Unsent messages to IVAN

I’ve moved on from you, I no longer can feel the touch of your lips or the brush of your hands on my skin. He is so much better for me but I don’t regret my time with you bc with you I learned what isn’t right.

youre the person i never thought i would have to get over. i kinda hoped there could be a future, and i really dont know what i did to make u hate me:(

Juro que tú eras mi persona indicada pero no llegaste en el mejor momento. Eras tan genial pero no eras lo que yo nesecitaba, te extraño y espero que ahora todo esté mejor en ti, espero que ambos podamos encontrar a nuestra persona indicada en el momento perfecto... Siuu

U hurt me so much, i gave everything to u and that still wasn’t enough for u. U took advantage of me bc u knew i couldn’t leave u even after everything and i kept loving u just the same. But Nye was a cry for help and u still left and broke my heart. And i hate the fact that i still love u and feel bad when u have caused me sm distress but now i cant see u without remembering what u did to me that night and the amount of pain u caused me just to come running back, i’m scared now. My whole thought process is different but I cant get hurt again and idk what to do because ik u regret what u did but u changed me forever and you’ll never understand either and i don’t wanna tell u bc ur going through so much but time heals and i guess well see how it goes!

i had a dream about you last night in which you told me you still loved me and I told you that no one disappointed me quite like you do. I miss you terribly and I wish so much that I could just talk to you and tell you in great detail about the silly things I see each day. There are many things I could say and I've tried innumerable times to say them but I don't think I'll ever get to. Anyway, I lied when I said I wanted to be friends.

This is you're warning.
I'm annoying.
I over think.
I'm boring.
I'm weird.
I question if anyone actually likes me.
I laugh way to much
I hate myself at times.
Some days I love myself.
I need reassurance that you love me other wise I start wondering and it typically ends with me wanting to break up with you cause I feel like you don't love me back.
I wouldn't break up with you tho but sometimes I feel like I need to so I don't make you annoyed with me.
You will get tired of me trust me
I'm sorry I don't deserve you.

Hey, sorry I haven’t been talking to u in a while, I’ve just been feeling shit for quite a long time and tbf I don’t know why. But talking to u makes me feel so much happier and that I finally have someone to relate to, someone who will always be they for me ig and I’m so glad I met u on that server of club iris lol, and if u are seeing this I still want to be friends and be there for u the same way you were there for me. Another thing I wanted to say is based on the times we’ve talked you are a very nice and understanding person and just because you’ve done shitty things in the past that doesn’t define who u are. U can say/do the harshest thing but that will still not make u a bad person especially if you feel guilty and bad for what you’ve done in the past. so well umm Yh

You made me so uncomfortable you shouldve just stopped there and im done with your insults to my friends bitch

Every day before you was a blur. Every day since you has been a blur. You were my home, my safe place. I'm so sorry

I miss the Ivan I met in the beginning. I wanted something more with you. Now, it feels like we’re strangers.

I want to marry somebody just like you, I never wanted the simple family life, but if it was with you maybe it could work

Cuando te conocí era tan inocente y pequeña que no me di cuenta de quien eras de verdad, te lloré tantos años, hasta que un día solo desaparecimos de nuestras vidas y cuando estoy bien conmigo misma después de haberme hecho mierda y llevarte mi autoestima vienes a pedirme otra oportunidad por que ya cambiaste? Lo peor es que te dije que “no” no por que no quisiera, si no por orgullo, fuiste mi persona, en el peor momento

I’m so sorry. You deserve the world and more. I hope you’re doing well. Our friendship couldn’t last forever.

i think wht hurts most is imagining wht we could of been, but u left me.. 4 her:( i can’t even look at u now u hurt me alot - ♬

today is the day that you told me you wanted to go skating but your mom wouldn't let you. You died 3 weeks later. I dont know what i did wrong, you should still be here. I'm sorry that you died before we could skate

Hoy te odio en el secreto.
Me arrepiento una y mi veces de haber confiado en ti.
Preguntándole a Dios si en verdad el amor existe, si yo era tan bueno tanta mierda tu me hiciste.

I hope u r ok. Sometimes I miss you, and think that it would've been fun
If you would've been the one.

i wish i could talk to you and figure everything out. it should not have been ended this way. some things were really unfair of me. and i hope you're happy now

Fuck you Ivan.
i hate you but why do i still care. i hate myself for caring but at this point i don't know if to love or hate you

i wish that you realize how much u affected me, how important u was 4me, n the good way i talked about u

Te quiero muchísimo y por el poco tiempo que pasamos juntos en vacaciones, quiero decirte que para mi fue lo mejor y siento que eres mi persona, siempre lo creeré, te quiero mucho y puedo decir que tú eres el indicado, se que estaremos juntos en un futuro, te amo

It is difficult to forget a person who has told you their plans in life and has told you everything about it, just like you have told that person.

