Unsent messages to DUY

i miss hanging out with you bro, i wish you’d answer back lol and we can go get Pho again

i dreamt you came back to me.that you still love me after all this time. was it really just a dream?

If you had reached out, I’d fs let you come back in a heartbeat bc I forgive you

its my birthday and i wish i could hear from you again but i know i wont

it’s three in the morning and i’m rereading our old texts, i miss you

i cried today because i forgot the sound of ur voice

i still think of you everyday. im scared my love for you will never fade away.

its four in the morning and i’m thinking about you, i’m re-reading all of our old texts, i miss you

i finally like someone new, i havent felt this way for anyone after you. hes amazing.

i wonder if you ever think of me randomly and hope im doing well

im gonna let you. i owe it to myself because you are never coming back

im letting you go from today onwards. i need to heal because u wont come back

it hurts me everyday knowing i will never be able to know what your touch feels like

do you still think about me too?

i dreamt of you today. please get out of my head.

i miss knowing details about your life. sometimes i sit and wonder whats happening in ur day

part of me prays you leave her but i know she loves you too much and she doesnt deserve that

id rather hear your silence over anyone elses voice

i miss the way you looked at me

the thought of you forgetting me terrifies me.

at least im going to live in the universe you loved me in.

i really hope you’re flourishing in rugby.

uh its my birthday, thank you for greeting me. it was the only one i was looking forward to. i called you so late last night. im sorry i woke u up but it was the only way i could say how i really feel. whenever i do get the chance, i cant bring myself to say those things even when its killing me, but today, i told you. im sorry i cried in front of you like that, i didnt mean to but hearing your voice broke me. you told me everything i was afraid that you were gonna tell me but all i could say was i understand and that its okay. you said now isn't the right time for us and that you had other things to focus on, anything you say i try to justify and understand because thats how much i love you. i dont cry in front of anyone at all but you know that feeling when your heart just drops when hearing things that completely crush you? yeah that. you hurt me, a lot. if we were closer would it be different? you say you miss and love me too then come back to me, i won't give you a hard time :( deep down i know youre telling me you couldn't give a hundred percent right now to cover the fact that youve fallen out of love, but i dont wanna admit it. i wanna think that you really just need time to focus on yourself but how could i when all i see you do is flirt with other girls? im watching the boy i loved, love someone else, and i wouldnt wish that upon anyone :( it hurts

why do you play with my feelings like that? you come back to tell me things that make me think you want me and then just go back to ghosting me for a while. i know you're not that naive and i know you know how much its hurting me. ive tried to talk to you about it but you always find a way to get yourself out of it. its so emotionally draining, you know? you come to me and play our songs, tell me that we've always had this connection that nobody else had. how could you say those things expect me to forget about you? please stop, allow me to move on. i love you so much still and trust me im trying, but youre not helping. i miss you, but fuck you.

i think it's time to move on, i'm tired of wasting my days and nights staring at my phone waiting for a reply. i am happy we happened though, youve showed me what love should be and what it shouldn't. your soul is one of a kind, youll always have a place in my heart. take care, my love

i still stay up all night just to be there when you wake up. if i were closer to you would things be different?