i don't think you'd look yourself up under this name.
you know, if you had written to me instead of her - i would have chosen you. you got so hurt by me moving on, but i was second choice to someone who wants nothing to do with you. and i wanted you, and you wanted me. if you had only prioritised me - thats all it ever was. if i was your number one, i would have been yours. im probably happier now. ill never know. but you should know - i lied to you to be kind. it wasnt just about who he was. it was about what you didn't do. if you love me as much as you say you do, then act like it. im tired of hurting and of all the tangled lies. all i want is safety.

you don’t even go by this name anymore, but i miss you. i love you. i love you so much eq.