Unsent messages to JOSIAH
From: ABC
To: Josiah
It was amazing when it started and fun while it lasted. I appreciate you a lot. You hurt me though. You'll always have that special place in my heart
From: ABC
To: Josiah
You ruined the thought of ever being in a relationship for me and I'll never forgive you. The sad part is I think about you everyday.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
Dude that shit really hurt
I got into the shower and started choking myself it hurt way too bad and that’s something that i will never heal from
From: ABC
To: Josiah
why did you leave. i trusted you and opened myself up to you and you left so quickly w/o even thinking. and you are the one doing fine. i miss you a lot. im glad youre happy.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
idk if you’ll ever read this but i still have marvin. i cant bring myself to get rid of him. i think about you all the time. i wish you weren’t with her. i miss looking at the stars with you. i miss you
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I hope at some point you see this, I loved you so much and I would of given everything to be with you but the way you did me was so wrong. I just wanted to be the only one and you couldn't even do that... You will always hold a place in my heart that still aches every day for you. I was my happiest with you but I wasn't ever anything important enough to you in life that made you stop and smile, I miss you....
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i hope you know i love you more then anything ever. and i have for a year. please put our damn label on i’ve been waiting. it’s been too long. i love you, so much.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I never knew you were my first love till you were gone and realized just how much you impacted my life.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
you rewrote my history. you were not my first kiss, in my mind my first kiss with you will be after falling asleep together, we wake up- both of us with headaches and freshly showered- when you look at me, head tilted in question, and finally decide to try it. you were the first boy i wanted to kiss. you were the first boy i wanted to hold me. you were the first boy i wanted so deeply. you were not my first. i will always wish you were.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
having to watch you disappear even though you were standing right in front of me had to be one of the most difficult things.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
You were the first person I ever remember craving to see at all hours of the day. You were the first person that I would go home and think about over and over again. You were the first person that made me sit on my bedroom floor and pray to god that I wasn't developing a crush, because it's too painful when they don't like you back. And then a year later, you told me you felt the same. But now a few months after that I'm wondering if that was ever even true, or if you were just lonely that day.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
hi. I just want to say you were one of the worse. I can’t believe I did so many paragraphs just about you when I knew you weren’t shit. I needed to take a couple of months out of my life to figure out myself. Knowing that I had become depressed as my grades got worse, eating a lot more, less social, and more. I miss someone to talk to it’s just it seemed like you never took me into consideration. As you were always trying to get closer to my best friend. But idrc anymore have a great life. Suck my balls!??
From: ABC
To: Josiah
Im over you. It took forever ever after all the shit you done to me i loved you for so long. This is goodbye. I love my self now. More than i ever loved you,im never coming back to you.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
You were my first love. i know you deserved better than me and the guilt consumes me everyday. i will always love you.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
you were my bestfriend. i’ve tried to move on, but all i see you in everyone. i miss the way youd always call me. now we walk by each other as if once never meant the world to each other. i know you notice it too. i feel bad i really do but it’s for the best. it’s been a year i hope you love someone like you loved me that deserves it.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I don’t know what happened with us, we were so in love and then it was just gone. I wish I could go back to the day we separated, I would’ve done ANYTHING to save us. You were my person, I found myself with you, I was happier with you. We’re you happy?
From: ABC
To: Josiah
Tu fuiste lo mejor que me paso, no importa cuanto se jodieron las cosas despues, o como tu y yo nunca pudimos estar juntos y terminamos estancados en una relacion llena de sentimientos oscuros, siempre seras el chico que me dio esperanza, que me hizo ver la belleza en la miseria. Gracias por todo.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
hey, you've been on my mind a lot lately, and i just hope you've been doing okay. i will never bring myself to text you so this will do lol. i hope you are genuinely happy, much better than last year. you deserve that, at least. im sorry i wasn't what you wanted
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I hate what you did to me and I hate that because of it we had to end things. I love you and I miss you with everything I have.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i fancy you. i love you. but im not good enough and im okay with that now. good enough for you is a pillhead lean sipping ass shaking stank hoe. which my classy ass will never be. ♥️
From: ABC
To: Josiah
why couldn’t i have been enough to make you stay,i’m sorry i had all those issues but i didn’t mean you had to leave me all alone.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I knew all along you always liked her even when I saw the way you looked at her. I just thought if I changed it would make you stay.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I miss you so much. I miss the way you made me feel, treated me, teased me, and always made me laugh. You were the reason why I went to school everyday. I miss the old u and seeing u in the halls and saying hi to u. I loved when u would tease me all the time. I miss seeing ur smile everyday.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
dude u literally have me so fucked up for absolutely no reason like man you didnt have to come back into my life to leave again u fuckin selfish prick i regret you
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i trust a love like ours will find a time to burn bright again
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i think about you every day. you were my first love. miss you bb </3
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i still want to meet you and take you to that bookstore i told u abt
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I genuinely despised knowing u only saw me as a “romantic interest”. U dont care abt people.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i still wonder about you. i hate you and i love you and i miss you
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i wish u felt the same way bc i only ever wanted to be with u
From: ABC
To: Josiah
maybe one day you’ll come back to me, until then i’ll be here
From: ABC
To: Josiah
when i said there’s not a day that goes by w/o thinking about you, i still mean it. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
I know how you feel, but can’t bring myself to let go. I just want to keep you close.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
u say u love me but sometimes it doesn’t feel like it. i wish you’d love me like u did at the start.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i like you a lot, and ik you don’t like me, but i plan to tell you on thursday
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i wish my stupid parents never ruined our plans in life and tore us apart i think ill always love u
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i love you and i hope someday i can show this at our wedding
From: ABC
To: Josiah
after 5 months, i still know loving u feels like dreaming. or perhaps flying. i was illuminated.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
dear my josiah,
i’ll love you forever even if we don’t work past this. i’ll always be here.
From: ABC
To: Josiah
i miss who you were when we first met. yet, i don’t know if it was ever the real you…
From: ABC
To: Josiah
We weren't growing apart. You lied. We don't have to date. I just want my friend back.
