno es preciosa, tiene unas pestañas... un cuerpo precioso, tiene el pelo rizado y facciones muy lindas... creo que era obvio pero yo no queria aceptarlo, yo era el problema yo soy el probema, siempre tendras una pequeña muy pequeña parte de mi.

When I met u, I made myself a better person and overcame my emotional insecurities for us. I expressed my feelings to you and showed you how loving and how much I adored you. All I ever wanted from u, was effort and your love, and to express yourself to me. I love you more than life itself. I would never hurt you the way you hurt me.

You told me I am still the best woman in your life the day of the breakup.. but you still let me go. Told me I deserved better when all I wanted was for you to be better for me. And fight for me. How could you let someone do good for you go.

Si me arrepiento un poco por haberte dicho que me gustabas, teníamos una amistad con mucho "potencial"

honestly i'm so happy we still stay in touch even if most of the snaps we send are just corners of our face. you're always someone i feel like i can talk to

i miss you
please text me soon.
i doubt you’ll even read this
i love and miss you
forever yours, molly faith

Que puedo decir?Ya te dije todo lo que llegue a sentir y ahora solo quiero decir que te supere,que me di cuenta que no te necesito pero si necesito decirte gracias, gracias por enseñarme que no necesito gustarle a los demas para sentirme bien, gracias por eso y otras cosas; pero en epecial gracias por mostrarme que es enamorarse y saber que no debo repetirlo.

i love you all your life, but you´veplayed so much with my heart that the one who miss me all your life will be you.

I don't think you ever really noticed me and I guess I never really expected you to but I just wanted to say I think you're cute

it was all in my head. i was in love with a version of a person that i created in my head that i tried to, but could not fix. i cared so much about you. so much. you didn't actually love me. you said you did but i know that you didn't at all. do me a favor though, and whoever you're with next, do not treat them how you treated me. because they deserve so much better than that. I still care about you even though everything you promised me, you lied about. you said you would never leave me. you promised me. please take care of yourself though. please.

Me dolió mucho que me volvieras a dejar, después que dijiste que estabas enamorado de mi y que estabas decidido a luchar por mi.
Aún me cuestiono si eso fue real o no.

I wished you knew how small you made me feel sometimes, most of my anxiety attacks are still because of you, and still I love you more than I love myself

fifth grade...such a long time ago. i still remember you, and the feeling i had for you. I should’ve told you and now here i am, 5 years later regretting not doing it. i still remember how good of a drawer you were. i hope you’re still drawing... perhaps one day we’ll bump into each other

I guess I won the "I love you more" battles huh? I always knew I would. Do me a favour, please don't treat her like how you treated me. She is too perfect for that. I still care about you even though you brought me right back down to that place where I fought so so hard to get out of. It wasn't just the heart you sent her, it was the lies, and everyone telling me I was better than that. I didn't believe them, but now... now I do.

you always said you weren't going to leave me. you promised. we had so many plans for the future. you did though anyways. but it's alright. please take care of yourself. okay?

Just tell me one thing. If you had to chose between me or her... who would you choose? Her, right? I would chose her too. I can't believe I let you get into my head. I thought we were something but you always treat me like I'm not there.

just between us huh. i wont tell no one. isnt that what u said. u fucken lying piece of shit. it was nothing bad even and u made it seem a lot more than it was. will never go back to that spot again. fuck u. fwb

i know it’s been months but i haven’t stopped crying. i love u so much. pls just call me, the silence kills me the most.

i can’t even hang out with our friends anymore because you’re always with her & my heart can’t take it anymore