Unsent messages to JOSIE

i don’t think you’ll ever realize how much you mean to me. i don’t deserve you, but i’ll forever link my two pinkies to remind me of you.

you broke me lol. u made me feel like it was my fault too. i talked to d for literally two years. and you started snapping him and i told u it hurt me. u apologized and said you’d stop. next thing ik ur talking to him. then u have the mf audacity to ask me to be FRIENDS with him again. for YOUR benefit. AFTER he broke me. i said yes and it was fine. then you got mad at ME because he was supposedly flirting with ME. he went to me first. he always goes to me for EVERYTHING. he was mine josie he was mine. you texted me today and told me he downgraded from u. and that he looked for someone who looked like YOU. you talked to him for what.. three weeks tops? if you think he looks for girls that look like you, after you talked to him for literally three weeks. what do you think happened between us. what do u think i did after we stopped talking? u cried right? i talked to him for HOW LONG. and you cried over him. he literally broke me more than once. and you knew it. and you APOLOGIZED FOR SNAPPING HIM. then ur talking to him like what the FUCK why is this my fault joslynn how did this get turned into my fault again. so you broke me too. and then we were friends again. and then u decided u didn’t want me in ur life, AGAIN. than u got k to hate me. one of my literal only friends left. i didn’t have anyone. and u took away one of the last people i did. so i moved to g. and u came back and then got mad at me for finding someone else. “ur not my person anymore” i’m sorry i’m not ur person jos. but you don’t get to do this anymore i’m done. how many times have i apologized to you for what “i’ve done” a lot. countless times cause it’s always my fault. but? oh wait... i still haven’t gotten an apology.

you were my missing puzzle piece but now it's time for me to start a new puzzle i still love you tho...

i miss talking to you every day. you were my best friend. i wish i didn’t get replaced. it isn’t the same without you

i thought it was just a crush, then you played me and chose him. but i realize it’s more than that. i love you and i always have. sadly, it’s too late.

your favorite color is yellow. you were my yellow. ik i left. thats all me. but seeing u smile at him at lunch kills me.

I wouldn’t trade what we had for anything. You have been one of the biggest blessing to come into my life. Yes we had our ups and downs, but I wouldn’t trade what we had for anything in the world. You showed me what true happiness is, and what heartbreak feels like. You will always have a piece of my heart. Thank you for everything, I love you and I always will, but I’m ready to let go and find happiness myself. It’s going to be hard but I know I can do it. I wish nothing but success and happiness. I love you and I always will, I hope we can find our way back to each other but for now bye my love you will always have my heart xxx

I’ve finally accepted that we will be strangers. maybe one day we won’t, but for now I’m letting you go. Wish you the best my love

ik i probably hurt you but i did it because i felt like smt was off and i didnt want to get hurt but i still did

hey you probably never want to talk to me again and that's okay. i just wanted to say i'm sorry. i think we were both at different parts of our lives and things just didn't work out. i miss you and i love you. i will always care for you. i hope you're doing well. you're a remarkable person and you really impact everyone around you. don't ever stop.

I hurt because of you. Not because of what you did because of what I did. If I could go back and changed the way I acted, the things I did and the things I said, I would. I know you have moved on but I still havent. Maybe I never will but I do know that if I ever had another chance to be with you I would

I tried i really did I wanted to be enough for you but I didn’t know how . If only you knew how much I loved you but you were too busy cheating on me to see that. You hurt me and to see those texts on my phone hurt so much but My love for you over powered the hurt and I was so willing to make it work I wanted us to work because you were my everything. I had thoughts about marrying you . You were on my mind 24/7 and tbh I still think about you more than I should but you don’t care because you were messing with other people the whole time we were dating. I wish you weren’t my first love tbh but my love for you is honestly something irreplaceable because I won’t be able to love someone like I loved you and trust me I still love you. I know I was wrong in many of cases but if I could tell the whole world how madly in love with you I was I would but you probably didn’t even feel the same way because in the end I always loved you more. This may be the last time I say this but I love you and I probably won’t ever stop.

hey emerald eyes. you haven't talked to me in for so long (like a week lol), idk why but i hate it so much. you're always going to be my person even if i'm no longer yours. hopefully you haven't kicked me out of your inner mind forever. also, don't worry, i won't watch harry potter without you, we must finish them.

isn't it ghastly?
how your ghosts speAk to me?
spilling your secrets
and i pick them up
like dandelions in a field
and don't you find it ghostly?
how i'm the only one
who hears your reminiscent cries
for a love long lost
in the middle of the night?
because, really, my beloved,
what are your tears worth when there's no one left to hold them?
where do your words go when the moonlight isn't there to take them?
but i'm there and i find them
i keep your echoes
and lonely melodies
hidden away behind paintings
and underneath desk drawers
i promise no one but me will see them again
not even your wandering ghosts

Did you already know you wanted her when I held you to my chest in the hospital? Or when I stayed up all night just so you weren't scared? Or when I was the only one looking after you and cleaning up your cuts?

You were someone I considered my best friend. THE best friend. The one I told almost everything too. Not only did you leak a private conversation between us... You fucking showed it to someone I explicitly said to never tell. And for what? Were you baby raging over the fact I didn't like a SONG you picked out? I hope your knife still works after jabbing me in the back. I don't forgive you, I won't forget, and I will probably never trust you again. Don't do it to anyone else again.
I've done so much SHIT for you. I've comforted you during your hard times, given you advice, and talked about things only best friends would. I covered for your ass when your mom would have nearly killed you for finding out about it. I'm the only reason YOUR ass is grounded for a year. Go off, I guess. Have fun with your friends. Oh wait, they don't wanna hang out with you. Sorry for kinda stealing them away from you, though. It's not like you did anything...
But you did.

i love you so much and i know you’ll never feel the same. i just feel like i don’t even know you even though we’re best friends. i miss you.