Unsent messages to JOSUé

i love you with all my heart but i am finally ready to let go. i forgave you for all your wrongs and it still was not enough. i deserved better, i kinda wish you did better because all i ever wanted was you. this is my closure and my goodbye. maybe one day the world will bring us together as friends, but until then i wish you nothing but the best. i will always love you.

I was willing to wait for you, and you still left me for her. My heart breaks every time you post her.

you were great at the start you really were. Then you suddenly changed, i felt bad with myslef and i hated me, when you were horrible too, you talked shit and everyone had you on a pedestal and i lost everyone, i didnt deserve that, i never wished you bad or talked bad about you, i actually loved you, hope your fine. bye

You little bitch cheated on me many times that i can´t count , you hurt me but i hurt myself more because i feel i wasn´t enough pretty for someone , and i think you were my only option so i really hope you find your way and find someone that loves you as much as i love myself.

Te extraño más que ayer y más que nunca, han pasado cinco años desde que decidiste irte de mi lado y han sido los años más horribles de mi vida. Estamos envejeciendo y estoy cansada de anhelar tu regreso cuando se no lo volverás. Solo quiero que sepas que no ha pasado ni un segundo que no haya pensado en ti y como hubiera sido mi vida a tu lado. Solo quiero que seas feliz toda tu vida con una buena mujer a tu lado mientras yo viviré toda mi vida con el temor de que algún día me digan que ya te casarás.
Siempre estaré aquí para ti, incluso cuando creas que no tienes a nadie. Estoy aquí Josue.
Besos y abrazos mi primer amor.

Realmente deseo que nunca te destrocen el alma como tú lo hiciste conmigo, gracias por dejarme porque yo jamás lo habría podido hacer.

Sometimes I feel like words don't tell enough about how much i love you. ur my little bean. i love you bebe.

I really don't think I've ever known you well and I still loved you, but I never got to love enough you and I'm sorry.

Thank you for giving you the time to meet me and I want you to know that I never thought of changing you

I really wish time was on our side when we first met. you taught me a lot about myself and I'm grateful you left. I want to let you know I'm doing good. I never wish you bad ever. I hope you're doing good. I still have something in me that hopes we will meet again in the future. But for now, I think it's time for me to finally move on and leave this feeling with it. I know you still think of me from time to time. And so do I. You caused me pain, but with pain I experienced growth within myself. I hope you're well with everything. I do consider you to be my first love. It was an instant connection when we first met. I still remember. But now you're gone. And there's nothing in my power for you to come back. So with this time, I am finally at peace with myself and I'm healing. I hope you are too. I'm not sad. I'm not angry. I moved on from this. And I never got to say this to anyone but myself. So I decided to type this for you. You'll know who this is from if you ever stumble upon it. I wish you the best and I hope one day we'll be able to meet again when we're both in good places.

Estás en cada canción que escucho y cada futuro perfecto que me imagino. Ojalá todos fueran tú. Te amo.

Desde hace 5 años que te conocí no se que porque no puedo dejar de pensar en ti y estoy tan enamorada de ti que me duele tanto cuando me cuentas sobre la chica que conociste y diciendo que con ella quieres pasar el resto de tu vida mientras yo solo te escucho y no me queda de otra

Sal de mi cabeza... Quiero verte, quiero hablarte pero seguramente ya te gusta otra chica, debes estar feliz con ella y... Eso es lo que quiero, tu felicidad.

Pero siempre te amaré. No lo digo de forma vaga... Siempre lo haré, te he amado desde que te conocí, y aunque han pasado años mis sentimientos por ti no han cambiado... Josu... Quizás algún día ¿me darías una oportunidad?

Hey!... I know I never had the courage to speak to you properly, I always tripped, I fell, I tsrtsmude... I was very embarrassed, but I was so glad to know that youI wish I could have been your friend, I just wanted to meet you, I wanted to say hello and know how you were, but I don't think I'll ever be able to do it. I love you, I've always done it, ever since I first saw you play the violin, at that moment you made me the most interesting person in the world. I made a lot of mistakes, I'm ashamed to think of all the opportunities I wasted just for "being shy." It's been four years since that. Over time I became your companion, we toured several places together, but in the distance, I always saw you with your friends, with the girl you apparently liked, and I was happy to see your smile. Thank you for motivating me to play volleyball, although not directly, you gave me the courage to try, currently I love it, I even learned a little violin. I get really hurt all your change, ever since you went to start a new phase of your life in college, you changed, I notice you more off, what happened to my lens boy? You don't love me, I know. But I'd like to think we had a nice friendship, someday I wish I could tell you "hey! How are you?" without shame at you thinking I'm weird. Four years have passed, I see you once every six months.... I really hope you're okay. I want you to find someone who loves you very much, I want you to smile again... Really, I'll be happy for you.

I love you, you'll never read this, I love you, I'd like to tell you.

I miss you. I miss your hugs, your kisses, your smile, everything about you, but then I remember how much you make me cry, how much you hurt me. You broke every single part of me, now I just want to stop missing you, but most important, stop hating you.

i miss you so much. i’m sorry for everything i just need you in my life again. please text me so i can feel happiness again.

Odio amarte , en serio, lo odio , quiero escribirte, llamarte pero mrd sé que tú quizás tengas a otra y yo esté toda ilusionada contigo, no puedo odiarte, a ti no, solo odio el hecho de amarte :')
Adiós Josué

i wish you knew how much you meant to me and how much you hurt me and how i still care about you and miss you months later. things will never be the same but i’ll always wish they could be