Unsent messages to JALEN

FUCK YOU BITCH you’re a manipulative whore and i feel bad for the next girl you decide to ruin. you deserve nothing and no one. hoe

u do this thing where u walk out of someones life , with no warning at all. u just leave. and then u try to come back. u try to randomly ft them. u try to randomly snap them and then say "oh nvm." and that is what i hate abt u. dont come running back to me , to anyone. u had your chance. u had me while u had me and now u dont. im not yours to have anymore. so stop trying to come back. ive moved on.

you treat me as if you never even loved me and it’s starting to feel like everything was a lie. have fun bowling asshole

this is my first real relationship and words can describe how much i value it. you help me distract myself from the negative which is better than nothing. i’m sorry i don’t really express myself fully and i’m working on it. thank you for being so patient with me. i really want us to last and i want to be able to help you and guide you through any negative experiences. i don’t really know how i feel about you but i know that i really like you. i want to be able to trust you fully. i want to be able to walk down a dark street with you and not have a care in the world. i want to love myself the way that i love you. i don’t know what to say or how to say it but just know i love you with all my heart.

i tried to stop loving you. i built walls around my heart. i found other names. but u... u carved yourself into me, whether u meant to or not. it's u.

I don’t understand why you don’t want me anymore. It’s so hard to let you go, I just want to go back to that first kiss in the park

To think, had I tried things with you or insisted upon waiting, I would not have considered him. He is the comfort I searched for in you. He is the sun and so much more.
Thank you for teaching me hard lessons.

i’m listing to ur album and i’m pretty sure it’s about me. i know this sounds weird but i listened to hey you and my feelings came back but i don’t want to burden you.

we were perfect, smiled, laughed, even my dad liked you. I always wanted to spend my time with you. Have you ever got asked the question "what would you do if you only had 1 hour to live", you were my answer, spending my 1 hour of life with you.

i think abt u day and night. its months and im still not over u. i cant watch tangled or princess and the frog without thinking of u. im sorry i wasnt enough. i hope ur happy with her.

I hope she makes you happy. I hope she never questions you like I did. I hope your talks with her are as riveting as they were with me. I hope she appreciates the way your mind works as much as I do.... but I wish it was me instead.

Jalen we were never together but i loved you like we were and Ik you loved me at least i hope you did. You cut me off. I cried for weeks. I hope you’re doing good and i miss you .

I hate it here at school as much as you do... you just never gave me a chance to open up to you and tell you that. You ruined everything between us and I'm sorry I left but you were being so mean to me after lying to me about everything. You were truly the one person I liked being around and now I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I miss you but I think it is for the best this way. I can't fix you, you don't want to grow.

i have so much love for u even though we were never a thing. u will always have a place in my heart. i get so jealous when your w someone else even though we will never be anything more than friends. i hate that but it’s whatever. hope to see u soon.

I made a huge mistake Leaving and ur slipping away while ur imagining ur time with her.. I miss you and I’ll never forgive myself, watching you slip away breaks my heart into millions of pieces every single one stabbing. You’re the one I wanna be with. Never have I been pulled towards someone like I am to you.. I gave up my chance and I hate seeing you leave and talk to me less. You probably get a smile seeing her name pop up instead of mine cuz it’s not my place anymore no matter how much I wish. I’d give up a lot to go back and never make that decision, I’m changing everything for you and I don’t think you want that anymore. Who would... my heart will always be with you. I’m going to wait for you however long it takes. And if u marry her.. I’m telling u it’s the wrong person.

you were my first love. but you changed. you are not the person i fell in love with anymore. i’ll love you forever but i’m letting you go. i deserve so much better. i wish you the best little boy

thank you for randomly asking me to get ice cream once. i hope you know you are the love of my life... i want to spend every minute of every day with you by my side...i love you