Unsent messages to EWAN

I cant tell if i loved you or the idea of you. i suppose i just saw potential in you. i hope you fulfil that potential. you’d be an angel

I cant tell if i loved you or the idea of you. i suppose i just saw potential in you. i hope you fulfil that potential. you’d be an angel

of course the one time i’d ever get a crush would be when the world’s in isolation. and when it’s my closest friend. i think,,, i might really like you,,,, and have for quite some time,,. i think i started noticing when u walked me home from her party last halloween. it’s starting to sting. you’re starting to sting. i know u like someone, i can feel it, i can’t stop wishing it was me. i know u like guys but i’m a soul of little faith and since the others, it’s hard for me to believe i can be more than just a warm mouth. i want to show u you’re worth the world. to me, at least.

Why the heck are you doing this to me bro. Do you even realise you are hurting the crap out of me or are you doing it on purpose. I love you but at the same time you are hurting me so fucking much that I wanna hurt myself dude

Hey me again, the city dosnt feel the same with out you here, its getting cold now its christmas and im starting to miss you more and more, i guess americas treating you well seeing you never reply to me anymore xx

Thank you for everything, you where the light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel has now come to an end. Goodbye...

Hey me again. I love you and I can’t help it. Like I can’t. But you are not mine to have... you are so happy with her but at times I feel you actually like me.... like idk I’m sorry. Thank you for everything though. Thank you so much for making me happy and caring about me and spending time with me even when you shouldn’t have. Thank you. I am scared one day I will have to let you go. I don’t know how I will handle that but I am grateful for what we have had so far so thank you. I hope you stay with me forever though. I hope one day I can call you mine... xx:))

u were my love. the love i craved n dreamed of. u dont care anymore. how did u do it> im drunk and all i fucking want is you. i always want you. i love you my heart aches. i hope you come back. i even pray you come back.

I just want to know if I’m wasting my time liking you. Will you ever like me back or is liking you wasting my tears. I like you more than anything and I don’t even know why but if you don’t feel the same way then I need to get over you. I know I’m just a random girl to you but you are so much more than a random boy to me.

How do I take the next step when I am consumed by fear and constant worry about what you think about me. You don’t understand how much I like you, when I think about it I don’t even get it sometimes, but that doesn’t stop me. It’s just everything about you makes my heart flutter and I want to spend time with you. Sometimes I believe that it is possible you like me and then sometimes it is the complete opposite. I mean if you really wanted something wouldn’t you make it a bit more obvious? I am just utterly confused and I don’t know what to do from here. How much longer must we continue going on like this before something changes. I feel at this point I really want to say something and see if you like me so we can be something or even if you don’t I can catch myself from falling more and getting incredibly hurt. Then I think their is a 0% chance you like me. I wish we could be something anything......more than what we have now, but then again I like what we have right now is good enough. I try to think from your point of view and not overthink but it just makes things worse, so please say something......

i'm sorry i didn't mean that but i also did you've ruined so much for me and fucked everything and i don't know how to forgive you for how much you messed me up for such a long fucking time. i struggled for so long and i feel like no one understands but it's fine it's cool ygm i hope ur happy.

Hey Ewan, I know that we have never met before and you barely know me but I really like you. I just feel like I could tell you anything and I would trust you with my deepest secrets. I know that you are close with so many girls and I am just a random girl you have had a few short conversations with but to me those conversations were the highlight of my day and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I have never felt this was about someone before and I like you so much and even though I know you will never feel the same way towards me, I will continue to like you. I know you will never see this message and it’s just going to disappear into this website and never be bothered with again but part of me wants you to see this and wants you to know how I feel. I shouldn’t think that though, my life isn’t a fantasy. You won’t read this and suddenly love me back but I just needed to write this. I guess I will just pretend that you received this. I just want you to notice me and I want to be able to tell you my problems and ask for advice. I guess that’s it really. Bye :)

I like you so much and I feel like I could tell you anything. But you don’t know who I am and I am
just another girl to you.

i fucked up, you gave me the world and i gave you nothing, im sorry. i know you dont know it but im sill in love with you. x

you deserved so much more . we weren’t good together and i was so selfish with your heart . i’m sorry

I know you didn’t want this but it is the truth. I love you and have since the beginning and even though you have hurt me so much I still hold onto you in my heart for some god spoken reason.

you're truly peak perfection. i wonder if your favorite color reminds you of me like mine does (it's green)

When I found out you were in love with one of my closest friends, I hate to admit it but that broke me.

When you left i thought I'd never feel whole again. Now i do. Without you. You don't want me back you just don't want to see me with someone who isn't you. Be single for a bit, it will do you good.

I gave you everything I could, and you took me for granted. You ruined love for me but I still can’t stop thinking about you.