Ya me canse de esperar que las cosas mejoren,para ti es mas importante alguien de la calle que tus propias hijas y eso duele como no imaginas y ya son 12 años en el que dejamos de importarte.

whyd you leave me? you couldve came back, you couldve tried to visit me, to talk to me, you dont understand the problems youve caused upon me and the hole i just have, nothing would ever be able to replace an absent father. all the hurt, the aching, im so afraid to face it and heal. i wish things couldve been different. but i dont think i want you to come back. im not ready, i am fine alone.

Fuck u man. you ruined me. you say you love me then anytime i do something that isn’t up to your standards i take a beating for it. all the scars i have from you is a reminder for me to never treat my children the way you treated me. it would of been better if you had just left. you took all that i loved and ripped it from my hands and now i have nothing. i am broken and my soul is so empty all because of your actions. so for that i say, fuck u.

I remember the times when I thought you were the greatest father in the world. I remember anytime you would disappoint me, I would make up excuses for you. I used to blame my mother and think she was the problem because of all the things she would say about you. I made her the villain. As I got older and started to understand things and see them from a more mature standpoint, I started to realize that you were the clear villain in our story. You both had me young and I understand that there was growing to do for you and maturity that needed to happen. I just wish that maturity happened sooner. I do appreciate that you have come around but I wish I wasn't an option, I wish I was your #1 priority from the beginning. Sometimes I get jealous over my 4 year old sister because you are there.. you give her your attention and you provide for her and not just financially, but emotionally. I wish I had that from you. I wish you gave me that same emotional availability when I was young. I think about how if you had shown me a little more love that maybe I wouldn't be the way that I am. I feel so lost sometimes.. I will always have that feeling that I had when I was in elementary to early high school. "Why doesn't he want to build a relationship with me" Do you understand that I would blame myself for everything. I would say that you didn't want to be around me because of stupid things. But that early heartache has made my "love life" hell and I used to not like you for that. I am glad that I get to see you way more often and that you moved here. I appreciate that a ton!

you broke me in ways i didn't even know existed. you made me feel like an outsider in my own home. and you have the audacity to ask me to respect you.

you ruined me and now i will never feel the same about myself again.

i could never hate you, so a placeholder of hate for myself becomes present

I know you never had time for me. but im gonna be gone soon. #hopeyourhappy

it's easier to blame u than accept the fact that i'm the problem. i hate me and u. i'm sorry.