Unsent messages to DENNIS

i knew that i loved you when things were so easily i wish i just said it back then. But i can’t so: i love you until we die.

you still blame me. that i hurt you. but you used me. i still crave you but you made my heart rot... i wish we could’ve been normal. i still and will always love you, even after what you did. it hurts to see you, or hear about you. i dont think you even think about me anymore. im just another girl. but it’s ok.

You’re a nasty piece of shite Dennis. I wish I never met you and I hope I’ll never see your ugly face again :3

I need to stop thinking about you. You’re not worth a single ounce of my time and energy. Fuck you Dennis

You get my hopes up and down. Fuck you for making me feel so unwanted. You’re ice blue like your heart

i wish i could hate you, that would make my life easier. but i can’t, i’ve tried so hard but i always end up back to you.

It hurts to think about you, like there’s a piercing ache right in my heart. Yet there is not one day I don’t think of you

I still love you, at least I still care for you. We broke up but I hope you're happier than when you're with me.

i know i said that i wish you the best and all i want is to see you happy , i still have that mindset ,, it just hurts a bit. it hurts that i have to pretend that i’m living my best life because you’re not in it anymore.

did you even love me? you moved on so fast and found somebody else and it makes me wonder if i was even wanted by you in the first place. it didn’t even take five days, i know everybody moves on differently but this is fucking me up. i hate this. i haven’t changed your name in my phone . i haven’t changed my home screen. i haven’t even deleted your photos. i cant shake the thought that maybe you cheated on me again. i get that that’s bitchy and low of me maybe , but you did it once and the fact that you moved on like you didn’t even care scares me and makes me wonder if you did it more times and i just didn’t find out. everything is so different. i don’t want you to just be a stranger but i don’t want to talk to you because i’m afraid of what i might say. ‘e

I just wish the timing was kinder between us. Starting something with anyone feels so wrong with everything that’s going on in my life right now. I still want to go on that date with you. I think you’d feel really nice to hold. But you don’t have to wait on anything. I hope you find what you’re looking for.

If lockdown never happened, would we still be together? If i wasn't as clingy as i am, would we still be together? do you still even care? do you still think there's a chance of us having a future together? could there still be a chance of us moving to Tokyo, have 3 kids and live happily ever after? Just like you promised.