Unsent messages to TABITHA

im so sorry for what i did to you, i think about you all the time

I miss you more than heaven knows. My skin burns so deeply for your touch. What am i to do?

i've finally moved on.

when my heart beats its last beat, your name will still be an echo there.

I love you so much, but i hate being the only one keeping this relationship up.</3

you are a breath of fresh air, and are so refreshing to talk too, so beautiful inside and out

i miss you. it all felt so fast and then you were gone. i’m sorry it ended like this.

When will I stop looking for you in everyone? I miss you, I miss summer, I miss your family

All that's left to say is I'm sorry, and I hope you're happy, genuinely. And maybe I miss you.

I deleted our texts and hid your stuff, but i confess i can’t forget the only eyes I’ve ever loved.

I've changed Tabby. I need you to confess your love for me again. I'll say yes this time.

I hope you're doing better now. I hope you don't have to think of me when you hear our name.

i want you to tell me that you love me

You were my best friend, but you weren't the best friend you could have been. I miss you though

you’re a horrible person but i want to kiss you again i hate your guts but i miss the way i felt

I want to kiss you again. You were my first

I love you sweet girl. I wish I could marry you. I don’t want you to leave for college <\3

Hey im really sorry. I hope you're happy wherever you are, maybe one day we'll meet again. Love you.

Everything reminds me of you. I will always love you

you hurt me for years, and i stayed for love. i want to be free. please, let me be free.

I still love you, Tab. I’m angry you’re exactly how I thought you’d be once it got real. Call me

Saw your pic online the other day. Froze a bit, then carried on with my day.

i’m sorry i chose him over you i miss you everyday you were the best friend i’ve ever had

I miss when my pillows smelled like you

Instead of messaging anonymous why don't you reach out to me? I will respond.

I still think of that song….I like that your broken broken like me maybe that makes me a fool

I loved u but u ruined it

i think i like u. ur straight and i’m bisexual and your my best friend. idk what too do. i cant pull u into my questioning and confusion, i cant even tell u what i feel...

to my little sister, I'm sorry I haven't always been there or been kind. i love you. you deserve more than what this world gives.

It doesn't feel the same as it did with you, I don't love her any less, she's just not you and it doesn't feel right

I doubt you'll ever read this you probably hate me all things considered since it was a messy end to our friendship. I figured its time to let it all out if you ever do find this. Please know that I truly did love you, you were my best friend practically my sister and I wanted nothing but the best for you I still do. However at the time you needed me I was in a really dark place myself and wasnt coming out of it. I talked to my friend Austin who you didnt really know but had heard of and told him all about how the drama was affecting my mental health and how I wanted to disappear. Something I never told you was that in the months that you were gone all those years ago I had planned to take my life. I was so miserable and my homelife was a wreck and i was always stressed out between school, choir, clubs and drama it felt like i had no time for myself. I never meant to hurt you but when I tried to end things in a polite manner you said alot of hurtful things and it made me realize that I didnt want that in my life and i still wished you the best. As days went on I began to find out more lies you had told me and heard more about how you had treated people when I wasnt around. When I found out about you trying to "test my loyalty to you" with another one of our friends thats when i knew something was up. I was concerned for you for your emotions and your safety but you tried to turn it into me being a terrible person for caring. I never once complained when you put me in extremely uncomfortable situations and triggered more anxiety attacks than i can count. I always had your back however overtime your actions spoke louder than your words. I have blocked you on everything and now fear when a random number contacts me even when its one of my students. youre the reason why i have a policy in place so I know its my students contacting me. with the constant messages and calls from various numbers that i now have david screen for me so i can block them its all become too much. while there was once a time that i hoped we would reunite as friends its now to the point that i hope you recieve help. I still wish you the best.