Unsent messages to CONOR
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:26 am UTC
you inspire me to be a better version of myself every day. you’re amazing. i hope you never stop loving me even if it’s as friends.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: January 3, 2021, 4:29 am UTC
you aren’t my first love but you are the first one i could imagine a future with. you’re the best person i know and i trust you implicitly. everything about you is incredible and oh so loveable. i hope you are very happy my best friend.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:09 am UTC
you know what? fuck you! i hate you so much. i hate the way you make me feel all the time. i hate the way you make me fall in love with you everyday. i wish it was different. i hate you i hate you I HATE YOU!
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: January 1, 2021, 5:25 pm UTC
red for heartbreak, for courage. i loved you, and you didn’t love me- infatuation is not the same. i’m okay with that though. you taught me a lesson i needed to learn, and i thank you for that. i hope your life goes well, and i hope i’m never in it again.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: January 1, 2021, 4:06 am UTC
Hey, you were a great friend. I just wish things would have lasted longer. It was the right person, but the wrong time.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: December 10, 2020, 11:44 pm UTC
You broke me. You broke me and I think I’ll always be a little bit regretful and ashamed of what happened.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: December 6, 2020, 2:26 pm UTC
you were the first person to make me feel seen and i miss your beautiful voice, like out of film when we first locked eyes on the tram
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: December 6, 2020, 12:18 am UTC
Despite how we left things I still think about you sometimes. Its weird because I swear I'm fine and then the slightest, most random thought of you hits me. But it doesn't hurt like a scooter hitting the back of my ankle anymore and the pang in my chest doesn't ache as much when I think of your voice. In fact, I actually find myself being reminiscent now rather than resentful. That's the funny thing about the process of healing. You helped me feel that it was okay to be vulnerable and this is perhaps what I'm most thankful for despite the way things ended. You are a reminder that people may only enter your life to teach you something, and that is what echoed in the quake of your departure. So thank you.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 22, 2020, 10:39 pm UTC
you make me the happiest girl when you text me it makes my day your the most beautiful boy i’ve ever seen and you have a heart of pure gold
i’ve nothing but love for
you and i wish i could tell you how much i love you and how much you impact
my life
and make me a happier person never change you are amazing and i’ll love you forever and always no
matter what your truly special
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 21, 2020, 11:46 am UTC
Sometimes i imagine you and me under the stars listening to peep and drinking monster and that is all i need
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 20, 2020, 5:11 pm UTC
I miss you. I miss seeing you nearly everyday. You made me laugh. You made my day better. I just want to hug you.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 17, 2020, 5:44 am UTC
i told you that you aren’t the reason but you so are. i just can’t be that selfish and say it because all i want is for you to be happy in life.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 17, 2020, 1:49 am UTC
The longer we’re apart the more I understand the person you are. I wish I hadn’t made the mistakes I did, there’s nothing on this earth I want more than for you to be happy. I’m sorry
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 17, 2020, 12:34 am UTC
you took everything from me
everytime i see you i crumble
you remind me of all the hurt and pain
FUCK YOU I HATE YOU YOU RUINED ME
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 17, 2020, 12:31 am UTC
you broke me. i have never loved and will never love anyone like i loved you and you abandoned me. all alone afraid
I HATE YOU. YOU WERE THE ONE THAT BROKE ME
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 8, 2020, 1:15 pm UTC
i hope you know that you broke me many times and i got over it i found my worth i know my worth now stop running back to me like i’m a dog
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: November 3, 2020, 10:30 pm UTC
I really hate that I like you when you obviously couldn't care less. I wish we could go back to being close like how we used to be rather than how distant we are now.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 30, 2020, 8:07 pm UTC
its been a year since we last spoke. i hope you still have love for me in ur heart like i do for u. ill always love you and im sorry for how i handled things.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 29, 2020, 7:03 pm UTC
Before you, I told myself that for every time he makes u smile you will spend a night crying.
I hate you for proving me right
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 18, 2020, 11:28 pm UTC
You hurt me in unimaginable ways and have treated me horribly ever since. Don't message me ever again.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 13, 2020, 9:13 pm UTC
I wish I were less shy and you would’ve liked me better, i really loved you and i’m jealous you moved on so easily. I hope you do well in your football career.X
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 10, 2020, 12:18 pm UTC
i loved you a lot. you said the same. what changed? you don’t switch up on your best friend and start ignoring them. your just like the rest of them. you love her. but i will still always love you
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 10, 2020, 8:49 am UTC
I still love u even after u used me. I know I should hate u but I can't. you made me feel something again. come back.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 7, 2020, 3:17 am UTC
thank you for being my first love. i know you know i’ve moved on but i’ll never forget all of the amazing times we had, up to winning prom prince & princess together. you’ll always have a special place in my heart, and our relationship taught me more than you can imagine. i’m finally happy, and i know you are too.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 4, 2020, 9:30 am UTC
i never fell out of love with you. i miss you. i hope you’re okay. i always will, even though i know you don’t want me like that anymore.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: October 1, 2020, 12:01 am UTC
You made me feel like you wanted me. Then I let you have me. And then you left. Just gone. Nothing. That fucking hurt.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: September 20, 2020, 11:45 pm UTC
I’ve come to realise and accept that I am in love with you. But you couldn’t care less, and I’m not her.
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: September 14, 2020, 7:28 pm UTC
Fuck you for showing me what it was like to be happy
You left and took my smile along with you
Now all that's left is this darkness
Why did you do that?
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: September 9, 2020, 10:16 pm UTC
I told everybody about you but you didnt tell a soul about me. You were ashamed i was a big girl and didnt want your friends to make fun of me
From: ABC
To: Conor
Date: September 9, 2020, 7:26 pm UTC
I wish that day never happened because now you've left and all I can think about is how happy you made me
