Unsent messages to JESS
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: February 8, 2026, 3:05 pm UTC
I’m sorry for not being better. I’ll work at it little by little. I forgive you for everything because I know that you can get better day by day and you’re not defined by you what you did/didn’t do in the past but the little steps we make in the present. Just like anyone else can.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: February 8, 2026, 3:01 pm UTC
Thank you for all the ideas you planted in my head and how much you taught me and for being petty or blowing up instead of assertively communicating. I appreciate you and carry this part of you with me always. I wish I were there for you.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: February 8, 2026, 2:48 pm UTC
I’m sorry for projecting parts of myself onto you and not seeing you for who you really are. I am glad that I had a friend like you in my life that supported me & always looked out for me. I should’ve been a lot more considerate, but I’m still grateful for you. I’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 19, 2026, 5:08 pm UTC
im sorry, please take care of yourself. thank you for looking out for me, and i’m sorry for everything you went through.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:50 pm UTC
I’m sorry if I ever played mind games with you. I hope you find non-abusive love, attentive friendships, and a plethora of self-worth. Thank you for doing your best to love me with what you knew at the time and I have no excuses. I’ll just do better going forward regardless if you believe me. Please take care and I hope you are loved. I’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:46 am UTC
I’m sorry, I was shit at the time. Please stay safe- I’m still slowly learning but I wish you well & thank you for doing your best to be a caring person. You did your best with what you knew at the time and ultimately that’s all that matters. I was borderline probably crazy. I’ll keep going to therapy & grounding myself. Take care.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 6:43 pm UTC
You are not your father’s daughter. I hope you learn to live life on your own terms rather than thinking your dad was always right about you. I’m sorry for how I treated you, and being this way. I want you to be happy, take care of yourself.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 6:21 pm UTC
13.You pay attention to detail 14.You’re socially aware 15.You act like a big sister to your friends which thank you- I always wanted an older sister 16.you’re great at planning places to go & having fun17.You’re intelligent in general18.you are accepting of people from all walks of life19.you show love in your actions, not just your words20.you’re deeply devoted to the things and people you care about22.you know what you want and you make an effort for it23.you are forgiving without enabling
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 6:10 pm UTC
7.You have niche knowledge(that’s really cool)8.You look out for people you care about.9.You are incredibly nurturing but sometimes forget to nurture yourself10.you find enjoyment in the little things11.you feel your feelings, your sensitivity is a strength12.you are self-reflective but remember to not ruminate.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 6:07 pm UTC
Your strengths
1.You call shit out2.You aren’t afraid to get your hands dirty3.You rebel but not stupidly4.You are expressive (you always express yourself)5.You aren’t afraid of being judged for what you like
6.You’re actually incredibly smart(like you dropped out of school and grinded that emotional intelligence)
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 6:04 pm UTC
i hope you take care of yourself & become who you wanna be, stay gold pony boy- girl. Whatever or whoever you are, stay true to yourself.