So I've developed this bad habit of pushing everything bad aside when I'm around people, so I don't know how to reach out and ask for help, and I know you're there for me but it I just don't want you to worry

Do you wish you never met me? I've cause so much trouble and pain, maybe it would be better if I wasn't here

I'm sorry that even though we're so close I can't love you romantically, I know it hurts but I can't change how I feel

Tal vez nunca logramos concretar algo pero te voy a recordar toda mi vida como "mi persona" tal vez en otra vida sea yo tu persona :)

you may never see this, but you know? thak you for coming into my life and teaching me the true meaning of love

You were the person that I will never tired of going back, but I have to let you go. Just so u know I will always love you deep inside. Mahal na mahal kita

As much as it hurts and burns, I have to accept you are never loving me as much as I thought you would.

Hey lol... I- I have alot to say. I hate you, you put me through so much and I don´t know how I can ever forget that. First off well lets start at the begining you treated me like a queen and i loved it even tho you only texted me back when you were horny and wanted nudes. After 76 days I managed to grow romantic feelings for you, you promised me yu werent going to leave me.Then on day 48 I asked you if you wanted to Facetime you said yes then I said ¨promise?¨ and you promised me. You left me on delivered for an hour and I just wanted to ft with someone I was having a really bad day, so I decided to put ¨ft??¨ on my story and you slid up and said ¨exactly why you dont have me and wont¨ you made you breaking your promise my fault. I stopped eating after that. This is all your fault you didn´t have to be so damn stupid, I blocked you for a while bc i needed time to myself so i could forget about you but for some reason you were all i though about.I told you how I felt when you left and you laughed, you broke me I cry every time I think of you Im crying rn even writing this, Im sorry that i let you make me feel like i wasnt enough for you.Ivan im sorry for all of the issues i caused you. My heart dropped everytime i got a notification that had your name in it, Im sorry that im so nieve, your just like everyone else, and I didn't want to believe it because of how much i loved you

we met on new years eve, fell in love in februray, said our first i love you too. went on and off multiple times and even if you leave you will forever hold my heart.

You're the only person that gives me hope when things get hard. I don't know what I would do without you.

No sabes todo lo que hice para poder ser lo que querías, pero nunca fue suficiente. Sin embargo siempre te amare.

It's been months..... May, was when the last time we talked. August, was when I claimed that I had moved on from you. It's now November, and I still miss you the same like in May.

If I didn't overthink stuffs and just checked on you..... Would we still be each other's personal "stranger" until now?

I love you bro, I love you and I miss you. Posta that you were my first real love, I miss our talks until late and everything we shared before. I hope it will be repeated at some point, thank you for giving me reasons to wake up every day. And I also hope that you find the love and happiness that I found in you in someone else. Although it hurts in my soul, I am ready to let you go I will continue to love you and bank on all of them.PS: send me a message or something if you realized who I am ❤️

Gracias por hacerme tocar fondo y pasar por toda esa mierda, pero ya volví. Y mucho mas fuerte que antes

I still like u, I haven't stopped liking u, but I know u don't like me anymore but that's ok, as long as ur happy

i cant figure you out. but i want to. i miss you a lot. we were just starting to get close and it happened very quickly. pls text me, i think we might have actually understood each other in a weird way. even if u dont want to talk, i hope youre doing okay, im not going to stop caring about you. i cant. i told you things i havent told a soul before, i hope we can get closer again but oh well if not.

My favorite color was never yellow before you. It was always a dark color but it looked so good on you

i picked blue because it was our favorite color . i miss you so much . i wanted so bad for us to be together. but we could never make it work . iloveyou .

I’m finally over you. Took me a while, but it feels like a weight has been lifted off my tired shoulders.

Las rosas, las flores más hermosas que pueden existir en este mundo. Son delicadas, tienen innumerables pétalos y obtienen un hermoso color junto a una fragancia refrescante. Están en un precioso jardín donde podemos apreciarlas, como lo hago yo cada vez que te veo.
Quisiera ser una hermosa rosa.
Una rosa con un hermoso y radiante color carmín que llame tu atención.
Quiero ser la rosa que este en tu jardín, pero especialmente entre tus manos.
Quiero ser aquella rosa que tomas con delicadeza y cuidas de ella como si tu vida dependiera de ello, aquella hermosa flor que admiras durante mucho tiempo.
Quisiera ser lo que tu eres para mi. Eres aquella flor que admiro cada día, eres aquella flor que sostengo entre mis manos, eres la flor más preciosa que se encuentra en mi jardín, aquella que siempre quiero cuidar y proteger de todo a su alrededor, de todo lo que te pueda lastimar y arruine aquella hermosa sonrisa que adorna tu bello rostro.

i gave you everything but yet you left with me nothing. you broke me in ways i’d never been broken before and still i know i would do anything for you.

i gave you everything but yet you left with me nothing. you broke me in ways i’d never been broken before and still i know i would do anything for you.

you broke my sister's heart by cheating and sleeping with a fucking 15 year old. I hope it was worth it.

I still remember our first date, the way you held me and told me you will forever love me no matter what.

You will always be the love I never regret, I will continue to wait for you, even if takes all my life, you’re the only one I want

in quei giorni con te ho provato una bella sensazione,non succedeva da tempo,spero di averti lasciato qualcosa

we were going to get married. where did it go wrong? i'm sorry. i know its my fault you're no longer in my life. never stop being you.