Unsent messages to ED
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 15, 2023, 10:58 am UTC
i wish our families would let us be together. i love you
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 10, 2023, 5:48 am UTC
i can’t believe it took you a month to move on. i thought i meant more to you
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 9, 2023, 11:35 pm UTC
I haven’t been the same without you, you were my life & home. My heart is forever yours.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 24, 2023, 7:17 am UTC
i wonder what would become of us if I wasn't so afraid, if i had just made a move sooner.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 20, 2023, 2:45 pm UTC
the sun is starting to set earlier. i still think of you sometimes
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: August 28, 2023, 7:45 pm UTC
I would have never made you cry like he did
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: August 25, 2023, 10:06 pm UTC
you hate me, but why? YOU broke MY heart.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: August 21, 2023, 9:39 pm UTC
I miss you and i hope you’re proud of me
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: August 20, 2023, 11:25 pm UTC
I still think about you everyday and it’s been years :/
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: August 7, 2023, 8:58 pm UTC
I love you forever, you are important to me
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 13, 2021, 8:58 pm UTC
6 months on & ur still stuck in my head. U broke a part of me and I hate that u have that power. I'll never forget you, but I wish I could.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 13, 2021, 12:41 am UTC
4 years later and i still think about you. i hope you're doing okay, and I hope one day maybe we can be friends again. i miss u
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 12, 2021, 12:53 am UTC
You broke my heart but im glad you did it so soon.. cause if it would have gone further i wouldn't have survived it.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:33 am UTC
te amo. eres lo mejor que me paso debĂ decĂrtelo antes de que murieras, siempre estarás en mi corazĂłn
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 7, 2021, 11:15 pm UTC
years later and i still think of you. i hope you don't cry at night anymore. you were my world and you deserve the world.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: January 7, 2021, 5:41 pm UTC
i love the idea of you and i am attached and attracted to you. but i do not love you as you do not me. you made the sky crumble and waterfalls roar with a single glace. you and yourself, perhaps you and someone else, never mine, forever in my mind.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: December 12, 2020, 3:14 pm UTC
First day i sat next to you i thought you were the most annoying person. But deep down i enjoyed every minute a spent with you. Honestly time flew and i didnt realise my heart was falling for you. Our year together was cut short due to the pandemic and i never got to say goodbye. Quite recently ive been missing you and looking at old memories together. Watching those made me realise how much ive fallen for you. Yesterday you walked past me and i made eye contact with you. That split second felt like i was safe and happy, i want to look at you forever but i theres no way you fee l the same. So Ed i love you and i know ill never get to tell you this. But letting it out feels good. i hope your happy right now. Goodbye..
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: December 7, 2020, 11:52 pm UTC
i can’t view a sunset without thinking of you and i can’t pick a flower without thinking of the garden i wanted with you
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: December 2, 2020, 9:10 pm UTC
I wish you could know how you left things, it has always stayed with me. Like, you know you need to do something but have forgotten exactly what that something is. Or the song you can hum the tune to but never figure out its name. Or the room you walk into but forget why you went there in the first place. I have never stopped wondering, I have never stopped questioning. For some reason I never blame you, I keep circling back to myself. What did I do wrong? Is my love not enough? When you start questioning your own ability to love, you stop thinking you have any to give. I have spent a long time on my own, deeply alone. I want to tell you how much I miss you, not a day goes by where you don’t cross my mind. That is sad, isn’t it? Holding onto the last tiny piece of my past, an idea of what love felt like. Sometimes I feel like that’s all it will ever be for me again, an idea.
Nothing ever fits right, almost like someone else’s piece of the puzzle is made for someone else, never mine. My piece is torn, faded and never going to fit into the picture. You made me feel so alive, so whole, so loved. What can one do when those are taken away? I've had a lot of time to think, but I never seem to get past the love I had for you; no one makes sense and no one measures up. You were the one I saw myself with until my last breath. Now you see yours with another and I am left with just a shadow of what that feels like.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: December 1, 2020, 2:14 am UTC
i can't believe it's been almost 4 years and you're still in my head. if that's what you wanted, it worked.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: November 14, 2020, 8:07 am UTC
Sigo luchando cada dĂa porque esto funcione, pero cada dĂa encuentro razones para irme. Te amo, pero quedarme me está lastimando.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: November 11, 2020, 5:10 pm UTC
Hi Ed, it's been a long time since I talk with you, and I want to say sorry. I feel sorry for all things I did to you, I feel so guilty for everything.
I just want to say I love you and I miss you. You took my heart with you and I just want it back.
Please be happy. I hope I don't cause so much hurt, and if I did, please forgive me.
I love you, Ed. You were my best friend and the first person I loved, and that means the world to me and I would never be enough grateful for it.
And I just hope you can forgive me.
You deserve everything in this world.
I've chosen green because it is your favorite color.
Yours sincerely, D.
Please, don't read this.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: November 7, 2020, 1:00 am UTC
I loved you and you ignored me, but now that you started liking me, I don't want anything to do with you.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 28, 2020, 7:41 pm UTC
im sorry about the last time we saw each other, i told you i was better and i guess im not. im trying and i hope youre proud even tho i fucked you over. text me in a few years
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 16, 2020, 6:47 pm UTC
Im so disappointed in you. I loved you with all my heart but you treated me like shit. I dont think i will ever love the same again.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: October 11, 2020, 9:27 pm UTC
i remember you always telling me there’s no one better for you than me. guess that changed huh? sorry i wasn’t enough for you. i have so much to say to you. but i won’t waste your time like that. so, i just wanted to thank you. thanks for helping me love myself. i found myself with you. you helped me through so much without even knowing. i love you ed. i’ll forever love you. there isn’t a day i don’t go without thinking about you. thank you. say hi to mom and dad for me. of course you have to tell ur doggy that i still love him as well.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 28, 2020, 12:32 pm UTC
I'm sorry for hurting you how I did. I didn't know half of what I do now; I think of you whenever I see your sisters
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 22, 2020, 4:43 am UTC
sorry I was confident enough in myself to make you feel as loved as you were. you were always my favorite person, I wish I made sure you knew it.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 20, 2020, 8:04 pm UTC
Today I listened to the song you dedicated to me on my birthday, after nine months without doing it. I cried... I felt so angry.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 13, 2020, 3:07 am UTC
I still think about you when I'm cold, about when you taught me to be warm. maybe if you weren't a nitty Eddington.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 13, 2020, 3:03 am UTC
you were different that night. I liked him, not you now. things are jilted- I want you firsthand again.
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 12, 2020, 5:13 pm UTC
I still love you more than ever. I’ll always work on me so I’ll be better if you come back .. I’m sorry
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 12, 2020, 2:16 am UTC
If we had met earlier and I decided to go the same university as you, would you have chosen me over him instead?
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 6, 2020, 7:55 pm UTC
You sit next to me in class now. How it pains me when our elbows touch. Your laugh is still my favourite thing, but you’re happy with your girlfriend so I should stop thinking this. How do I turn it off? I don’t want to feel this anymore
From: ABC
To: Ed
Date: September 6, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
I’m sorry that when you asked me out I said no. Truth is my mind wasn't/isn’t in the best place. I thought you were joking, I never thought anyone could like me. I actually had the biggest crush on you, truth be told I still do. You’re in a relationship though, I’m just happy you’re happy. Please forgive me.