(you know it’s me because i make you cringe)
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 18, 2026, 5:38 pm UTC
If we never talk again, thank you for being a friend. I’m sorry for everything- it’s on me. I fucked up. Just know your dad & my family were wrong. It’s not an excuse, I’m dealing with things on my own and getting better now and will just say what I mean. Take care of yourself, and stop being an unlicensed therapist
yours formerly,
Andrew Gold
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:44 pm UTC
believe what you wanna believe, that’s always how those things work anyways
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:43 pm UTC
I’m gonna focus on my current circle and fixing what I can in my life. That’s all I can do, right? Apologies mean nothing without actions, but I always tried to avoid doing the same things. Also tell your mom I’m sorry. She didn’t deserve me to be shitty like that. And sorry Jaime, guys/girls in relationships aren’t my type. Even if I liked them I’d respect the relationship first and foremost, but stay away from me. I’m sorry for being a bad friend.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:41 pm UTC
sorry about
1.running into the street
2.leaving twice
3.not being self-regulated
4.being avoidant
5.involving you in my mess
6.running away
7.not protecting you
8.choosing men over you
9.not listening
10.not being more considerate
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:39 pm UTC
I was honest about some stuff. I love monster high, and mlp, and alot of the stuff we bonded over. I like meditation, and mindfulness, and self-expression. I just also wasn’t honest about liking your boyfriend, what I actually thought of my friends, ect. I was too afraid of what others thought of me and I don’t want to be the reason my dad goes to prison without enough evidence. People can change.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:37 pm UTC
I am an idiot, I’m sorry. I’ll have to focus on learning a bit more and being more considerate. And sorry for vomiting on the floor and thank you for cleaning it up. Thank you for giving me a place to stay. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for the gifts. Thank you for being kind. Thank you. Take care.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:35 pm UTC
I’m sorry for being a bad friend, people do change. I also hope you know I’m sorry for not doing more to protect you or be honest. My family doesn’t hate you. I’m gonna grow away from you and wish you the best. Please let me know if your family or you ever need anything(which I understand you probably won’t ask me but still)
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:13 pm UTC
i’m still sorry for how i reacted and how i treated you, i’ll never bother you again
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:12 pm UTC
you know i dislike you now because i used to actually like you but you never actually cared to understand how i really felt, just how you thought i felt. i hope we’re never friends again in this way. we weren’t healthy, that’s why i had to leave every time.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:10 pm UTC
do you even remember the boundaries i set? no? oh…because you ignored them. funny.
do you remember the boundaries you set? right, you hated when i crossed them but was upset when i respected them…interesting.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:08 pm UTC
I can’t really yearn for someone who didn’t care to actually know me, and judged me, and didn’t only pick men over me but abusers and groomers. You know you didn’t listen to me either right? Then you didn’t care to understand why I was angry, just assumed I was blaming you for everything.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:05 pm UTC
I’m sorry I didn’t put my name on the lease or fight for you or treated you better in middle school. Sometimes I feel like crap because you never recognize the parts of where I tried, but it was never going to be enough for you. I have gone to therapy, and moved on and I can emotionally stand on my own. But take care.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 29, 2025, 11:57 pm UTC
Your all I love in the world, the self contained issue is my love for you
J
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 29, 2025, 2:52 am UTC
i wish you knew how much i still care and how much love i have for you
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 29, 2025, 1:57 am UTC
Hi jess. I’m so sorry 3 years had to end like this. I miss you, It wasn’t your fault okay?
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 28, 2025, 2:30 am UTC
You have helped me so much without realising, you are one of the reasons that I’m here still.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 15, 2025, 8:25 pm UTC
I’m sorry I hurt you. I’ll wait for you to come back. Even if it never happens
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 14, 2025, 5:13 am UTC
i still love you jessufe i cry everyday because of what we could've have had.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 7, 2025, 2:56 am UTC
i wish being so far apart didnt hurt so bad. i miss you like im missing a piece of me.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 6, 2025, 4:07 am UTC
The love of my love forever and always, please don't break me
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: July 1, 2025, 2:49 pm UTC
you never deserved anything that they did. but it's you who must comfort yourself now. stay soft.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 29, 2025, 12:48 am UTC
I love you more than you’ll ever know and I’ll yearn for you even if you don’t for me
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 24, 2025, 1:43 am UTC
You broke me. But I still love you and want to try again.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 21, 2025, 12:02 am UTC
You saved me in every way. Best friend, sister, and maid of honor. <3
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 16, 2025, 10:36 pm UTC
i want to hate you but i don’t think i can ever bring myself too
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 13, 2025, 2:47 am UTC
i want you to know that i've always wanted to be with you. i just can't tell people im gay.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 2, 2025, 10:33 pm UTC
i loved you, you loved her- i knew the whole time but i still loved you.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: June 2, 2025, 5:10 am UTC
U are everything beautiful this world has to offer <3
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: May 25, 2025, 2:16 am UTC
I'm sorry , but I can't be responsible for eveyone elses mistakes. I can't just fix everything.
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: May 23, 2025, 10:58 pm UTC
No matter how much I thought about you you never noticed until to late
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: May 23, 2025, 2:18 am UTC
you’re safe on the top shelf of my heart
From: ABC
To: jess
Date: May 18, 2025, 3:01 am UTC
Even tho you led me on, i still can’t get over you.
