Unsent messages to EM
From: ABC
To: Em
man i haven’t called you that in years. But if we hadn’t ever met I wouldn’t have met him. Some things do happen for a reason
From: ABC
To: Em
i learned what love is through you. how frightening it is, how when you fall in love, you fall hard, not knowing what to expect. and i fell. so hard. and im not sure if can get back up. because god i am so in love with you. i love the way you fall alseep accidentally during our video calls or how you always seem to make everything seems just a tad bit better. or maybe how you know what to say whenever i feel like succumbing to death. you get me, you understand me. you make me want to stay in your embrace for hours on hours. i would give the earth to you if you just asked. i would fly a thousand miles just to see the smile you have on when you talk about films. 4 years from now i want to be flying to what, Harvard, where you will be studying because i know you're a genius and they'd be a fool to decline you. i want to stay in your loft or apartment or dorm watching you study and just god, i want to be with you. so badly, my heart aches. but i know that this is just a wild fantasy. that i am only a best friend to you. that i am only a girl you would never love. that you are someone who puts their career and ambition over love. that you aren't looking for love. that you are straight. that you won't ever love me back. and that's okay.
From: ABC
To: Em
I think you know this but I still love you and thank you for not letting that push me out of your life.
From: ABC
To: Em
Hi. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything. I just want to fix it if I could, if you would just talk to me. We don’t need to be anything ever again , I just need you to talk to me. I miss you. I miss us. I don’t know what I can do to get you back. It’s been so long. Please. I didn’t like my name until you said it. I loved you more than I loved myself. I was too young to know what love felt like and I screwed it up. I’m sorry for everything.
From: ABC
To: Em
i love you okay. Shit, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU. but you'll never see me like that and i understand.
From: ABC
To: Em
I still think about you everyday and through every hour. I know you don’t. I try and convince myself you do, but its clear that I never meant that much to you after all.
From: ABC
To: Em
Man.... i really wish we could be together and you liked me just as much as i liked you, but it’s just so unrealistic and i need to stop telling myself you care about me.
From: ABC
To: Em
man... i really wish we could be together and you liked me just as much as i liked you, but it’s just so unrealistic and i need to stop telling myself you care about me..
From: ABC
To: Em
You’re my best friend, but i’ve been in love with you since freshman year. I thought i was over u and then I almost kissed u on new years eve when we were drunk. I wish I did.
From: ABC
To: Em
i miss u :( i miss how things were when they were still good. i think we both know they'll never b that way again but i love u forever
From: ABC
To: Em
fuck you for making me feel the way i do.
you BROKE me . you said you were my best friend . you fucking lied . you still talk shit on me to this day . i can’t believe i let you know me the way i did .
From: ABC
To: Em
You genuinely are the most warm and vibrant human i’ve ever met. u don’t know how amazing you are. i love u with my whole heart. thank you
From: ABC
To: Em
We barely know each other, but I feel so attracted by you. Everything that you do, from your appearance to your personality is pure gold to me. I just wanna be close to you.
From: ABC
To: Em
i wish u appreciated what i did for u more. i rlly truly love u but i think i need to meet someone else to know what i rlly feel.
From: ABC
To: Em
its been three months since i last saw you and yet i still think about you. i haven't felt this way in a while
From: ABC
To: Em
What happened to us? I thought you were the one, and then you just left. I saw our future everything, and now there's nothing.
From: ABC
To: Em
Hola estoy aqui porque no tengo el valor de decírtelo y la verdad no se por qué
Hay tantas cosas que no sabes y que muero por contarte pero siempre hay algo que me detiene y solo me lo sigo guardando
De verdad no tienes idea de lo agradecida que estoy con Dios de tenerte en mi vida ya se que te lo he dicho muchas veces pero nunca me cansaré de decirte gracias por estar conmigo cuando nadie estuvo, por siempre escucharme asi sea la estupidez mas grande del mundo, por amarme tal y como soy con todos mis defectos y virtudes, por ser la luz de mis días y por alentarme a conseguir lo que quiero sin ti tal vez yo no tendría las cosas que tengo ni las experiencias que he vivido
Contigo fue la unica persona con la que pensé un futuro y que amé de verdad, amé cada parte de ti para mis ojos eras perfecto apesar de que tu siempre veías cosas malas en ti
Estuve contigo en las buenas y en las malas y créeme que siempre será así
Apesar de que ahora no estamos juntos yo te sigo adorando y queriendo de una manera en que no quiero a los demás sigues siendo mi prioridad y aunque tu no lo sepas ni lo vayas a saber yo daría todo incluso mi vida con tal de que tu estés bien
Hace días te dije que habia algo que te quería decir pero que me daba vergüenza y es que no se como explicarlo para que me entiendas y no quedar como una loca jaja pero la cosa es que yo nunca lo quise y mucho menos lo amé simplemente se dio porque mi mente busco alguien que llenara de cierta forma tu vacío y lo siguió viendo como si fueras tu por eso yo estaba feliz porque mi mente me engañaba diciendo que te tenía a ti como mi novio y mi amigo y sé que suena muy loco incluso ahora que lo estoy escribiendo suena tan revuelto pero así fue y cuando decidí terminar esa relación lloré porque para mi subconsciente era como si te hubiera perdido otra vez cosa que no era verdad espero algún día encontrar la forma de explicártelo y el valor
Solo quiero que seas feliz sin importar que no sea conmigo te mereces lo mejor de lo mejor del mundo
Mis amigas piensan que tu y yo vamos a volver y hasta que nos vamos a casar y yo no he podido hacerlas entender que no saben lo que va a pasar que ahora somos amigos y que así estamos bien por ahora que nos queremos pero no de la forma en la que ellas piensan o tal vez si pero no sabemos decirlo pero yo estoy bien y feliz de tener la relación que tenemos y todo gracias a la confianza y el respeto que siempre hemos tenido el uno con el otro tu mismo lo haz dicho gracias a que no fuimos tóxicos podemos hablarnos como lo hacemos con confianza
Me da miedo perderte para siempre perder a mi amigo y confidente al hombre en el que mas confío en este mundo y con el que me siento mas segura contigo iría hasta el fin del mundo sin mirar para atrás
Deseo que todo en la vida te salga bien justo como lo quieres porque se todo el trabajo y esfuerzo que haz hecho para estar donde estas
Eres tan capaz de hacer muchas cosas que ni siquiera te has dado cuenta
Siempre seras el ejemplo de niño que quiero para mi
Te adoro y siempre estaré para ti niño
From: ABC
To: Em
thank you for the best three months this year. things didn't end how i'd hoped but i'm just glad i got to spend a little bit of time with you. i'll love you forever bub.
From: ABC
To: Em
we work now, but i want us to work in 50 years. i love you now, but i want to love you for 100 years. i want us forever.
From: ABC
To: Em
I think its time to say goodbye to you. you're just my friend but I thought we would be in each others weddings. now its been months since we have talked. its okay im not mad, but its hard you know?
From: ABC
To: Em
i’ll never forget how brightly you shone. it’s been years, and staring at the sun just doesn’t feel the same.
From: ABC
To: Em
why is it so hard to say what's so important to me? i need to tell you something. maybe i'll just suck it up and blurt it out.
From: ABC
To: Em
we’re different people now and i could have sworn i was over you but i still can’t listen to our song.
From: ABC
To: Em
I used to wonder how people could live with the same person forever. Now I wonder how I ever lived without you.
From: ABC
To: Em
I hate you for shattering the image of my first love; now I’m left with nothing but memories of heartbreak
From: ABC
To: Em
I hate the way I miss you so much. You were a part of my life for five years, and I spent so much money on visits to see you and I feel like that was just money wasted. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to be your friend. Brighton beach will forever hold some amazing memories, and I'm a little bit afraid to ever return to that seaside city you call home. I hate how you have ruined my favourite place for me.
From: ABC
To: Em
i love you emma bby. you are so so strong and I admire you for that, you inspire me everyday. thank you for being the best friend I could ask for, I hope I do you justice. ew anyway love you sexy
From: ABC
To: Em
you don’t believe in perfect, and neither do i - except, i remember you said something along the lines of perfect being happy, maybe you meant that perfect is now ; since there’s nothing else it can be. there’s nothing else we can be except for what we are in that moment, and all the moments i’ve seen you in have been pretty perfect. in the sense that they’re tangible and everywhere at once, what i see of you and what i don’t, a perfect moment in time - it merely is, and that’s mystical within itself. thank you, for all the of the moments and everything inbetween.
From: ABC
To: Em
you promised you would never hurt me but, you're hurting me so bad right now. i loved you so much and i don't understand what happened.
From: ABC
To: Em
i look for you in every person i see; i listen for you in every song; feel for you in every dark room. i find you everywhere. but, somehow, you have not found me again yet.
From: ABC
To: Em
You said you loved me.... but if you truly loved me you would’ve stayed even if it hurt you... cause that’s what you do when you love someone, you fight for them no matter what.
From: ABC
To: Em
You know what hurt the most?That you gave up on me without a second thought of it.... so of course you didn’t “ like me” because if you did you would’ve stayed.
From: ABC
To: Em
I don’t regret much of what happened between us but it would’ve been a lot easier if we had just stayed strangers.... cause look here we are back to strangers.... only this time with some memories.
From: ABC
To: Em
Lastly, I just hope that whoever the next person is, you respect yourself enough to tell them how you feel.... so you don’t put them through the same hurt and pain you put me through.
From: ABC
To: Em
How did you move on so fast? Was I that horrible for you? I don’t know what i did and you didn’t give me any reason. No closure. You’re the person who understood me best and now you’re gone. I wanna hate you but I can’t
From: ABC
To: Em
When you meet the way we did, theres no telling what to expect. You assume that the person is telling the truth, I had no reason to lie. A level of trust was built over thoses few weeks and now its gone. That one night you gave me an out, looking back now I should have taken it. Throughout this whole ordeal I learned many valuable life lessons, but they should'nt have been at your expense.
From: ABC
To: Em
fuck you, you hurt me more than you'll ever know but i still forgave you, although you never truly cared.
From: ABC
To: Em
I wish we could be more than friends. Stop acting weird around me. I think you know how much I love you and it haunts me that you do.
From: ABC
To: Em
you wished we could ’fast forward’ but why not now? did you ever mean the all things you said to me?
From: ABC
To: Em
I'm sorry for everything, I love you with all my soul, with all my organs. Always shine my love
From: ABC
To: Em
what more did i have to give for you to love me like i loved you?
From: ABC
To: Em
I don’t understand why you haven’t given up on me yet. I don’t deserve to have you in my life.
